wuhoooooooo!!!!!!!

hmmm... last few days I'm quite emotional on dealing my friendship stuff..
huh!! now when I'm think back, i think I'm the one who does wrong!!!

forget it..
i don't want to talk bout this stuff!!!
I'm quite happy last two days, everything seems to go very perfectly according to my plan.. smooth and nice!!

Finally, I'm register my name to take a car license..
then in a day or two, i might throw my spec away and say hello to contact lens!!
haha~~
erm.. all CNY clothing plus shoes i already bought...


and the most coolest thing is I've got a job!!!
yea!!!
i think this job is quite easy, and since the shop is small!! a size like triple my comp desk... i think i wont need to do heavy work like sweeping the floor.. wiping mirror i think this will not run from my job list... but at least very hard or tiring... lol I'm working at mini phone shop!!!

ahh!! quite happy with everything happen recently...
new year is coming and i hope everything will be just fine and~~~~

erm and~~~

maybe two days later I'm going to write again a blog of my achievement throughout this years and wishes for the up coming new year~~~~

^^
hmmm.. happy happy....

merry christmas

be merry be happy beczuse chirstmas is around the corner~~~
i dedicated all this song that invented by me to all my friends
who support |Talk Crap With NO Point|

from [rudolf the red nose reinder]
waiyin the leng lui santa
have a very pretty hair
and if you ever saw it
you will even say it leng ar~~

all of the other people
used to praise and call her name
and make the santa waiyin
happy happy all the time~~
hahahhahaha

.............
..................
.......................

[last christmas]
last christmas
i gave you my heart
but the very next day
you kiap pi jo~~
this year
to save me from kiap pi
i'll give you make of plastic de....



hohoho
aiks this is not horlick advertisment song
is me.. hoho~ing
wishing you an early merry christmas~~

jingly bell jingly bell
jingly money to my house
all the fun will be gone
if i tarak money~~

ahahahahhahaha
waiyin wish u a merry christmas
waiyin wish u a merry christmas
waiyin wish u a merry chirstmas
and a happy new year~~~

noisy nite
party nite
all is happy
all is sweating
lalallalalalala~~~

let heaven n nature sing
let heaven and nature sing~~~~
let heaven~~~~
and~~~
waiyin sing for u here!!!

thank you thank you

错了！

我错了~~~
发现我真的错了！！ 我该如何把我们的关系变会以前那样呢？
我伤了你吗？我真的伤了你，但你知道吗？你然我很难过耶，你的信息也伤了我的心。。
但也不能怪你啦，是我的错！我该如何做呢？
好烦好烦！！


我是坏人吗？所有的人可能都说是我的错。
但说真的，你也有错。。
为什么总是把所有的错误都推在我身上？
难道你都没有错吗？
如果你真的想的话，那么我再怎么努力也没有用了。。。
你想骂我？觉得我很自私吗？
我是很自私的！！ 这是全认识我的人都知道啊。。
你认识我也有两年了。。 两年的关系，难道还不足够你来了解我吗？

你说你很难过，要人了解你。。
我很快了吗？ 认识哦的人都觉得我快乐. 但真正认识我的人（没有一个）.. 说了也没用！！
有人了解我妈，或许会有，但他们了解我有多深？

你看我有很多朋友！！
但真正了解我的朋友其实也不多啊！！


你要我付出！！ 但你想一想，你有付出过嘛。。
算了算了。。
久燃天来决定谁对谁错吧！！
你要真阳区在别人面前说我，我都无所谓了。。
希望你能接受我的道歉咯。。。

i aM so SoRrY

hmmm..
yesterday, i've chat with my old friends, quite happy to chat with her because it's been a long time we dint see each other or chat because of busy life style each of us had...

at 1st we are talking about the plan we are going to have after she come back in more than 1 week from now (OMG!! cant wait for the day><).. we talk a lots about hair styling, because she plan want to have a hair cut when she come back...haha.. cant wait to let her see my new hair style, will she be shocked?!! lolx (actually one of my old friends got a shocked when she come back from holiday, maybe this hair style really doesn't suit me[in her opinion])

then i ask her about a friend(erm let this friend known as A), i ask that did she still contacting A?
then my friends said that A called her during A's birthday, she said that she is so sad, that she are celebrating her birthday alone(I'm not sure whether she got cry or not).. at this moment i felt really sorry to A.. i spend two year close relationship with her, and i don't know starting from what time, i started to ignored her.. there are time i start to avoid her.. and i don't know why I'm doing such action?!!

