28th February

today is the end of February.. and march is coming soon..
march coming soon means the day that decided which way are we going for our future is coming soon...
am i scared? for now what i can say is I'm not scare, and i wish to get the result as fast as possible...
now is still too early for me to scare, just concentrate of what am i going to do today 1st only think bout the result... is still long way to go...

this month, nothing special happen
yesterday i was chatting with my ex-classmate, and she ask me am i still single and i answer yea~~
i must admitted that last time when i was form4 and form5 i really wish to have a partner of life, but now, is not the time yet, i realize that I'm not suit to be the one who can be the one of some one... last time i will be jealous if my friends talking bout their boyfriend stuff with me, but now, i have no feeling toward all these thing..
form6 teaching me alot of stuff, i think i have change..
i have grown up..
am i getting mature? i mean my thinking style not me.. i still look young!!!
hahahaha
just let it be..
there are thing that we cant force, erm.. for my friends, i wish u happy with your boyfriend, if married remember to invite me!! (still a long way to go!!)

a day of my working lifestyle

my working life style


my limited vision of the world.. i only can view these nice scenery everyday... most of the day, i will watch the opposite shop that sell ice.. i see a lot of ppl bought ice~~~


huh.. a bunch of paper to let ppl write their phone number to e-load... (no handsome e-load before at this shop) hahahaa.. planning to steal his number(=='' joking only)



huh.. know how much this two simpack cost? each cost RM300!!!! VVIP number? interested? please proceed to PL Telecommunication shop at Teluk Intan... hahahaha... buy simpack from me... reload money from me.. but must paid in cash~~ we receive card with 3%charge from bank.. hhohoho.. making advertisement~~



talk till the end.. my job is quite interesting.. i can see different ppl everyday, recognize some customer who come frequently... then happy to sell phone, see customer happy face hugging their new cellphone leaving the shop... top up for customer to let them keep connected with their close one.. well there are some stupid and irritating customer too.. but i wont keep at heart..
the boss is quite good... can joke.. although i heard ppl say the boss is a jerk.. but till now i havent feel so...
this is the best job ever.. just tired of the working time~~ too long, not enough time to sleep
^^

hikikomori

fuh!! learn a new term from my friend recently..
this is a new social disease... i think not new... is me who just found out..
went to search and see some clip on youtube, only understand why ppl will slowly develop or making themselves as hikikomori...
they just stay at home... probably have not even a friends, their life is on the online world or gaming world.. a bit like otaku but they are afraid of sun light.. i think is a new generation or a higher level of otaku..
hmmm don't know how to describe, but just feel kind of sorry with all these ppl who are hikikomori... but maybe they happy with their life like that..
not everyone born to love talking or love to social...


this is an example clip that i found out from net...
hope none of my friends will become like this
sunlight is good!!!
i love sunshine^^
take care all~~
enjoy your life
enjoy your holiday

should i or shouldnt i?

huh.. my boss gave me a new simpack number..
i choose the number myself.. hmmm quite easy to remember it also..
actually is a umobile simpack but it had switched to digi line..
so the simpack now had one year expiry..

argh.. change it will be troublesome.. i have to tell all the ppl... informing each and everyone.. should i inform the ppl i had not contact for years or months?

huh...
i hate rainy day~~
i love sunshine
i love shopping

talking bout shopping
i realize i cant own a lot of money in my pocket...
all these money, sure end up at buying unnecessary stuff..
OMG!! should tell myself not to spend so much~~
with the ATM card at my purse... i sure go and press money out..
i think this one i should give it to my mum for keeping it...
hahahaha~~
realize that day without working is sort of boring too...
maybe adapted to working routine...
hmmmm...

lazy

huh~~
getting lazy and lazy and lazy~~~~~~~

working is like study
when u are study~~ u wish to holiday
when u are study~~ u wish to end up this quickly and start to work to earn money
when u are study~~ u will wonder who created those stupid subject for us to suffer
when u are study~~ u will sick and tired with the teacher and homework

when u are working~~ u wish to holiday
when u are working~~ u wish to end up this quickly and start to study again
when u are working~~ u will wonder when will get my salary
when u are working~~ u will sick and tired with your boss and the customer...

yea~~~~

yea~~~~
i pass...
hahahahaha
i passsssssssssssss

i did it

PASS
hahaha

passs
passsss
paaaaaassssssssssss
wuhooooooo

yea


hahahahahahha....

actually i have no feeling at all right now...
trying to express my 'happiness'
boosting it..
but no feel...
huh=='''

huh!! no holiday~~~

argh!!
i become more and more and more lazy to work recently...
felt wanted to quit the job... but i had promise the boss to work until the end of April.. haih.. just less complaining and work harder...
maybe its because of influence by my friends, a lot of my friends are not working...

this job is easy but is really tiring.. i have to work 10 to 10 everyday... more tired than study 6 hour at school...

then next week is gonna be a day without holiday~~~
why?
I'm going to take car test on Tuesday...
just hope i will straightly pass in one shoot.. i don't want to take it another day, because, i have to change my off day with my work mate just for the test.. and my workmate really cant go to work every Tuesday because of transportation problem..

