wuhoooooooo!!!!!!!

hmmm... last few days I'm quite emotional on dealing my friendship stuff..
huh!! now when I'm think back, i think I'm the one who does wrong!!!

forget it..
i don't want to talk bout this stuff!!!
I'm quite happy last two days, everything seems to go very perfectly according to my plan.. smooth and nice!!

Finally, I'm register my name to take a car license..
then in a day or two, i might throw my spec away and say hello to contact lens!!
haha~~
erm.. all CNY clothing plus shoes i already bought...


and the most coolest thing is I've got a job!!!
yea!!!
i think this job is quite easy, and since the shop is small!! a size like triple my comp desk... i think i wont need to do heavy work like sweeping the floor.. wiping mirror i think this will not run from my job list... but at least very hard or tiring... lol I'm working at mini phone shop!!!

ahh!! quite happy with everything happen recently...
new year is coming and i hope everything will be just fine and~~~~

erm and~~~

maybe two days later I'm going to write again a blog of my achievement throughout this years and wishes for the up coming new year~~~~

^^
hmmm.. happy happy....

merry christmas

be merry be happy beczuse chirstmas is around the corner~~~
i dedicated all this song that invented by me to all my friends
who support |Talk Crap With NO Point|

from [rudolf the red nose reinder]
waiyin the leng lui santa
have a very pretty hair
and if you ever saw it
you will even say it leng ar~~

all of the other people
used to praise and call her name
and make the santa waiyin
happy happy all the time~~
hahahhahaha

.............
..................
.......................

[last christmas]
last christmas
i gave you my heart
but the very next day
you kiap pi jo~~
this year
to save me from kiap pi
i'll give you make of plastic de....



hohoho
aiks this is not horlick advertisment song
is me.. hoho~ing
wishing you an early merry christmas~~

jingly bell jingly bell
jingly money to my house
all the fun will be gone
if i tarak money~~

ahahahahhahaha
waiyin wish u a merry christmas
waiyin wish u a merry christmas
waiyin wish u a merry chirstmas
and a happy new year~~~

noisy nite
party nite
all is happy
all is sweating
lalallalalalala~~~

let heaven n nature sing
let heaven and nature sing~~~~
let heaven~~~~
and~~~
waiyin sing for u here!!!

thank you thank you

错了！

我错了~~~
发现我真的错了！！ 我该如何把我们的关系变会以前那样呢？
我伤了你吗？我真的伤了你，但你知道吗？你然我很难过耶，你的信息也伤了我的心。。
但也不能怪你啦，是我的错！我该如何做呢？
好烦好烦！！


我是坏人吗？所有的人可能都说是我的错。
但说真的，你也有错。。
为什么总是把所有的错误都推在我身上？
难道你都没有错吗？
如果你真的想的话，那么我再怎么努力也没有用了。。。
你想骂我？觉得我很自私吗？
我是很自私的！！ 这是全认识我的人都知道啊。。
你认识我也有两年了。。 两年的关系，难道还不足够你来了解我吗？

你说你很难过，要人了解你。。
我很快了吗？ 认识哦的人都觉得我快乐. 但真正认识我的人（没有一个）.. 说了也没用！！
有人了解我妈，或许会有，但他们了解我有多深？

你看我有很多朋友！！
但真正了解我的朋友其实也不多啊！！


你要我付出！！ 但你想一想，你有付出过嘛。。
算了算了。。
久燃天来决定谁对谁错吧！！
你要真阳区在别人面前说我，我都无所谓了。。
希望你能接受我的道歉咯。。。

i aM so SoRrY

hmmm..
yesterday, i've chat with my old friends, quite happy to chat with her because it's been a long time we dint see each other or chat because of busy life style each of us had...

at 1st we are talking about the plan we are going to have after she come back in more than 1 week from now (OMG!! cant wait for the day><).. we talk a lots about hair styling, because she plan want to have a hair cut when she come back...haha.. cant wait to let her see my new hair style, will she be shocked?!! lolx (actually one of my old friends got a shocked when she come back from holiday, maybe this hair style really doesn't suit me[in her opinion])

then i ask her about a friend(erm let this friend known as A), i ask that did she still contacting A?
then my friends said that A called her during A's birthday, she said that she is so sad, that she are celebrating her birthday alone(I'm not sure whether she got cry or not).. at this moment i felt really sorry to A.. i spend two year close relationship with her, and i don't know starting from what time, i started to ignored her.. there are time i start to avoid her.. and i don't know why I'm doing such action?!!

sometimes think back, i think in these few years after i enter Form6, i changed a lots, is really A LOT..
there are time i feel like i love to control other peoples( i mean my friends).. i want them to follow the way i thinks... i become really fast get upsets and get really angry over small matter they do to me... i cant understand why i become like this...

the most upset thing is about A.. i don't know why i cant get back the feeling i used to have with her when we are still best friends, i said a lot of bad thing about her, and sometime i felt that i had betrayed her feeling that she gave to me.. i know that she already can felt that i am trying to avoiding her... maybe A got said something about me that i have change to my friend just now.. but i wont get angry, because i know that i am wrong...

i don't know what to do.. i know you have come back, but i dint dare to go out with you.. wait for my friends come back 1st, then, we celebrate A birthday together...

why i cant go out alone with A? i scare i have nothing to say, and A is a person that doesn't like to lied with me, i bet she sure bring up the issues that I'm avoiding her..

well all i can say is i am sorry A...
i cant say out sorry when facing you..
A doesn't know my blog page i think...
but i just really wanted to say sorry, maybe you cant hear it.. but i will show it!!!
but not now!!(what the hell am i trying to said here)

anyway all i wanted to say is sorry....
sorry to A
sorry to all my friends if i have treated you badly~~
and thank you..
thank you for understanding my attitude~~~
THANK YOU
T.T

this song really sing out the feeling i felt now.. every time i heard or think of this song, i think of all of my old friends.. and the lyric is all what i wan to said to them...
I'm really thinking of you? how are you? where are you? happy? or sad?
maybe i cant be by your side at the time you need me or you feel down? i hope when you listen to this song, you will know that, there are some one you know are thinking of you, don't give up!!!


