PoLok~ing

(=='' souvenir?)

is been a very tiring days

although didn't spend much time revising or doing assignment

but

i still feel very tired

i heard stories from my house mate,

then only i realize there are lots of people that love to pretend innocent to cheat people

i wonder, how these kind of people can have such a thick face to do so

it is fine for using up only one of my house mate(since you knew her)

but what for you wanna used up my other house mate?

find us when you have trouble..

and like blaming others for your fault

i heard that,

she likes and wanted to befriend or even more closer with.....

but the way she acted this few days are so weird?

avoiding and like hating some one..

huh~~

why should i care so much?

or did i really care?

realize that i really really not very good in studying

i spend a lot of time(actually one night)

to memorize all those notes..

and yet, i still failed to answer the question..

while others are just read through,

did not even spend so much time reading like me..

also can scored better than me..

im jealous TT

maybe this is the limit of my brain?

i should try harder for the final...

when you spends lot of time studying..

and you still cant achieve the mark you targeted..

it's quite disappointing..

but feels a bit satisfied..

try harder

try harder

try harder

im trying to search songs~~

although only heard one time..

but the song doze me away..

i like it so much...

i wonder.. it is not yet released??

soundtrack from a malaysia-taiwan drama ->高校铁金刚

click on this to listen on of the song 阿哲。爱与不爱(TT this is the only songs i manage to find)

i watch a bit of this drama from youtube..

not bad..

but i only want the soundtrack!!!!

'高校铁金刚'

Alone?

i knew it I'm not supposed to feel this way when i have everything..

but yet

it surrounded me whenever I'm here..

maybe, there is something happen today

if the day had come..

and i have the money..

i will do it...

everything bout me seems to get wrong today..

i cant get my breath well..

i wake up dizzy whole days again... [dizziness started to attacked me, although the smell leather is not around me]

I'm started to think back the blood color of mine which is not as red as an healthy people should be..

my fractured bone..

I'm a failure and a sick human..

alone?

maybe...

when i looked at others people vacation life..

i feels..

little bit upset..

is like being ignored and forget by everyone..

but then...

I'm the one who chosen to be like this..

why should i feel like this when i wanted this to happen??

i should start avoid..

start blocking..

start to be in offline mood

just appear when truly needed(if i have the chance)

when i reject..

everyone accepted it without questioning..

when i accept..

people will started showing their faces to me..

which means..

i have to reject every time they offered

so that, i wouldn't have to be in such a depressed condition..

i have to looked at your facial expression to acted..

one single mistake..

i have to be alone..

better choose to be alone by myself..

than others pushing you to the lonely path..

yes..

learn to be independent..

accept the fact

that people only help those who in trouble

and 'those' have to reach the requirement of the people before peoples started to help them

so,

if you don't have the requirement..

need not have to hoping so much..

the more you expect what others should treat you

at the end, you will end up

falling deeply of disappointment,

because, people are not truly wanted to help you

just wanted to entertain you...

yes.. entertain me...

maybe..

i think is no longer maybe,

i should wake up now...

stop talking bout me..

ME is boring..

not important

rejected..

i really hope,

i can get the job..

change my life...

PLEASE!!

talk less observe more

listen less heard more

essay of my life

okie..

I'm back again...

for a serious topic to talked to..

just now.. was a rush..

just to promote my SS pic =='''

just like what i told you the previous blog..

im watching taiwan drama..

sometimes...

i just hate drama..

drama is like..

creating a fake hope for other people to believe in..

and the thing is.. people do believe for it..

maybe this is what people live for..

living with fake hope..

this same happen to me..

although i knew it that things in reality would not be so wonderful like what we can see

but i just can help myself to fell for it...

where got such a beatiful convinience,

a girl will met up with a handsome and rich guy..

and then save her out of her miserable life...

maybe because that girl is good looking one and type of some one who can speak so good..

creating such a beautiful and meaningful sentences everytime she speak..