sometimes think back, i think in these few years after i enter Form6, i changed a lots, is really A LOT..
there are time i feel like i love to control other peoples( i mean my friends).. i want them to follow the way i thinks... i become really fast get upsets and get really angry over small matter they do to me... i cant understand why i become like this...

the most upset thing is about A.. i don't know why i cant get back the feeling i used to have with her when we are still best friends, i said a lot of bad thing about her, and sometime i felt that i had betrayed her feeling that she gave to me.. i know that she already can felt that i am trying to avoiding her... maybe A got said something about me that i have change to my friend just now.. but i wont get angry, because i know that i am wrong...

i don't know what to do.. i know you have come back, but i dint dare to go out with you.. wait for my friends come back 1st, then, we celebrate A birthday together...

why i cant go out alone with A? i scare i have nothing to say, and A is a person that doesn't like to lied with me, i bet she sure bring up the issues that I'm avoiding her..

well all i can say is i am sorry A...
i cant say out sorry when facing you..
A doesn't know my blog page i think...
but i just really wanted to say sorry, maybe you cant hear it.. but i will show it!!!
but not now!!(what the hell am i trying to said here)

anyway all i wanted to say is sorry....
sorry to A
sorry to all my friends if i have treated you badly~~
and thank you..
thank you for understanding my attitude~~~
THANK YOU
T.T

this song really sing out the feeling i felt now.. every time i heard or think of this song, i think of all of my old friends.. and the lyric is all what i wan to said to them...
I'm really thinking of you? how are you? where are you? happy? or sad?
maybe i cant be by your side at the time you need me or you feel down? i hope when you listen to this song, you will know that, there are some one you know are thinking of you, don't give up!!!


最怕空气突然安静，
最怕朋友的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会友声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
时到如今终于然自己属于我自己
这是眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你，你会在哪里？过的快乐或委屈？
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念平~~~

我们那么甜那么美那么相信
那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和逾恨就老去~~

[女友]

嘿嘿嘿~~~
昨天和朋友出去走走和找工作的。
工是找不到啦，但却和朋友一起逛的蛮开心的^^
在回家的路上，我去了书店打算要买一些杂志回家看看的~~
啊啊啊啊~~
在家真的是无聊死了。
本来是打算要买娱乐杂志的，在书店呆了好久。突然给我看到“女友”这本杂志。
只看封面而已，已经吸引到我了。（嘿嘿~我也蛮容易被吸引的吗（嘿嘿~我也蛮容易被吸引的吗？！！又是另外一个购物狂）
RM8一本，哇！野蛮贵的，但我也买下来了。
回家翻了几页，发现杂志的内容也不错。
很好看耶，果然没白费我的钱。。
下一期我还要买，应为这一期他们有些一点关于下一期的内容，漫有意识的

“你快乐吗？有多快乐？快乐是什么？“
啊！！蛮有意识对吧？
等我买了之后才告诉你们好不好看。。。
哈哈~

upset!!!!~~~

arghhhh a bit upset
but if i upset for this kind of small thing means i really easily get angry
hei!!!
I'm not as good as you think
lol

I'm upset of what?
well actually, i know I'm not cute, not pretty, have nothing if compare to other 'ladies' out there~~~
erm~~~ what should i say...
don't ignored me because of that!!!
and please..
judge a book by its cover? why i said so? i don't mind have less friend like YOU who so like to see people appearance before making friends...

huh.. why should i be upset of this kind of people...
nah~~~ o0o
i still have other friends...
i wont die just because u judge me because of that...



p/s: actually this person did not mention or say anything bad about me... just that i think mostly people judge other people like that nowadays and one of the lucky people is me~~~
thank god for letting me know this kind of people.. let me know who this junk people are, you are dead!!! i will spread to whole world(my friends who support me)
bleak
:P

Pangkor Trip

yea.. my i finally step my leg into on the famous island of malaysia..
went for 3days 2 nights (11/12/2008-13/12/2008)

i have such a great and wonderful memories at there..
too bad.. i don't have camera or my camera phone follow me all the way during the trip..
so i only have limited picture at there...
but never mind.. i will sure going to Pangkor Island again..