最怕空气突然安静，
最怕朋友的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会友声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
时到如今终于然自己属于我自己
这是眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你，你会在哪里？过的快乐或委屈？
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念平~~~

我们那么甜那么美那么相信
那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和逾恨就老去~~

[女友]

嘿嘿嘿~~~
昨天和朋友出去走走和找工作的。
工是找不到啦，但却和朋友一起逛的蛮开心的^^
在回家的路上，我去了书店打算要买一些杂志回家看看的~~
啊啊啊啊~~
在家真的是无聊死了。
本来是打算要买娱乐杂志的，在书店呆了好久。突然给我看到“女友”这本杂志。
只看封面而已，已经吸引到我了。（嘿嘿~我也蛮容易被吸引的吗（嘿嘿~我也蛮容易被吸引的吗？！！又是另外一个购物狂）
RM8一本，哇！野蛮贵的，但我也买下来了。
回家翻了几页，发现杂志的内容也不错。
很好看耶，果然没白费我的钱。。
下一期我还要买，应为这一期他们有些一点关于下一期的内容，漫有意识的

“你快乐吗？有多快乐？快乐是什么？“
啊！！蛮有意识对吧？
等我买了之后才告诉你们好不好看。。。
哈哈~

upset!!!!~~~

arghhhh a bit upset
but if i upset for this kind of small thing means i really easily get angry
hei!!!
I'm not as good as you think
lol

I'm upset of what?
well actually, i know I'm not cute, not pretty, have nothing if compare to other 'ladies' out there~~~
erm~~~ what should i say...
don't ignored me because of that!!!
and please..
judge a book by its cover? why i said so? i don't mind have less friend like YOU who so like to see people appearance before making friends...

huh.. why should i be upset of this kind of people...
nah~~~ o0o
i still have other friends...
i wont die just because u judge me because of that...



p/s: actually this person did not mention or say anything bad about me... just that i think mostly people judge other people like that nowadays and one of the lucky people is me~~~
thank god for letting me know this kind of people.. let me know who this junk people are, you are dead!!! i will spread to whole world(my friends who support me)
bleak
:P

Pangkor Trip

yea.. my i finally step my leg into on the famous island of malaysia..
went for 3days 2 nights (11/12/2008-13/12/2008)

i have such a great and wonderful memories at there..
too bad.. i don't have camera or my camera phone follow me all the way during the trip..
so i only have limited picture at there...
but never mind.. i will sure going to Pangkor Island again..

thanks to one of my friend, who had plan all the trip.. including booking chalet and transportation at the island...
thanks to my friends also, i had my 1st experience ride motor to climb mountains roads... zzzz!!! and the 1st time i fell down from motor... zzzzzz!!! luckily only minor minor injured...

i stayed at SUNSET VIEW chalets, a chalet which located at a malays village beach.. although mostly all people at there are malays, but the way they treat other religion are superb good.. i will remember always the owner and the worker of the chalet.. the time we feed the hornbill, talked bout bird until midnight, the big squid the treat us eat, the Aladdin style big prawn...

the 2nd day at the island, is the most exciting part of all, where i have my 1st experience of snorkeling... it was so fun until i snork at deep sea around 5hours.. lol... i learn simple way to swim.. i think i can swim now.. but a very very noob swimmer.. i need a goggles to help me....
i saw so many fishes, corals and experience the other way of life under the deep sea.. i guess all of us are having fun except to those who suffering from sunburn and minor cut all over the leg and arm when snorkeling..

the chalet was so comfortable that include everything that we needed, air-cond room, with TV(only two channel), bed with pillow and blanket.. so comfortable stay until i can sleep like dead body every night at there...
every day, whenever we are free at the room, we play card and talk.. there is one night, where we played and joke until around 2am.. i think we are too noisy until the next door people knock our walls... lol..

haih~~
3days and 2 night pass away so fast..
now i still miss Pangkor..
i still feel that i am floating at the sea now.. hahaha

this is some pic that i capture during the trip

hornbill hornbill
i got feed them papaya.. ^^



























i love beach












actually i plan wanna keep this for my own.. but in the end, i give it all to my brothers and friend











sotong goreng~~ taste like chewing gum.. nvr eat such a big sotong before..

damn it

i went to kl find the stupid fucking job..
what the fuck..
walk whole day find that damn restaurant..
walao~~
the stupid rubbish restaurant
look inside and outside
didn't feel got any 5 star looks.. damn it..
what the heck the restaurant name?
something sound like 'cha ri ton'.. damn fuck it!! so damn stingy.. in future, i sure wont step a leg inside the stupid restaurant..

damn it damn it
i walk whole days..
until my leg nearly broke..
shit!!!