if the girl is an ugly and a fat one?

one without any fashion sense..

any IQ or EQ

a dumb and fat girl..

but met up with this type of guy.. will the guy fell for her???

drama are always faking up the life...

it is cruel, when we realize that..

we actually can't live a life like what we see on drama...

this is the reason i hate to watch drama..

as time passes..

the story getting more and more fake~~~

when he ask me bout it..

then only i realize..

sometime i can be quite invisible..

i know that person knew me.. and i knew that person too

but yet.. they would not look at me...

maybe this is my face problem..

or my attitude problem..

i am quite arrogant..

i think this is the limit i wanted to show it out..

im getting more and more arrogant after the holidays..

the way i talked..

sometimes, if think back..

i am quite cocky

the way i glance at people,

if think back..

i am quite snob..

><

[i need a change, sorry if i pissed you]

i knew i treated her so badly..

but i just don't know why i will treated her that way

i feel sorry for her

my body wanna make a move..

but it just cant move..

maybe all of this is just excuses for cover myself

but what for sure is..

I LOVE YOU, mum..

i never said that,

but doesn't mean that I'm not..

I'm just sorry

sorry is what i can say...

sorry that you have this kind of daughter that you cant be proud of

sorry that you have this kind of daughter that make you being critic by others..

just because of my attitude and personality..

I've try to change.. but

i just can't

i love you for accepted the way i am

i love you for being so kind to me

i love you for being able to patiently treated everyone of us patiently even though u being bullied

i just love you for being the way you are

i love you for being my mum...

and sorry..

please forgive me, for everything...

EVERY single thing that I've done and pissed you off before..

sorry for not being able to tell you all this in front of you

I'm a coward..

a jerk

that would not face my mistake..

even i knew I've done wrong...

talked about life..

life is unfair?

god? is this true they exist?

do they really help those in need?

from what i knew from the elder..

we cant blame the life we have right now..

not until we get old..

until we see through everything..

feel and try everything..

maybe it is true that, now you are suffering..

but doesn't mean that you will keep on suffering till the end....

there is actually a lot of path in front of you that might can change your life

the problem is..

you cant find a light to those path..

and you did not fight to find it..

therefore..

you stayed in darkness for the rest of your life

and that is the full stop of your story..

and other peoples will wave and said goodbye to you

have you every wonder..

that everything that you have today..

is you created your own based on your pass?

what i can said now is

"believe the tunnel can end

belive your body can mend

yeah, i know you can make it through

cause i believe in youu

so, let's go put up a fight

let's go make everything all right

go on take a shot

go give it all you got

oh yeah, i know it's not easy

i know that it's hard

no, it;s not always pretty

get up and go,

tale a chance and be strong,

don't look back just go,

take a breath and move on

or you can spend your hold life holding on"

(Go-Boys like Girls)

what i can do to change myself?

I'm getting lazier and lazier as each day pass

i sleep for the whole days..

even though a lot of people said that please wake up and be more energetic a bit

but i just can't do it

i rather spend my day..

laying at bed...

watching TV

or online~ing..

i also don't want to go out..

shopping for girls is like a LIFE

but for me..

i will feel so sicked every time i go to shopping..

i will headache

or start to cant have a good breath(like asthma attacking)

or sleepy...

i knew that a lots of friends is back..

i just lazy to make a move to go out..

even they asked..

i wanted to reject them..

but think back..

just go.....................

rather than staying at home..

being said by my parent for keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping....

XD

ignore if you hate

accept if you love

reject if you pissed

love if you fall for it

another ss pictures of the days

haha~~ today snapshot from my lappie webcam so nice..

i look so white~~

pimples attacking my face right now..

maybe is the effect of saying bad bout other people face..