God oh my God...
please bless me!!!
please bless the car I'm going to drive
please bless the weather..
please bless the road...
please bless the JKR people....

UMS~~~~ i Choose YOU!!!!

i have finally chosen the university and courses that I'm going to take IF my result is good enough to enter..
i have choose only 3 university..
UMT
UMS
UM(hahaha.. cant imagine that i will enter UM)

i choose 5 courses out of 8 choices given to study at UMS..
why? i dont know? maybe i felt wanna try to get far away from my hometown.. i want to fly!!!! hahahaha..

hmmm...
just wish that my result is good enough to enter university...

OMG!!!
what am i going to do if the result is sucks!!!
i told my friend that i wanted to enter UTAR for this May intake.. but I'm not very sure that my parent will support me go or not, since my brother also studying, i don't think they have enough money to support me go...
if really cant, maybe i will continue work until result of local university out.. if i really cant get it also...
i think i want to get out from Anson and go somewhere else work to earn money for study or working forever...

arghhh... i heard some of my friend wont going to UTAR, which means, if i go!! i will be all alone.. that time i sure become emo again.. just hope that i can together with my friends when studying at other places...
just like my brothers.. i think he have more than 5 or 8 friends that follow together with him studying at UTAR~~~~
(I'm not type who easily accept new friends in to part of my life...)
all my best and close friends at least have more than 8 years relation with me

haih no point to think so far away..
the best thing now is enjoying my holiday 1st...
^^
planning wanna go for another vacation with my friends...
but since I'm working, all this plan going to plan and plan and plan..
and finally it will be save as draft forever..
hahahhaha....

what is happening here???

recently busy working..
after working i straightly go to bed
i found out that i become more and more far away from the society issues
huh!!!
when i was still studying, i still hardworking and will read newspaper everyday...

hmmm bout the politic stuff that happen recently, i just know it from my boss when they chatting with customer..
after that only i go home read newspaper and know a little bit bout this thing...

by the way,
i think not only society issues..
my friends latest update i also not very sure...
no online, no chatting
less sms with them
but i might know something...
they are still ALIVE..
hahahahhaha...

today is my off day...
i wish to sleep longer, but dont know why, i just wake up by own, maybe adapted to the wake up time i javascript:void(0)used to be...
haih.....
still ok... wake up early good for health...^^

i hate CAR!!!! i WANT to [S.L.E.E.P.]

huh... recently i have to wake up early in the morning at 6.30am just to go learn car~~
well actually learning car is a fun process for some people!!! but not me~~
haih. maybe i choose the wrong uncle.. this uncle love to scold and shout when i was driving.. there were time i really cant stand of him and just wish to whack his mouth...

but all the shouting and scolding really worth (for him).. at leaast i know how to drive car.. but for me.. i really hate car right now... just wosh to quickly end all this car learning and testing soon...

i cant wake up early everyday just to learn car.. it disturb my sleep time..
some of my friend keep saying me for sleeping too early...
hey...
can you stand waking up 6.30am and then straight go to learn car at 7.30am...
then learn 1 hour.. when i go back home it is almost 9a.m...
i have to prepare go work again and work till 10p.m...
after arrive home... when i really go to sleep.. the time is almost near to 11pm already..
so? you all can say what?
my job is easy?
yea my job is easy.. ur job also easy.. staying at home... or study..
u can sleep at the evening or layong at bed..
i have to keep my eye open although i am very sleepy
i have to keep smiling to customer although i am very tired...

why i complain all this stuff?
just because that i am damm sleepy right now.. and i have to go to work around 5 more minutes..

huh...
luckily tomorrow is my off day..
but off day is like dint off at all..
full of many activites..
forget bout everything.. tomorrow i want to sleep till full~~~~
i want to sleep!!!!!!!!!1

crap no more and what the meaning of 'FRIENDSHIP'

fuh..
i realize.. everytime since i started to work..
i lost my interest to talk...
i dont know why..

sometime to make my friends feel that im not change at all..
i have to think hard and try talk a lot infront of them..

erm..
quite suffer actually,
to see my friends can talk a lot
while im speechless...
sometime i really dont know wanna reply what when my friends started to crap,
should i think hard to reply or just smile or laugh..

hmmm...
there is some one who think that i had change..
the change that make the one think that we are no longer like last time..
what can i say is
maybe i had change
maybe you had change..

but whoever change~
ii wont effect our friendship ok???!!

if i really think that you are bad
i wont sms you
i wont ask you go out yun cha or chatting

wonder where did you have the thought that i started to 'hate' you..
maybe there is a small conflict happen between my other friends..
but the conflict pull me inside to?
fuh~~

i tell you
just forget everything happen!!
we will still can be like last time..
why you all wanna make everything sound so complicated and sound like there is no way to turn back...
is it hard for some of you to make the 1st move?
since there is nothing happen, and is you all the one who think so far away till it break the relationship...

actually nothing is happen between us
dont make it more complicated...




''everything will be alright
tomorrow will be fine''