haishhh~~
maybe the restaurant cant give me the salary that i expected, so i damn angry!!
nvm.. my parents doesn't let me work at kl also..

but..
this is not the main problem that i really mad of..
what the shit god damn fucker..
i just back from kl..
tired and leg pain..
then on the way home, my mum started to give me big lecture..
thanks to one of my friend's mum.. who go and spread out wide that it is very dangerous to go o beach..
walao..
you so care bout your daughter is your problem la.. what the fuck you wanna influence other people to follow you also..
i got money.. is my problem wanna go or not..
if i really die of ship sunk ed or drown middle of the sea..
is none of your business also.. and you no need waste white money to give me also..
damn it..

i was so happy bout the trip, and one session of 'ke po chi' meeting,
change all the thing that i plan to spend the last vacation with my friends...

o0o=.=o0o

[note]:sorry for my rudeness.. i am damn frust of everything that happen to me yesterday and today.. damn tired and fuckinly pissed off by alot of thing.. maybe tomorrow the story will be not the same again.. i might thanks the auntie for consulting my mum for the news that go to the beach is very dangerous

what should i do?!!

arghhh
recently i have so many problem..
actually is not a problem i guess.. but im too nervous and a little bit excited of everything that going to happen soon..

things that happen today really make me headache...
im planning to go kl to find jobs..
but then
my family seems to against the job i wanna do..
and i cant convince them to let me work...

arghhhhhh
just forget it..
let me go kl tomorrow
then see what happen 1st
then only plan what should i do..

the 'fuck' word
always appear in my mind everyday..
feel like wanna scold out loud..
arghhhhh~~~

argh!!!!

i realize im alone
very alone
so alone

make me wanna sing a song
yea
lonely~~
o miss lonely..
i have nobody~~
all~~
my own!!!

holiday are so boring..
i wanted to sleep.. but recently, i found out difficulty in sleeping.. i close my eyes, alot of things started to playing in my brain.. and i cant remember what am i thinking to make me sleep...
im sleepy, but i just cant sleep..
haih..
too much thing for me to concern..

im thinking of leaving here..
i want to get my STPM result soon..
quickly start my another schooling life...

i used to love holiday so much...
but this LONG holiday meke me sick and tired..
although i dint do so many thing these past few days..
i just so tired and wanted to end this fucking holiday..
atleast give me a job!!
i wonder will i get a job and start to go work at 15/12..
if yes..
i will truly thanks to GOD..

i still wanna write alot of thing since i cant sleep..
nvm nvm
i wanna go and watch online drama..
find a extreamly lame and boring drama..
hopefully i can sleep by 3am..

Disaster 1st Holiday trip

haih
my holiday had started..
the very next day, right after i finished i exam..
i jumped into bus to go to ipoh with my friends...

wa..
a happy trips turn to disaster for me..
but overall it is quite fun journey with my friends..
i heard their laughter all the time(laugh me==''')

by the way,
what happen?


this is my shoes i weat to ipoh.. right after arrive at ipoh parade, we went to eat.. and i discover the fuck shoe.. the damm fuck shoes....
haih..
i think u can imagine from what u see at the pic..
i have to spend extra money to buy a shoes..
and my friends?
1st hing to do when they know it
yea~~
laugh their lung out...


then...
we went to sushi king...
and order sushi bla bla bla~~~

but the main poin tis this pic

do u know what the heck is this? and do u know the correct way to eat this food?
well im not a japanese.. i dint learn their culture or the way they eat their food..
whatever food the serve in my eyes..
i just eat it...



i mean i rally put all the thing inside my mouth and chew it and swallow it..
for your infomation..
im a bit different from other..
if people think the food is hard to eat or swallow or got something weird bout it.. they will not continue eat it..
but i continue chew it and swallow it inside my stomach..
LOL
and then.. i tell my friends not to eat.. cause it taste weird and hard to chew
not long after that.. i saw a couple eating this thing.. and they quite enjoy it also.. argh!!! the way to eat that stupid thing is just eat oni the beans inside the thing not all pop inside mouth and eat... stupid supid
WTF.. then my two friends started to burst into laughter until their tears also come out..

nvm nvm..
maybe the next time they eat sushi.. they will forever remember me..
what a disaster holiday

planning for the upcoming LONG holiday

wuhoooo
holiday~~~
am i suppose to happy about this holiday? don't know why i hate holidays..

holidays are boring!!
holidays means stay at home
do nothing but play, eat and sleep..
i will end up become a housemaid at home...

lalala
i don't want to.. because, i am damm lazy to do house work..
haha
XD

but 1st,
i need to tidy up my room,
collect all the rubbish that stay at there for around 6months(haha)
then all the books,
will end up at OLD NEWS PAPER LORRY
or
given to people who need it....

then,
i desparetly need alot of money,
i need money to go for vacation and shopping
and my junky supplied for the time before i get a job


what should i do then,
oh yea!!!
i will wait for ppl to call me go out or 'yum cha'
or
me myself call up my bunch of good friends to 'yum cha'

until the day i get a job,
i will become a parasit at home..
do nth but spend money,
online
sms
tv
sleep
eat and
toilet

haha
XD

huh!!
holiday~~ BORING!!!
i hope i get a job soon..