==''

i thought that i am healed from the cough..

and yet.. now, i started to cough back

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here i am again..

actually nothing to share

but just feels don't want to go to bed so early

(actually i slept more than 12hours today)

i think i should consider dieting

I'm talking bout dieting since I'm at form5...

till now.. I'm getting fatter and fatter instead of thinner

and now..

i can feel the lots of oil storing at my legs and my stomach.....

i spend my time just now,

watching an old drama..

T.T

it is so touching.. and i cry alone for more than 10 minute...

I'm also addicted playing a game..

trying to break the high score of my friends..

Bejeweled Blitz

spending more than an hour playing that game non stop

you all can try and play it at face book...

haha

okie..

thats all for tonight..

i wanna continue to beat high score..

actually

I'm lazy to go for outing

i am that lazy..

=.=

random picture

I'm bored..
uploading pictures just to procrastinate..
avoiding the notes right in front of me
=.=''
maybe after i feel satisfied uploading and editing pictures..
i will continue facing those notes..

this pictures taken during karaoke..

love the feeling at here...

this pictures are snap shot from my laptop

from a facebook applications..

out of so many friends.. only one people likes me.. >.<

below pictures taken during my friends trip at my home....^^

SS Picture Of The Day

below are the biscuit pictures i went to buy right after the end of my class
=.=''
just because my classmate and i talk bout it..
and suddenly feel like wanna eat something..
so off i go~~~

yummy xiu bao.. but not as tasty as the one sold at my home ^^

Ipoh famous Lou Po Biscuit.. ngek ngek

last but not least

Kampar famous

Chicken Biscuit

guess that's all for today
after resting my eyes editing this wonderful pictures..
time to face the notes again
good luck to myself..
i hope i won't sleep in halfway

can't wait to holidays..

i miss you~~

^^

BM2

yea

aku kembali lagi~~

disebabkan oleh permintaan yang tinggi..

aku kembali dengan bahasa melayu...

kebelakangan ni sibuk sikit..

sibuk ler dengan pembelajaran aku yang macam tak akan berakhir..

ujian yang berpusu pusu menyerang aku..

dan dengan assignment yang berlambak lambak depan mataku tapi tidak dihiraukan oleh saya..

saya teringin untuk kembali ke rumah saya..

terasa rindu dengan katil busuk saya..

setiap kali saya tidur di katil ini,

pasti akan bangun dengan terseksa, kepala dan seluruh badan sakit sama sama...

mungkin disebabkan sudah terlalu lama tidak keluar membeli belah, jalan jalan dan melepak..

saya sudah terlupa perasaan itu..

sudah jadi semakin tua..

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seems like im not talented at all at writing bm essays~~

recently i always in a sleepy mode..

not in a mood to do anything..

exam =.='' really freak me.. freaking me out!!

last time exam was like one year three times..

now.. exam attacking almost once in a month...

studies studies and studies..

and the system grading of this university keep on increasing..

more hard to score

i do hope i can pass all the exam well without have to repeat any subjects~~

i heard one of my housemate telling me that,

the grading will become more stricter..

one D.. is considered as FAIL

yes failed.. and you have to repeat again.. studying again i guess is not a problem

but the problem is the cash that flow out..

is it the university is damn poor?

i thought this kind of university provide a better education for those who cant afford to studies in other university and college that cost our life?

now this university is like trying to failed the students..

BETTER education really a high standard..

now if anyone dare to said that this university is sucks to the core

or for those stupid people to studies..

i will really throw a bag of shit right into that people..

never judge a book by its cover..

i really wanna give up the assignment mark..

i hate group work!!!

not to say very hate..

i just lazy to make the first move..

maybe last minute suit me more...^^

i hate my hair!!

so so so so HATE it..