thanks to one of my friend, who had plan all the trip.. including booking chalet and transportation at the island...
thanks to my friends also, i had my 1st experience ride motor to climb mountains roads... zzzz!!! and the 1st time i fell down from motor... zzzzzz!!! luckily only minor minor injured...

i stayed at SUNSET VIEW chalets, a chalet which located at a malays village beach.. although mostly all people at there are malays, but the way they treat other religion are superb good.. i will remember always the owner and the worker of the chalet.. the time we feed the hornbill, talked bout bird until midnight, the big squid the treat us eat, the Aladdin style big prawn...

the 2nd day at the island, is the most exciting part of all, where i have my 1st experience of snorkeling... it was so fun until i snork at deep sea around 5hours.. lol... i learn simple way to swim.. i think i can swim now.. but a very very noob swimmer.. i need a goggles to help me....
i saw so many fishes, corals and experience the other way of life under the deep sea.. i guess all of us are having fun except to those who suffering from sunburn and minor cut all over the leg and arm when snorkeling..

the chalet was so comfortable that include everything that we needed, air-cond room, with TV(only two channel), bed with pillow and blanket.. so comfortable stay until i can sleep like dead body every night at there...
every day, whenever we are free at the room, we play card and talk.. there is one night, where we played and joke until around 2am.. i think we are too noisy until the next door people knock our walls... lol..

haih~~
3days and 2 night pass away so fast..
now i still miss Pangkor..
i still feel that i am floating at the sea now.. hahaha

this is some pic that i capture during the trip

hornbill hornbill
i got feed them papaya.. ^^



























i love beach












actually i plan wanna keep this for my own.. but in the end, i give it all to my brothers and friend











sotong goreng~~ taste like chewing gum.. nvr eat such a big sotong before..

damn it

i went to kl find the stupid fucking job..
what the fuck..
walk whole day find that damn restaurant..
walao~~
the stupid rubbish restaurant
look inside and outside
didn't feel got any 5 star looks.. damn it..
what the heck the restaurant name?
something sound like 'cha ri ton'.. damn fuck it!! so damn stingy.. in future, i sure wont step a leg inside the stupid restaurant..

damn it damn it
i walk whole days..
until my leg nearly broke..
shit!!!

haishhh~~
maybe the restaurant cant give me the salary that i expected, so i damn angry!!
nvm.. my parents doesn't let me work at kl also..

but..
this is not the main problem that i really mad of..
what the shit god damn fucker..
i just back from kl..
tired and leg pain..
then on the way home, my mum started to give me big lecture..
thanks to one of my friend's mum.. who go and spread out wide that it is very dangerous to go o beach..
walao..
you so care bout your daughter is your problem la.. what the fuck you wanna influence other people to follow you also..
i got money.. is my problem wanna go or not..
if i really die of ship sunk ed or drown middle of the sea..
is none of your business also.. and you no need waste white money to give me also..
damn it..

i was so happy bout the trip, and one session of 'ke po chi' meeting,
change all the thing that i plan to spend the last vacation with my friends...

o0o=.=o0o

[note]:sorry for my rudeness.. i am damn frust of everything that happen to me yesterday and today.. damn tired and fuckinly pissed off by alot of thing.. maybe tomorrow the story will be not the same again.. i might thanks the auntie for consulting my mum for the news that go to the beach is very dangerous

what should i do?!!

arghhh
recently i have so many problem..
actually is not a problem i guess.. but im too nervous and a little bit excited of everything that going to happen soon..

things that happen today really make me headache...
im planning to go kl to find jobs..
but then
my family seems to against the job i wanna do..
and i cant convince them to let me work...

arghhhhhh
just forget it..
let me go kl tomorrow
then see what happen 1st
then only plan what should i do..

the 'fuck' word
always appear in my mind everyday..
feel like wanna scold out loud..
arghhhhh~~~

argh!!!!

i realize im alone
very alone
so alone

make me wanna sing a song
yea
lonely~~
o miss lonely..
i have nobody~~
all~~
my own!!!