再见，我的朋友^^

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~~~
真得很想痛痛快快的大喊大叫。

终于考完式了，
该觉得开心吗？本来还以为可以很快乐的大笑~~ 考完了，真名我已经不再是个学生了。
但难过的事情并不着这个，
最难过得应该是要在和我的一版好友分开。

还记得，我刚进学校时，并不能够适应突然该片的环境，
嗨~
好不容易才可以接受这些改变，没想到~
时间过的超快的。
就这样我们就要各走各路了。

你们因该不会忘了我吧？

说实话，
我一点都不快乐耶，
很像回到我们在一起的快乐时光~

不应该像太多了啦。。
我们就快快乐乐的享受在一起的假期吧！
我会深深的祝福你们每一个。
希望我们全部都可以找到属于自己的天空~~~

我永远永远都会爱你们！！！^^

money money

i am damm broke~~~
i need money desperately~~~

money money~~~

in this world
no ppl de money cannot talk...
song also got teach la..
no money no talk, no money no talk~~~

money ar~~~~
where are you!!!
TT

never said bad bout ppl

OMG!!!

last three days, i go and laugh at my friend who's pc is spoil...
and~~~
finally, my computer started to show some symptom that it is going to spoil soon..



my dear PC,
although you are older than other PC out there..
but you still younger than me..
i not yet die...
i don't want you to die before me...
at least not now..
my exam is going to over soon..
i need you!!!

大姐姐

today i realize i got many xiao di di(little brother) although we have no blood relationship.. but they very respect me and call me jie jie everyday(wahaha pai seh pai seh)

i got around 8 xiao di di i guess.. hahaha.. dint count the 'kai ' relationship （i means my god brother) where is this xiao di di come from? well they are actually my cousins brother, mother side cousins.. I'm the eldest girl.. most of them are boy and they don't have elder sister or younger sister.. so, i am their sister lo..

haha....

one more thing is today a cousin or my so called xiao di di bought a handphone.. of cz not using his money la.. his parent bought for him for no reason.. nowadays children so good.. in small age, they can owned a hp, and i found out, the hp more expensive than his parent's hp..
as for me, i beg till i die.. i think i cant get a hp also.. but thanks to god, give my father tio lottery.. then he only bought me a hp.. and it was when i were in form5...

well the story continue...
my cousin ask my handphone number and i gave him.. then i was so curious what are he going to put my name under his contact number so i ask him... why i was so curious?? and for your other information.. i am a evil sister.. i love to bully, scold them for no reason.. haha.. and they know my nickname at home.. thanks for my brother!! spreading it widely.. of course i want to see what he put my name... if he put my nick name, huh.. he sure die.. but if he put my name(i mean my real name) he also sure die.. lol... boh tua boh seh..
then i peek (not to say peek la, i ask him to show me)
he put my phone number as 姐姐.. woooooooo...
so respect me... haha.. luckily he know what to do jek...
but behind me, i think he wont change my name.. why? coz i know!!
muahahaha.. happy..


i got a big family~~~

another waste of time

huh!! damn it!!!!!
why? why? why?
after the exam that last two days ago, my spirit to study all gone... flew to no where...

i try to study, i really try.. but i just cant study, my brain cant function well.. it cant work under forcing.. lol..
what did i do today?
well sleep till noon, then i wake up, try to study math.. but end up playing online game again... i play from noon till night.. but don't worry, i got stop awhile to eat and bath...
thanks to my curiosity.. im addicted to viwawa.. whats that? well is a website that allow player to play game.. the game i love most is cho dai di(big2.5).. why must thanks to my curiosity? well i saw my brother play, and i felt kind of interesting.. whenever i online.. it seems attracted me to open the website and play... haha.. i think is for those who love gambling will addicted to it.. I'm too bored... your face look curious and wanna try the game also.. nah i give you the link, www.viwawa.com

and then, i try to enter wanted duck contest by digi.. spend almost half an hour to search for the stupid duck.. damn it, i cant find the stupid idiot duck!!!! nvm la, i enter before but i cant even win a thing... i dont have luck with this kind of competition actually, not even lucky draw...

i want pray hard.. oh my guan ying ma ar, please bless me with your magic water or what la.. i hope i dint failed... po pi me o...
so damn many mosquito biting me.. maybe they wanna remind me to study..
okok.. is almost 3am and im going to flip one to two pages of math before sleep...

exam week

i started my exam yesterday.. wow!! you cant imagine how i really felt on the day before the exam start.. i nearly cry out.. but not because of stress but i have exam phobia. i scared of exam.. huh!! i cant believe that i ask my father to take me go 'chai gong' to take some amulet and yellow paper to drink...

and the paper really work!! haha... during exam i can calm down and try to answer the question... although i cant answer all but at least I'm not scare...

and there is a guy sitting beside me... i love to look at him during exam.. (hei don't misunderstood) he is an Indian and i love to turn around to see him because every time i look at him, he is sure writing something and the face if him look funny.. hahahaha... and until the exam end, he is still writing some thing on his paper.. (huh!!) he got so many thing to write, very clever lo!! and look at me, 30min after exam start, i day dream awhile and do awhile... not to say i love day dream, is i already answer all the questions that i know how to do, well other question(erm i think don't want let you know better)

haih~~ feel a bit sad.. i cant do well on math.. but cant say too much, coz I'm the one who not studying, so if i get bad result.. i think i wont cry...

important paper are almost finish, now just left phy2 and math2 to go.. and objective paper? i think i will shoot all the question, i think can get at least 10 correct..

i don't aim to get good result.. i just hope, i can pass my STPM!!!
at least enough eat for me to enter localU (erm, i think can gua)

i love to move it

i like to move it move it
she like to move it move it
he like to move it move it

you like to~~~
MOVE IT!!!


i love to shake it shake it
she love to shake it shake it
he love to shake it shake it

you love to~~~
SHAKE IT!!!


i love to crap it crap it
she love to crap it crap it
he love to crap it crap it...

just CRAP IT!!!!!