TT

if i have the $$.. i wanna fo straight it back..

everytime i look at the mirror.. i really wanna smash break the mirror into the pieces..

i hate to face the mirror right now..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAA

this few days when i did not blogs..

a lots of thing had happen..

i mean A LOT

but weird..

i did not have the mood wanna share it out with friends or people...

i love crapping more than sharing life of ME,

my life is boring~~

will you pay attention to my stories?

eight more weeks to go..

i hope it end fast

i wanna go back home...

enjoy sleeping for two weeks..

i wanna upload some pictures..

but times are running tight..

seems like i only have the times to write out some craps..

and now

after i press the button 'PUBLISH POST'

it is times to face the notes

i hope i can do well for the mid term..

and so do the same to all of you

stop relying

is the best way to stop pushing responsible to others..

i miss KFC

i miss Sushi

i miss MCD fries

i miss ice-cream

i miss chocolate

i hunger for it

XD

psst: i crave it at school table XD

B.M

dalam blog ini,

kesemuaan isi akan ditaip dengan bahasa malaysia..

ini semuanya disebabkan oleh teman serumah saya disini yang telah mempengaruhi saya

kerana dia terpaksa menjawab ujiannya dengan bahasa kebangsaan,

ditambah pula, dia lemah dalam subjek ini, jadi dia bertanya banyak soalan yang rumit

hinggakan kepalaku pusing dibuatnya

dan menyebabkan, saya menyedari bahawa..

betapa lemahnya saya dalam bahasa malaysia...

haha..

terlalu banyak perkataan yang ditaip terpaksa diperah perah kepala otak aku untuk memikir ejaannya

lemahnya aku...

hari ini,

berlaku satu insiden yang menyebabkan hatiku berdebar debar hingga sekarang

baru je saya balik dari lepak lepak di gerai mamak..

semasa saya dan kawan kawanku bersedia untuk balik ke rumah..

tiba tiba, sekumpulan polis meronda..

lebih kurang 7 hingga 8 buah motor

dan terdapat dua tiga polis asyik memandang aku je

membuatkan ku berasa serba salah

ingatkan diri ku yang tidak berdosa telah melakukan kesalahan besar

dalam perjalanan balik ke rumah..

tetiba, terdengar orang cakap melayu kat belakang saya

terkejut besar saya!!!

polis tu cakap..

amoi, nak ke mana tu?

aku pun jawab ler balik

nak balik rumah~!~!

huh..

polis yang baik hati ker apa ker aku tak tahu..

buat aku terkejut jer..

dah ler saya pakai pendek sikit seluar tu..

asyik memandang kat kaki saya..

ishk...

terlalu syok pula menaip naip dengan bahasa ni..

sampaikan semua shor cut keluar..

ahahahaha~~

okie la..

sampai sini lah saya hentikan blog ku

selamat malam..

if....

if...

if am you

if i am part of you

if i can be just like you

if..

if I'm not me

if I'm her

if...

if I'm noticeable

if I'm invisible

if...

if i can have the day

if i can own the day

if i can be on the day

If...

if i can forget it all...

if i can live on live without if..

if...

if only the if are no longer if

if the if are not around me

if the if are true

if the if is beside me now

if you know it

if you can feel it

if you want it

IF...

out of sudden

lonely

i feel don't want to talk

and yet i wanna other's to know my feelings

i wanted to cry

i cant find a place for me to do so

laugh at me...

hate on me

neglect me

just don't ignored me...

is raining again..

for some people, they just don't understand..

they never do..

because you are not the person..

you can't felt other's feelings...

all you can do is just to let the one express it all..

shout it out loud..

in facts

everyone are the same..

they are all the same

when it comes to ownselves

everyone will hide in the dark corner..

because they are afraid to face themselves..

afraid to admit that they are wrong...

afraid of being rejected

afraid of the changes if they tried to mend it back the mistakes

lying to yourself,

another ways of being happy..

you push all your inner and darkest side of you inside of you

when you wanna release all the pain.

you realize that, there is no one there for you

and you are all alone..

a fact that cant be change..

i wonder..

why you have to lied to me that you own nothing

but based from my observation i see from you

you have everything

maybe it is not perfect,

but at least you are some one that i hope to be...

you have the everything that i wanted to..

and you still unsatisfied with it...

you lied to me bout your family

bout your friends

bout how you look

if there is a comparison chart..

for sure, you win it all..

you envy of me?

which part of me that make you so interested with??

this is human..

they never feel enough for everything they owned..

yes!!

