GO

im trying to let go..

yesterday, i drunk myself with assignment

to let me forget it..

i cant hardly forget what i have done..

i cant forget each word i typed and said

just because i hate you

so i cant control myself for keep on hating on you

im deeply hating you right now..

everything that you said,

i shoot it back..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

i should start to avoid you..

just to avoid myself from scolding you..

[did i hate you? or this is just an excuses for me to escape from the reality?]

everything that i type out or anything that came out from my mouth

is never something good

everything start with criticism, pissing, and making fool of some one else

maybe this is the reason everyone started to ignored me one by one

maybe because of this,

everyone started to looked into others

and im will be forever stucking into this small black box of mine..

im trying to control not to let go any of this bad thing came out from my mouth

maybe i should start applied to shut my fucking mouth..

there are time,

when i see other's happily with their friends..

i wanted to join and crap with them..

out of my control, i step backward..

lending ear is easy

lending your heart out ain't easy at all

you have ear..

did you hear?

if you heard...

do you listen?

if you listen...

do your heart listen to it as well?

and if you really listen..

why do you need to listen to it?

this is none of your business..

just like what i said:

there are no good people exicted, only stupid people exicted

so you wanna become the stupid one?

the first perception you gave to others will killed you

and that's why im deeply hurt

i cant back to previous me...

i cant change the way i am now..

hiding in the corner

silently leaving the world

and im all alone

alone

now a songs to represent my whole feelings and who i wanna be from now

BOYS LIKE GIRLS-GO

Little change of the heart

little light in th dark

little hope that you just might find

your way up out of here

'cause you've been hiding for days

wasted and wasting away

but i got a little hope today

you'll face your fears

yeah, i know it's not easy

i know that it's hard

follow the lights to the city

**get up and go

take a chance and be strong

or you could spend your life holding on

don't look back, just go

take a breath, move on

or you could spend your life holding on

you could spend your whole life holding on**

believe the tunnel can end

believe your body can mend

yeah, I know you can make it through

'cause i believe in you

so let's put up a fight

let's go make everything all right

go and take a shot

go give it all you got

oh, yeah, I know it's not easy

I know that it's hard

No, it's not always pretty

(repeat**)

don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring

are you sitting down?

i need to tell you something

enough is enough

you can stop waiting to breath and don't wait up for me

(repeat**)

Don't spend your whole life holding on, yeah

the end