脱掉烦恼，脱掉~~~
脱掉伤心，脱掉~~~
脱掉悲伤，脱掉~~~
脱掉，脱掉，脱掉~~ 脱掉！！
脱脱脱脱！！！！


sing out loud... party all day long!!!
shake off your head~~
shake off you ass~~
shake off your whole body~~
yeah!!!

she cry

just then, i forward a quite meaningful sms to everyone that state
God won give us everything that we wanted but will give us something that we needed without our acknowledge... actually still got quite alot of thing that quite meaningful, but i lazy type out...

then right after i forward it to everyone, a friend of mine reply back that she cry, i don't know whether my fwd msg make her cry after reading it, or she really under pressure.. well i think she really under pressure, she tell me that, she cried because of exam, she is under pressure of exam.. i don't know how to comfort her also, I'm... I'm... I'm not in pressure(lol).. maybe i can predict the result that I'm going to have, so i don't put so much hope on it.. pity my friend, i guess she put alot of effort on this exam, she really study, while I'm really playing and enjoying my life till now...

i just want to say that, put so much pressure on yourself will just make yourself in stress, even though you finish your study, doesn't means you can score well... sometime, things won work just as we expected.. the more you expected it to happen the more you will disappointed if it doesn't work out..

just like you wish to touch the sky, so you will try all kind of method just to reach the sky.. as you go higher and higher, then something happen, and u fell... hurt depend on how high you are.. well i guess i maybe have minor injury, not even a scratch, coz i know that is impossible to touch the sky.. but this make me continue becoming a failure, while ppl who still thought they can touch sky, continue upgrading themselves, they learnt and try to improve each time they failed... i laugh at them but i am the real failure if compare with them... i stay at the same lvl all the time.. haih~~

but cry is good, don't make yourself in so much pressure, later you might gone crazy.. who's know right? face the exam happily and try your best.. you may failed the exam but at least you try and give your very best.. and the most importantly, don't compare.. compare is the most stupid thing that human will do.. what for you wanna compare, you and other ppl brain not the same, you may think you failed, but you might dont know that you are clever than most of the ppl out there..

the reason you study so hard is also only for to get a better job with high paid salary so you can have a better life.. well there no need to study so high to get a high paid salary, in this century, its depend on how you think to make money flow to you account only..

i just want to say that don't give so much pressure to yourself.. just face the exam with open heart and relax.. maybe exam is not as hard as you think^^

new hair style..

before you really take a look at this post..
please be prepare,
not to laugh
not to tease

i've done a new hairstyle last week(1/11/2008).. it took me awhile to accpet it, and publish it to public.. even my friend, i din't dare to show them.. but they give me good responses.. meanwhile, my brother and cousins tease me.. in a joking style..

okok lets get the show started...


this is taken on the day right after i done my hair(4hours)


cool? they call it negro hair.. african hair


after 2 to 3 time washing my hair.. not curl anymore.. wuwu sad


or look more nicer with a pin?

but finally, i can adapt with it.. with tz hair i can

do emo emo pic


or girly girly pic


and cool pic!!!

well then most important is, i have the most special hair in town...
ppl say change hair will affect your lifestlye
i mean it.. is truth..
now when i go out, mostly ppl will look at me for a long time (did i too SS)
haha have to start adapt with it...

thats the end of the show... kindly plz wash your eye before you sleep, if not....
you will have extreamly sweetest dream until u dont want to wake up.. hahaha

the real fact of study

i learn a real fact of study 2 years ago.. quite funny!!
why i want re write two years back stories? well 2 years ago, i don;t have internet connection, and actually, i also don't know what is blog? no wonder ppl now adays said old people noob at high tech things.. hey!!! im not old, i still now blogging!! yea, you might said that blog is lame.. you know what i will answer back? my problem la!!!!

hei hei.. back to my topic, what is the real fact of sudy, well i can say it but i can see you, so i have to type it.. and it can be shown through equation...
involving a very simple math calculations.

STUDY = NO FAIL -----(1)
NO STUDY = FAIL -----(2)

lets (1)+(2)

So,

STUDY + NO STUDY = NO FAIL + FAIL

take out the same thing

STUDY(1 + NO) = FAIL(NO + 1)

and you will get
STUDY = FAIL

so, what's the point of study, sleep la..

poopooman aka wira tahi

study till my head gonna burst, lucikily still got shin chan comic accompany me during these hard days.. hahaha..

read back the old version of shin chan comic book, quite funny but dint laugh out loud... there is one part where shin chan become wira tahi... so cute!! with his attire and theme song..

well i read malay version, so the theme song of cz are in malay la..