I'm so deep envy with everything

every single person!!!

everything they posted,

every single things and person beside them

to make yourself happy!!

the very first thing you have to do is

accept the fate..

even though life is unfair to us..

but this is our fate..

it has meant to be like this ever since you were born

the every decision and action you took from the last time..

that causes what you have now..

and this is not others fault to make you became one of this

is you

yourself that causes you to became like this...

if you did not dare to change it all...

keep whining everyday...

you are nothing, but a failure to yourself...

be brave and step out from the dark corner...

you will realize that,

there are lots of people actually lightening your world..

giving you color..

^^

this is life..

and life never meant to be cruel to us..

only we make it cruel to life...

giving advises is easy..

but to do it..

ain't easy at all..

maybe time will faded it all...

we will wait and see...

rain had stopped..

the sun appear to shine the world..

greeting from rainbow to make the world colorful

it will end...

a cut will end it all..

dare?

sometime i just hope that,

everything that i keep thinking

will come true

a lot of WHY that cant be answer

a lot of HOW that cant be solved

a lot of ME that cant be satisfied...

im not emo..

im just tired

im just bored

with

LIFE

I'm still REJECTED

perfect!!

i wander why there didn't have any korean looks alike guy in here..

at least some one who are tall with a nice body perfection?

shit i sound like a guy maniac..

he is way too cool!!

nice hair, nice body, nice...

everything is just so soo sooo soooo NICE!!

BigBang ROCKS!!!

웨딩드레스 (Wedding Dress) - 태양TaeYang

this song is nice..

perfect lyric

perfect music

perfect song title

perfect choreography

perfect man

and everything of it making the song so DAMN perfect...

two thumbs up from me.. (and more if i have more thumbs XD)

this is another nice songs..

for me it is nice..

other's may think that this song is quite...

erm... geli?

the whole album of 2PM is nice...

but since the group only release this song's mv.. The ONLY one out of the album

quite disappoint with it.

but still waiting... for their further progress...

all of them are so cute and handsome..

LOVE IT!!!

this song is quite cute also..

f(x)..

i like the beat..

yeah!!!

see~~

korean is so talented...

where can i find this kind of people at here???

out of sudden..

im envy with my friends who can study at there..

maybe i should try harder now..

and get my life out from here..

start a new life a there.. ^^

(a dream is just a dream)

wait for me......

or maybe this perhaps?

BOYS LIKES GIRLS...

handsome guy...

T.T

nice song..

two is better than one..

all of this clips are some of the songs that im obsessed with right now..

i hope you all can listen as well...

RememBer

i remember the day

alone at the journey back home, and when i wake up...
the bus were empty and the sky is dark
without knowing where is my location..
I'm scare at the moment..
but no one know

alone at house,
so i keep on sleeping..
because I'm afraid of dark and feeling of loneliness..
but no one know

i slept and awake in dizzy

dizzy for the whole day today...

feel like vomit out..

but no one know...

keep blogging and blogging...
but lots of post are just being post and delete straight away
because i have so many things about myself want to talk to
everything that people heard from me are just my happy moment
but when I'm in problem
no one know


those word that hurt me before
keep on playing on my mind recently
those images keep on replaying
it feels like I'm back to the past time again..
i keep remember the worst day of my life..

I'm the evil green monster
I'm jealous
i keep jealous for everything and everyone around me
jealous with the life they have
jealous with the friends they made
jealous with everything..
just everything and every single thing!!!
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everyone is back to the place they belong
some even went to vacation
with planning ahead for the weekend...

whenever I'm back..
i cant find a reason of going out..
even if going out, i feel bored..

i planned wanna buy lots of stuff

but everything of those stuff needs money

recently I'm broking

i have to think a lot before i deciding to buy anything

i cant spend money like last time..

studying without income flow in really is a disaster life..

working without a education approvement will destroy your future..

so short pain is better than long pain...

influences of people around by me..

make me even eating, i have to think twice before ordering any meal..

now i have skip my breakfast and lunch...

