Transformer 2: Revenge Of The Fallen

my 1st time enter the cinema( i mean a real cinema, with air cond lol XD)
the movie is quite interesting.. have been waited for this chance for so long..
going there secretly with my two brothers, it was late at night, so for sure, my mum wont let us go...

lazy to type...

my birthday

thanks alot for those who really really remember my birthday,
thanks also to those who get to known from some where else...
although not many remember it(as i already expected) but still happy celebrate with my best friends

uni life?

well this is an experience of me in university life...
is nearly the 4th week I've been here, cant said that i find no friends, there is some which i can crap with...
till now everyone is still so relaxed until just now our lecturer tell us that there is going to be a test at around week 6? WTF???!!! two more weeks to go.. should facebook lesser.. XD

well some pic to explain the uni life at here... randomly snap it, i also don't know who are some of them...



we paid to sleep at here.. XD
too tired! even myself slept accidentally for more than two time during two hour lecture... by the way, this bunch of group is so 'geng' right?? the lecturer is just in front of them... hahaha



well a way to overcome boredom in here, thanks to this 'election people' came in and passes us this paper.. well this is the outcome of it.. (i swear i dint do any thing, i just snap it)
the school is a country with several political party.. this is what i thought of them, making speech during recess time to attract more people to vote for them..




i dont find it interesting..
maybe study IT people are not creative enough? all they can think is 'DOTA'?
but this only entertain the people who drew this, other must find this lame...




another way to overcome your bored, playing electronic games, some are brave enough to pass around PSP.. this guy are playing games using PDA? huh? so rich...
if me? maybe will play XOX? or BINGO? haha
still old fashion



ahh!!
phone save a lot of people..
sms sms and sms!!!!!
this sure can make you stay a bit awake?
but must have a people accompany you sms also, if not, it looks stupid, sending all the forwarded sms one by one.. waiting people to reply you..
in the end, will end up joining that bunch of people who sleep and dream till nowhere!!!
XD

talk?

i don't know..
i really don't know...
whenever i wanted to talked, there is no one there...
not listening is OK..
but trouble will came to me..
will there be a person, who is really a middle person... can really listen..
(middle person: people who don't know me, my friends and family)

zzz!!!
so many thing i wanted to spread out here..
but i cant find a word to describe my feeling right now..
just now i really wanted to faint down..
my brain is full of things, then there is people keep adding it..
more and more and more...

i really can die...

忘记

回到了这里，每次回来，总觉得很不安。
一直担心忘了带重要的东西。
每次肯定有东西忘了带上来。
真麻烦！
这次竟然忘了带我的耳机。。

电脑声音不太好，所以就不会勉强它。
可怜的它，
咳~

刚刚下了雨，
觉得冷冷的。。。
很舒服，很久没有这种感觉了。。。

很多还没做完的功课，
很懒的要去做。。

加油吧！！！

雨

下雨了，
冲走了很多东西，
一个不小心，能改变很多东西。

就好像在水沟被雨水冲走的东西，
要找回，
很难，很难。

后悔把它丢了，
就算找到，感觉一定不再一样。

现在，
我们只能，纪念我们拥有过的美好回忆。
我好爱你哦！！！
XD

first of all.. introduce my cute face 1st.. haha.. it's been a very long time i dint SS..><


so this is the 1st version of timetable that i get cheated on..



and this is the timetable, orange means tutorial classes, red means lecture classes and green is computer practical(super boring.. thx to the tutor)
looked like very free right? only three classes most of the days.. but the time will drag till 8pm!!! zzz!!!



ahh my well organized notes!! hahahahaha....... it is just for displayment more than using it...



the rashes(PAIN!!!!) there are some more at my body.. but lazy to capture it.. lol XD
my bodies lack of water and eat unhealthy.. this is the result of it...



i eventually have to wrap it up, because whenever im trying to bend my hand, and it will feel extremely pain when i want to straight my hand...

ahhh thats all... today the line is very bad.. DC all the times...

i dont know what the hell is happening to me...
unknown stupid rashes are popping out somewhere on my bodies.. some are pain, some are itchy....
zzz!!
this is another fucking week..
zzz!! stupid rushing assignment.... last min work.. sleepless night...
just feel itchy all over my body when i sleep...
then done a wrong tutorial question, photostated the wrong question.. means i stay up late at night doing stupid things.. but nevermind, at least i can learn something extra, which i dont know i true or not..
TT

last time, when i at my home, there used to be a cock's sound.. waking me up..
at here, is different...
dog replaced it... barking non stop..
haha.. i dint felt it, my housemate felt the worst.. coz her room is facing the outside..

quite adapted to the lifestyle at here...
i dont miss home, but have to go home also, there are too many things to be filled in here.. still quite empty...

so thats all..
tomorrow going to be back home...
XD....

handsome girl

she is a repeat student.. the very first day, she catch my attention.. coz she is so damn cute and handsome.. lol.. i think if her hair is a bit longer, she will be quite attractive also..
i just love her hair..
never in my life i will imagine that i be able be a friend of her, since she was in her own gang.. some course mate have a 'crush' with her...
lol..XD
i think it is a coincidence we sit together during the class.. hahaha!!
ei.. don't misunderstood, i just wanted to say she is handsome and cute.. I'm not that type if human..
we chat a bit.. haha
just like that only...
my course mate jealous, cz she is sitting next to me..
hahaha..