LAGU TEMA WIRA TAHI
---------------------------------
mangkuk tandas yang berwarna putih_____ (whitish colour toilet)
tahi pula yang berwarna keemasan!______ (goldish colour of poo poo)
hari semalam kuat makan________________ (yesterday eat alot)
hari ini kuat berak!___________________ (today poo alot)
puk, puk, puk!_________________________ (puk puk puk)
wira tahi hebat!_______________________ (poopooman incredible)


bansai wira tahi~~ hahaha...

what i want

I've being scold for getting bad result for the pass year paper..(opss my parent finally found it out).. yea, they are extremely disappointed with me.. i can understand their feeling, so I've change to study hard this few days...

but what i really cannot accept is they blame me for not taking tuition, blame me for playing with comp and TV i still can accept.. but the other thing they say is just base on what they think... do they really try to understand why I'm quiting my tuitioning.. they said I'm too clever, clever than tuition teacher... skipping school everyday, is because I'm too clever till no need to attend school.. huh!!! am i too clever?? you never ask me the real reason I'm quiting and at that moment i was just stunt and cant say a word... actually i want to explain the real reason, but since you already take me as what u expect in your mind.. why am i going to explain... just a waste of time and you will say that i was trying to protect myself and giving so many excuses...

do they really ask what i want? huh!! not even my parent treating me this way, even ppl around me are treating me this way.. friends is to used, actually i don't think this phrase is true until i meet them... they really used me up.. hmm, i don't care bout it since i want to help my friends and really treated them as friends... until one day i realize, they really just using me, sad? nope.. angry? nope.. i have no feeling toward this kind of friends who are just using me up, for what should i care.. if they felt im the type that can use and other ppl only is their best friends, then keep it up.. this is not the 1st time I've betray or use by friends.. is OK to use me, but plz don't do it so obvious by the way u treating me and other are completely different.. I'm not stupid and i can feel it...

you thought im angry? nope.. im not angry at all... i still can friend with all the people who betray me before till now, so why should i break up those relationship that had made.. i believe one day, they will change the way to treat me as a ppl or a FRIEND.. as for my parent, is a good thing for them o think im a bad daughter.. i never wanted to become a good ppl, nt even infront of my family and friends, at least when i do bad thing, ppl wont scold me for that.. but if a good ppl does a bad thing once.. no one can ever forgive the ppl.. thats life...


talk till the end, i am not angry to everyone, not even sad or wanted to cry out loud.... just wanted to write what i felt only

confusing and funny sms

recently i love to send sms.. thanks to digi Super SMS plan, i can send unlimited sms to my friends.. haha..
i receive many sms before,some were very funny but too bad it is in chinese.. not all my friends know how to read chinese, so i translate the msg and send to them...(think back, i felt that i too free and spendding time doing stupid thing instead of studying hahaha)
well there is one sms i love the most, since it is in chinese, i translate it and fwd to many ppl (and i realize the sms is spreading at whole anson, muahaha.. happy to know that my translation sms are spreading widely lol)

the story of the sms is like this:

a crazy man tell a story of himself:
i marry with a woman who has a daughter. Then later, my father marrymy wife daughter's.. so my step-daughther had become my step-mum and my dad had become my step-daughter-in-law. Two year later, my wife born a boy, the boy is my step-mum, same mum but different dad's younger brother. The boy call me dad, but i want the boy to call me uncle.. not soon later, my dad which is my step-daughter-in-law born a kid, the kid is my younger brother but he have to call me grandpa. At the same time, ia m my wife's husband which is my step-mum's mum, which also can be known as my gramdma. So, i am myself's grandpa.
Therefore i gone crazy...

lol.. this sms quite confusing huh.. it take time to understand.. my english quite noob, so i hope i dint translate wrong.. haha (don;t point out my mistake if got any haha)

another sms is:

a short story about SEE and SAW.. One day, SEE saw sea but SAW dint see sea.. SEE saw sea and jumped into sea.. SAW dint see sea but jumped into the sea.. SEE saw SAW in sea and SAW saw SEE in sea.. SEE SAW both saw sea and both SAW SEE were happy to see sea.. haha.. don't confuse, confuse other...

this see saw story is fwd by one of my friend.. so i want to remake this story...

a short story of Who and You

one day You bumped into Who and say
You:hi, who are you?
Who:erm.. i am who.. but who are you?
You:yea i am asking who are you. and i am you!!
Who:you are not me and i am who!!
You: i know i am not you but i am you.. why u keep asking me who are you?
Who:i am not asking you who am i.. but i am who...and you are not me!!
You:you say you are not asking me who are you, but you keep on asking.. i say already, i am You not you!!
Who:you are not me!!! and i am who!!!!
and they keep on who are you, i am you and i am who until they got into a fight and end up in police station...
the end


haha.. now i realize im wuite creative also (psps)
read until now but dint get confuse? you are so geng!! lol even me myself dont know crap until where ady...
ok lo.. next time think of something good to confuse you again.. muahahaha

五月天 后青春期的诗

期待了好久，五月天终于发了他们的“后青春期的诗“。 超好听哦！！ 果然没让我失望。 嘿嘿嘿！！
这次的专辑并没有好像上次那张那么悲伤。哈哈~我比较喜欢快了一点的歌。

我真的有那么的喜欢五月天吗？应该不是啦，只是他们的歌琛经感动到我。从五月天的歌，教了我好多东西耶。 很跨长吗？但都是真的，他们的歌琛经给过我感觉到我可以拥有小小的梦想。以前，当我感到很难过的时候，就是五月天的歌，把我伤心的事都忘了。有些歌，如果你真得很用心的去听，你可以感觉得到那首歌有一种莫名奇妙的 feel 吸引到你。五月天就是酱吸引到我。那因该是以前听他们歌时候的感觉吧。现在，可能长大了，感觉也越来越来难找回来，再加上度炸的想法，以前的我就离我越来越远。但这都是每个人都必须经过的一个长大的过程吧！