I'm hungry...

my stomach is drumming every minute..

envy of those people who are born rich

doesn't have to worried bout their education or life style

even if they failed, they still have the cash to make them move on their life

they never suffer the true hunger..

i cant stand with this any longer.. the dizziness that attacking me since i wake up

making me so sick..

even smelling food making me fell nausea..

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i happily spending my two days at here

without spending a penny or going out..

i just love it!!!

wahahaha~~~

spending my time at my lovely room with my precious baby lappie

watching movie...

THE PROPOSAL

i love sandra bullock, pretty woman..

and the male actor, Ryan, handsome guy..

nice movie.....

TINKERBELL AND THE LOST TREASURE

a nice animation movie..

is a bit childish to watch..

i watch this because of the chinese name

i thought is doraemon the movie..

XD

9

i cant understand the meaning behind this movie

maybe this movie is trying to teach us to treasure our earth more

or ask us not to rely too much on those machinery things

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gosh!!

I'm in deep shit..

i keep on procrastinate starting from this semester..

i need motivation to keep on

i need some one to give me a push

so that i can keep going on..

=.='''

but today..

i really cant go out do anything

my head is spinning..

I'm too dizzy...

just dizzy..

standing for more than 5minute is enough for me to feel like vomiting everything out

I'm in deep shit!!!

this is the things that i hate to happen to me..

when will this over...

zzz!!

GO

im trying to let go..

yesterday, i drunk myself with assignment

to let me forget it..

i cant hardly forget what i have done..

i cant forget each word i typed and said

just because i hate you

so i cant control myself for keep on hating on you

im deeply hating you right now..

everything that you said,

i shoot it back..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

i should start to avoid you..

just to avoid myself from scolding you..

[did i hate you? or this is just an excuses for me to escape from the reality?]

everything that i type out or anything that came out from my mouth

is never something good

everything start with criticism, pissing, and making fool of some one else

maybe this is the reason everyone started to ignored me one by one

maybe because of this,

everyone started to looked into others

and im will be forever stucking into this small black box of mine..

im trying to control not to let go any of this bad thing came out from my mouth

maybe i should start applied to shut my fucking mouth..

there are time,

when i see other's happily with their friends..

i wanted to join and crap with them..

out of my control, i step backward..

lending ear is easy

lending your heart out ain't easy at all

you have ear..

did you hear?

if you heard...

do you listen?

if you listen...

do your heart listen to it as well?

and if you really listen..

why do you need to listen to it?

this is none of your business..

just like what i said:

there are no good people exicted, only stupid people exicted

so you wanna become the stupid one?

the first perception you gave to others will killed you

and that's why im deeply hurt

i cant back to previous me...

i cant change the way i am now..

hiding in the corner

silently leaving the world

and im all alone

alone

now a songs to represent my whole feelings and who i wanna be from now

BOYS LIKE GIRLS-GO

Little change of the heart

little light in th dark

little hope that you just might find

your way up out of here

'cause you've been hiding for days

wasted and wasting away

but i got a little hope today

you'll face your fears

yeah, i know it's not easy

i know that it's hard

follow the lights to the city

**get up and go

take a chance and be strong

or you could spend your life holding on

don't look back, just go

take a breath, move on

or you could spend your life holding on

you could spend your whole life holding on**

believe the tunnel can end

believe your body can mend

yeah, I know you can make it through

'cause i believe in you

so let's put up a fight

let's go make everything all right

go and take a shot

go give it all you got

oh, yeah, I know it's not easy

I know that it's hard

No, it's not always pretty

(repeat**)

don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring

are you sitting down?

i need to tell you something

enough is enough

you can stop waiting to breath and don't wait up for me

(repeat**)