holiday are so boring..
i wanted to sleep.. but recently, i found out difficulty in sleeping.. i close my eyes, alot of things started to playing in my brain.. and i cant remember what am i thinking to make me sleep...
im sleepy, but i just cant sleep..
haih..
too much thing for me to concern..

im thinking of leaving here..
i want to get my STPM result soon..
quickly start my another schooling life...

i used to love holiday so much...
but this LONG holiday meke me sick and tired..
although i dint do so many thing these past few days..
i just so tired and wanted to end this fucking holiday..
atleast give me a job!!
i wonder will i get a job and start to go work at 15/12..
if yes..
i will truly thanks to GOD..

i still wanna write alot of thing since i cant sleep..
nvm nvm
i wanna go and watch online drama..
find a extreamly lame and boring drama..
hopefully i can sleep by 3am..

Disaster 1st Holiday trip

haih
my holiday had started..
the very next day, right after i finished i exam..
i jumped into bus to go to ipoh with my friends...

wa..
a happy trips turn to disaster for me..
but overall it is quite fun journey with my friends..
i heard their laughter all the time(laugh me==''')

by the way,
what happen?


this is my shoes i weat to ipoh.. right after arrive at ipoh parade, we went to eat.. and i discover the fuck shoe.. the damm fuck shoes....
haih..
i think u can imagine from what u see at the pic..
i have to spend extra money to buy a shoes..
and my friends?
1st hing to do when they know it
yea~~
laugh their lung out...


then...
we went to sushi king...
and order sushi bla bla bla~~~

but the main poin tis this pic

do u know what the heck is this? and do u know the correct way to eat this food?
well im not a japanese.. i dint learn their culture or the way they eat their food..
whatever food the serve in my eyes..
i just eat it...



i mean i rally put all the thing inside my mouth and chew it and swallow it..
for your infomation..
im a bit different from other..
if people think the food is hard to eat or swallow or got something weird bout it.. they will not continue eat it..
but i continue chew it and swallow it inside my stomach..
LOL
and then.. i tell my friends not to eat.. cause it taste weird and hard to chew
not long after that.. i saw a couple eating this thing.. and they quite enjoy it also.. argh!!! the way to eat that stupid thing is just eat oni the beans inside the thing not all pop inside mouth and eat... stupid supid
WTF.. then my two friends started to burst into laughter until their tears also come out..

nvm nvm..
maybe the next time they eat sushi.. they will forever remember me..
what a disaster holiday

planning for the upcoming LONG holiday

wuhoooo
holiday~~~
am i suppose to happy about this holiday? don't know why i hate holidays..

holidays are boring!!
holidays means stay at home
do nothing but play, eat and sleep..
i will end up become a housemaid at home...

lalala
i don't want to.. because, i am damm lazy to do house work..
haha
XD

but 1st,
i need to tidy up my room,
collect all the rubbish that stay at there for around 6months(haha)
then all the books,
will end up at OLD NEWS PAPER LORRY
or
given to people who need it....

then,
i desparetly need alot of money,
i need money to go for vacation and shopping
and my junky supplied for the time before i get a job


what should i do then,
oh yea!!!
i will wait for ppl to call me go out or 'yum cha'
or
me myself call up my bunch of good friends to 'yum cha'

until the day i get a job,
i will become a parasit at home..
do nth but spend money,
online
sms
tv
sleep
eat and
toilet

haha
XD

huh!!
holiday~~ BORING!!!
i hope i get a job soon..

再见，我的朋友^^

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~~~
真得很想痛痛快快的大喊大叫。

终于考完式了，
该觉得开心吗？本来还以为可以很快乐的大笑~~ 考完了，真名我已经不再是个学生了。
但难过的事情并不着这个，
最难过得应该是要在和我的一版好友分开。

还记得，我刚进学校时，并不能够适应突然该片的环境，
嗨~
好不容易才可以接受这些改变，没想到~
时间过的超快的。
就这样我们就要各走各路了。

你们因该不会忘了我吧？

说实话，
我一点都不快乐耶，
很像回到我们在一起的快乐时光~

不应该像太多了啦。。
我们就快快乐乐的享受在一起的假期吧！
我会深深的祝福你们每一个。
希望我们全部都可以找到属于自己的天空~~~

我永远永远都会爱你们！！！^^