两年前的‘为爱而生’应该是为了石头快要出生的宝宝而唱的吧。这次的专辑给我感觉到在唱着年轻人的生活和希望。

歌曲列表
01突然好想你
02生存以上 生活以下
03你不是真正的快乐
04爆肝
05噢买尬
05噢买尬
06出头天
07我心中尚未崩坏的地方
08春天的呐喊
09夜访吸血鬼
10如烟
11后青春期的诗
12笑忘歌

词曲:阿信

然我们用心去了解每一首歌的意义吧。 但最重要的是要听哦。

too much hope, too much pressure

hmmm what a nice phrase.. i learn it from my father... suppose to say my father scold me with that... he said to me two time before.. ' hey!! everyone [fan tao] do ppl but you [fan gao] do ppl'.. hmmm.. he said so because, i love to sleep and the way i do thing also quite lazy(superb lazy)... i lay in sofa watch tv, eat also laying, read book also laying, very seldom see me sitting at home, except when im using computer.. haha

i started to learn lesson from the phrase my father give it to me.. well today i went to school and everyone in my class started to skip school since attandence are not going to take anymore.... there are only 4 ppl in my class who are still very hard working to come... haha.. acctually i like the feeling of my class atmosphere today, quite and calm.. atleast i manage to study 3chapter( chap1 to chap3 ==) of my genereal paper1... study chemistry and math.. well then, i will keep it up and fight for it.. i mean fight for STPM...

i remember, i dream i gotten my STPM result and i get 2A.. so happy with it.. this make me really wanna make the dream come true.. although there are only left around 1 month time before the exam.. i hope i can cover every subject...

i study and study and study, yesterday, i try to remember what i study last month and i found out i forget everything.. haih.. how i hope, there will be a ppl help me.. how to help me? wwll, i hope there can be a person, close friends if can, scold me... look down on me... say to me
'aiya, see your trial result also can know, you cant score well for STPM la, give up ba'
or
'i wonder what are you doing in here, there aer a more suitable place for you lo.. THE STORE will always open their big door waiting for you'
lol
XD

too harsh? yep!! this is what i want.... maybe this will make me angry and i want to prove to everyone that i can do it.. I REALLY CAN DO IT!!!!

too many ppl put alot of hope on me.. they still thought i can do it, since im too 'clever'... some even say atleast 3A u can get...and i stunt... and thought, i havent show u my report card since i enter form6, once i show you, you sure take back what you had said just now... hahaha... pressure started can be felt as time pass.. with the hope my parent, my relative and my parent friends(huh?), i started to get nervous for the exam..
huh!!! i still want to enter UNIVERSITY, find a good job with HIGH PAID salary..
so crap too much and day dreaming too much everday are no use, i better start to fan tao.. yea!!

another big step that i had take to start fan tao~ing is:

1.go to school everyday(huh!! hope i can do it, u must be thinking what the point of going school since teacher are not going to teach anymore.. well well your thinking are too narrow, stay at home will make me felt sleepy or end up playing computer game or watch tv, so i rather wake up a bit early and spend 5hour at school, maybe i can study at there)

2.start to ignore my friends(erm, i mean not going out with them, and cancel all the party invitation.. sorry ya.. hehe)


promise to myself: not to let down my father and mother hope on me...
crap of the day:'fan tao' dun 'fan gao'(read it in canton) |fight dont sleep|

a blog a day keep all my emo away

i've try to control it.. but i cant... the emotional will just suddenly pop up and i wanted to be alone and remain silent..... hmmmm... but then, i have found a way to recover my feeling again.. writing blog and crap out loud... lol


is like started yesterday, i dont know why, i suddenly think back something negetively, feel sad.. somemore my brother talking his 'sam si' his problem and story with my younger brother.. ==..then i go and delete my friendster account.. the reason i delete it because of emo~ing, but the main reason is because i wanted to delete some one,( cannot be said someone, should say alot of ppl).. hei hei.. well this friends can be say close and cant be say too friendly also.. anyway, in conclusion i deleted it, erm i mean i canceled my account... did i regreted it? NO! until now i feel quite happy with my decision.. haha... still contacting with my other close and real friends through msn, so deleted friendster account wont bring any big different.. Ah!! got, atleast i wont open it everyday(started to addicted into it).. i dont want end up to become a slave of internet.. nonono... i dont want to get addicted into it.. my life seems like boring with sleeping and computer everyday.. haha.. its time to study and take a nice and deep breath of the world..

recently every evening, started around 4 to 5 pm, raining unstop.. sometime will continue until de morning.. is a good thing indeed.. haha.. i love cold weather... so dear god, plz continue spread rain everyday ( om ni tuo fo) not amen coz im a buddhist...

promise to myself: sleep less, online less, emo less, smile more, talk more, happy more, study more.. +U+U(add oil and add fire....kebakaran? lol)
crap of the day: a blog a day keep all my emo away~~
hmm shud i change it, blogging everyday will keep me addicted too.. muahaha... whatever la..