Don't spend your whole life holding on, yeah

the end

you are rejected 2

human is a selfish living things..
this is true as everyone does thing just to protect themselves..
there is no good people existed
only stupid people existed..
when there is a thing coming to attacking the world..
people will not care bout each other..
no matter how good friend you and other use to be..
one day you will realize that, you will be dump by the one you wouldn't expected to be..

the one you thought who wont betrayed you,
wont back stabbed you...
will be the one who brutally stabbing you and firing you with gun........
just to make sure that they are the one who still alive..
those useless will be eliminate from the game..

i am one of this people..
I'm the one who brutally stabbing others..
just to make sure I'm still survive..
i keep saying other's are a jerk
but in fact..
I'm the devil myself...

just for that guy acknowledgement..
that this guy have truly been rejected from everyone list..
but yet..
he still did not wanted to do something to prove that he is something..
sooner or later..
i guess he will game over...
it seems like everyone love to crap with you [sorry, I'm not interested with you]
but in facts they just hate you..
i mean if they have to do something seriously like assignment?
need not have to mention this guy name here..
i don't think he will know, since he is super duper lazy guy i every met!!
i don't think that he will spend time reading this..

but if you really read bout this..
please change yourself..
this is only for your own goods..
even people like us that just know you less than a year had already feel sick doing homework together with you..
how you expected your life will be when you enter another stage of life??
you expect others to pamper you? feed you? bath you?
take exam for you???
i thought previous semester already gave you a lesson..
but you still so.....[speechless]


when the school start..
i still can face those people..
crapping and joking..
but as the time flow..
and became tenser..
those previous images started to flashed back one by one in my mind..
i started to hate you.. avoid you
i hate to look at you
i hate to talk to you
everything that you said, i feel so uncomfortable and wanna scold back to you
you never talked something with point..
critic on girls or anyone from your mouth make me wanna punch right into your face..
i just hate EVERYTHING of you
whatever thing that related with you..
I HATE IT as well..
I'm sorry.. i cant control myself from doing so..

i keep saying a friend of mine is a jerk for pushing me the responsibility..
but the truth is..
I'm the real jerk..
because I'm the one who started to ignored everything..
pretend innocent and sound like i don't know that you did not even have a group...
AA!!! one is enough for me to start to worry..
and i realize..
9 out of 10[example] people i asked..
also have the same feeling toward those guy that i banned!!
please don't come to me...
i rather be alone with bunch of unknown..
at least the feel can start over again..
it is very hard for me to erase those thinking from my mind..
you leave a deep scar on it..
you couldn't imagine how deep you did this...

till now..
i cant think of anything good you've done to me..
only those bad memory flashing on my mind when i type every single word at here..
courting girl in front of me,
sleeping in front of me,
using the line for stupid reason in front of me..
I'm not acted as a good people to you
but I'm stupid to acted those thing to you..
I'm just stupid enough...
i think I've done a good job.. good job for didn't type any foul word..
[but i cursing you badly in my heart]



the reality of life..
i thought big city people will know it better than village people like me..
okay i will make it full stop at here...
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this is happen to me when i started to hate some one...
i only talked to people i love to talked to..
and those rejected from my list..
bye bye..
I called myself rejected did not mean that I'm the rejected one..
part of the reason is because i love to reject other people..
XD
but the main reason is because the passion of music... XD

mid term exam is around the corner..
instead of studying, or doing assignment..
i spending time at here critic on others...
but i just cant help myself to procrastinate every single minute i have with my laptop...

this few days, the time seems so pack.. i don't have time for everything
part of the reason is maybe because of cooking at home..
helping makes me have to sacrifice my sleeping time..
but i do enjoy the cooking time with them.. at least i can learn something..
T.T
semester break make me addicted to sleeping..
i sleep most of the time..
and even less touching my laptop for facebook~ing of blog~ing
spend most of the time doing illegal things..
I'm learning how to control the router..
but still in progress since I'm such a noobie.......


to end this..
i want to apologized for every single things that i talked..
or mine action which make you feel so disgust...

[things that came out from my mouth are all poisonous sting..
i wander how they felt when they being stung..
i better keep my mouth shut..
listen more talked less]

I ❤ K'oke~ing

8/11/2009
i purposely back on that day earlier..
just to catch up with my housemate karaoke activity...
and from around 12 we sang till 6..
haha!!
still got lots of song in queue when the time is up
so you can see how many songs we all have sang
and the moment i like the most
is singing 五月天-离开地球表面!!!
yeah~~ mayday ROCKS TO THE CORE!!!
i think most of us had gone crazy while singing this songs..
cut the craps and let the picture shows the stories...



this two picture taken while singing maydays's song!!
aaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
i love mayday.. just love it..
you can judge how wild the situation are..
5 people rocking the box!!

below are picture that look quite normal.. haha..
for more picture..











that day i really sing my lung out..
even after few hours.. i still cant breath well
and the night.. i fall sick
paracetamol save my life..

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monday 9/11/09

due to the financial crisis
all of the housemate agree to try to cook at home instead of eating outside
although we cooked before last semester..
but also once in a blue moon..
and now..
yes!! again, lets the picture done all the crapping..


Chef Of The Day

all busy doing something...
while im busing testing food.. XD




three dishes and a soup..
but main things is the soup
aha~ delicious~~~
hohoho!!!



i might not be in the picture,
doesn't mean i did not do anything..
haha~~
but the food were enjoyable..


p/s:jogging tomorrow?

you are rejected!!

this few days..
lots of unknown people started to add me..
especially those little kids..
i think is my junior..
but this junior are way too small from me..
such as 97's kiddo adding me? [i guess it base on their email]
I'm not trying to said that I'm getting popular or what..
but the point that i wanted to share with you all is the
ridiculous question they ask or answer

okay let me give you an example
orange@coldmail.com add me
the conversation was something like this

orange: hi!! [with lots of icon.. make me have to see what the alphabet is by clicking it =.=]
rejected: oh hi... who are you??
orange: I'm orange..
rejected: oh hi orange.. i know you??
[=.= this is the stupid answer i receive.. like i cant see your name on your email... but since this is a kiddo... so i patiently asking question again]
orange: no you don't know me
rejected: oooo
orange: oo what??
rejected: i 'oo' that you don't know me lor
[wtf??!! I'm controlling myself not to split any foul word.. ooooo is what??? I'm totally speechless]
orange:okay bye
rejected: bye
orange: haha bye bye
[what is so funny with bye bye??]

yeah bye bye and you are rejected from the list..
opps!! you are not even added into the list yet...
zzz!!!
lame conversation..
i thought if you really are my junior,
you can understand simple english??
who are you?? and you answer back something that so surface...
zzz!!!!
if you added me six month ago..
i might can still entertain and crap awhile with you

this happen also at my friendster and facebook friend list..
yep.. i might accepted friend request..
but few days or weeks later..
i will start deleted all those unknown..
part of my entertainment..
haha!!
i cant understand why people love to add so many people at their friend list
and i can bet most of them are unknown..


and now..
I'm trying to reject those phone call with unknown number...
especially these start with 010 and with special hyper VIP number (as I'm avoiding people right now)

OG!! i rejected a lot of things..
haha!!

hoping tomorrow will be a better days..
im totally addicted to Boys Like Girls, The All American Rejects and Crowd..
i cant get my ear off from you!!
your music doze me away from the reality


you came into my life...
you know that it all takes my breath away
so maybe it's true
that i can't live without you
there's so much time
to figure out the rest of my life
that you've already got me coming undone
and I'm thinking two
is better than one
you make it hard for breathing
i think of you and everything's okay
and finally now, we're leaving
[part of the lyric from Two Is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls featuring Taylor Swift]