吴克群 - 残废 (Disable)

吴克群 - 残废

爱里行动不便　　追不上你的美　　
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴　　分开我骗了谁　　
想擦掉你的脸　　
擦不掉痛却更明显　　
你说你要的世界　　
在很远　　我不了解　　
分手就分手　　别把话说得太美　　
我像个残废飞不出你的世界　　
借不到一点安慰　　
为什么你拼命后退　　
退到了边界　结果我没了　　
知觉　就连痛都嫌浪费　　在爱里残废　
非弄得伤痕累累　　累到我无力在追　
最怕你突然要挽回　　回到了原点　　
原点却又像终点　　然后　多痛一遍　
爱你心都不变　追不上你的美　
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴　分开我骗了谁　　
想擦掉你的脸　　擦不掉头却更明显　
你说你要的世界　　在很远　　我不了解　　
分手就分手　　别把话说得太美　
我像个残废飞不出你的世界　
借不到一点安慰　
为什么你拼命后退　
退到了边界　结果我没了　
知觉　就连痛都嫌浪费　在爱里残废　
非弄得伤痕累累　累到我无力在追　
最怕你突然要挽回　回到了原点　　
原点却又像终点　　然后　　多痛一遍　　
我像个残废飞不出你的世界　　
借不到一点安慰　　为什么你拼命后退　　
退到了边界　结果我没了　　知觉　　
就连痛都嫌浪费　　在爱里残废　　
非弄得伤痕累累　　累到我无力在追　　
最怕你突然要挽回　　回到了原点　
原点却又像终点　　然后　　多痛一遍　　
我像个残废　　在爱里残废


yeah another song i search... although abit old but then i love the music
the music talk about broken love until the person become disable to live on...
huh!! love hurt so much? well, sorry i dont know!! haha....

but the other theory of mine that can make a ppl 'disable' is friendship.. most of my friends put friendship before love( i guess this is because they havent in love before? haha jkjk)..

actually i think of alot of thing to write, but once i open blog to write, my mind when blank...
wish my friends can be ok soon.. everyone can felt angry, just dont just remember the bad thing that your friends done to you, think back the time you guys have time together.. maybe this will make you feel better..

enjoy da songs!!

卢广仲-100种生活 (100 type of life style)

整个世界 停止 不转动 很寂寞
走在海边 数着 萤火虫 好困惑
想要的生活怎么有一百种
不想掉进这深深 漩涡
整个海洋 摆动 柔软地 举起我
孤独给我 自由 忧郁得好感动
想要的生活怎么有一百种
该怎么走 谁来告诉我 wow
每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱 不敢说
当我背对星空
不断摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩 我猜不透
无边的宇宙 哪里有我(想)要的生活
一百种
要在很久很久以后才懂
一百种 生活

i love this song alots...
the melody, the way the singer sing that song.. all very ho tia(very nice to be listen) haha...
the title 100 types of life style, make me wonder of the life style i have now

hmmm my life style can be said boring, also can be say fun...
sometime good and sometime bad.. well how can anyone get good thing the whole life right!!
compare my life style with my family and friends, i think my life were quite boring also.. what to do.. the person ownselves also a boring ppl...
well stsrt it by talking bout my brothers

my tai lou
how to say him.. he is quite interesting guys.. sometimes i envy of him.. the way he talk, jokes and do stupid stuff, i wonder where he can think of all this thing.. i think he live in a happy life style.. with lots of friends that can crap and 'fai' together with him.. he is so talented.. hmm i mean for certain reason, he can do whatever thing.. he is just older than me for 2 years old but the gap between us are so biiiiiiiiiig...

ok stop saying him~~ start of another
my sai lou
hmmm.. i think after my tai lou, he is the another ppl that i envy, although he cant make a good joke.. but then, he is quite an active boy... can play various type of sport(indoor and outdoor) badminton, basketball, chess... not that kind of children play play but is really playing like a pro... huh... study of course gooder than me la...

well well well...
see the big different among my siblings?
what can i do?
sleep then eat then pang sai then sleep again
dull huh!!

anyway enjoy the song ya..^^

starting out

oh yeah!!! im rewriting my blog again...
recently i read alot of blogs of my friends and other ppl.. i learnt alot of thing... well the old me are quite erm emotional i guess.. haha after read quite a number of blogs, i think im 'wake up' from my 'emo' world.... hmmm should not blame other ppl for my so call 'emo~ing'... so specially thanks to .. thanks alot to this writer.. he write alot of thing... sound funny but quite logic... haha...

starting out?
starting what?
erm i guess i want to start out not to emo~ing... yea!! i will try my best...

2ndly i want to start out study... of coz must study.. exam is like only 2 more week i guess.. hahaha.. a lot of ppl asking me when is the exam.. and i was stunt for a min and answer back 'i dont know'.. zzzz.. what the~~ i got the time table, and i just open and 'read' the time table for only one time.. hmmm i guess i dont want to face the truth that im going to taking STPM this years....

oh yeah i remember i told some one before... but what to do... there is no turning back... if time machine really exist, what whould i do... haha you all must be thinking i wish not to take form6.. nope nope.. i wish i bever born!!! yea!! by this way im not going to take any exam.. maybe im born as bird or butterfly, flying around the world.. huh too realistic.. if reborn as a bird more pity... must beware of predator around me.. i dont want be eat by other thing.. nonono!!! so i guess human is the best... better if born in a rich family.. hey!! wake up.. this is life, too much day dreaming wont bring you anywhere...

ok back to the topic again.. starting out to be a good friend.. hmmm.. recently think so much negatively thing until i ignored my friends... haha.. they wouldnt mind i guess, coz this is me.. haha.. i was like emo~ing atleast 1 or 2 time in a month(maybe more)

starting out the new journey of KOK WAI YIN
forget the pass(erm just the bad part only)
hahaha....