I'm going to crazy soon, stupid leader get the worst 'lucky draw'..
ZZZ!!! have to be the 1st group to present in lecture classes...
hopefully can get a good mark for this presentation..


realize that i had done many grammatical error for this post..
thanks to English language..
chao..
time to search for a topic for my presentation...
what should i do?
homosexual? play safe? gay and lesbian?
lol funny topic..

101

hohoho... this is going to be my 101 posts...
but nothing should be proud of.. and there also got no good news or happiness to share off..
just wanna share out the fucking days i had here..
nothing are work properly since I'm here..
zzz!! today, my room door lock are spoiled.. unable to unlock it from outside....
wake up early in the morning (around 6am) thought of going prepare happily to school..
zzz!! make me discovery that the stupid door is spoiled..
argh, there is a moment i felt wanna kick the door hard!!!


i had class till 12pm then going to continue it at 2pm, i thought of straying around the school until 2pm, but i receive call from my brother yesterday that i had to fetch him from the bus station.. i don't even know where the hell is the bus station.. but that is fine with me.. I'm going to use the long way instead of shortcuts..
so i go home.. and waited for call.. zzz!!! so strange, my phone are not working well.. so i tested it.. zzz!! cant call anyone..(sms im not very sure i send out or not)
i thought is my phone sim detector problem.. so i changed sim card(luckily i got a spare one) and it can use... i immediately call my brother then, cz it is so late from the time he said he going to come here...
arghhh... he tell me that he sms me to tell me that he is going to back at 4pm and no need my help.. Ahhh!!! i don't know what am i going to said anymore... im so tired and so sleepy...
shit.. fuck sim.. NO NETWORK ACCESS? argh.. need to retrieve a new one when i go home...

but there is a good thing happen, my door locked is repaired..
i think he is the one who help me, cz im telling him the problem i had...
thanks




stupid sim.. stupid....

happy?

each day, i tried to hypnotise myself that it will going to be fine soon..
and yet it is still the same.. ahhh.. why is this happening to me?
what am i suffering each days?
i cant have a good sleep..
my eye in pain...
my brain think of home everyday...
i so clueless facing with those people
how am i going to settle me assignment?

==''
out of those miserable things, luckily there is you guys..
although we did not known each others,
but you all really help me a lots..
more than i cant expected..
fuh...
ahh.. you all are the root for me.. that is why im still standing..

respect

sometimes i felt that what other people said is quite direct and it is hurt..
maybe the point of view of everyone is different, so that's what i feel so...
for example, pointing out people mistake in directly when people trying to said something...
for me, i wont do so if the person said some phrase wrong or what..
you can said, if we dint point out what the mistake the person make, the person will never grown!!!
actually i considered the situation where the person make or talk something stupid is me.. when I'm trying to express something in my mind until a 'high level' where i cant even know what the hell I'm trying to talk about.. and there's another friend of your trying to point out the mistake you make when you talk..

you:'bla bla bla..(talking crap)'
friend:'(cut into your conversation and pointing out your mistake)'
do you get what im trying to say here?

I'm not said it is not OK to point out... but respect the human also.. i know you have your point or clever... not everyone is born like that... whenever the 'high' or extreme part came when i was talking and you put a sudden bomb... it will hurt the feelings and mood to talk...
'OK then let you talk instead?'

or believing?
is also need a respect also.. just like you have a phone problem.. i do have some experience in dealing with problematic phone (well just identify what is the problem)
OK, i will give you suggestion on whats wrong with your phone and the cost of repairing it..
is up to you to believe it or not, don't argue this matter in spot with me.. you already have what's the idea on what is the problem of your stupid phone.. then what for you seek help from me? i just express out my opinion only.. you don't believe it can you pretend to believe it also? is it hard??
i said it might be software problem and you keep saying the problem is the phone's LCD spoiled..
OK, how the hell you know the LCD if spoiled? even my ex phone technician need to check overall of the phone bodies before confirming what is the problem of the phone...
zz!! and your eyes is so powerful can see through the bodies of phone?(you think you are terminator mea)
you dint believe is your problems, but just respect what other people trying to tell you, it might be wrong.. but this is an opinion from experiences, you think it is don't to lied you bout what the heck is wrong with you phones? is none of my business also..

all i wanted to said is express my opinion only!!! is it wrong?
am i seem not trustable?
just like last time...
most of my friends did this to me..
this is no longer an example of situation.. it is base on a true story..
a friend of mine asking me a question, and i gave her the answer..
she seems not believing my answer and ask again another person.. the answer are totally the same of mine... and she believe my other friends without asking other people again or teacher..
this make me a bit pissed off on spot, and it make me a bit selfish to teach other people things.. is not the matter i selfish or what.. is like whatever things that i said seems not trustable? you need to find other people to reconfirm my answer? then why dont you just straightly ask the clever one...why me? you wanted to test me whether i know or what?

respect people..
if you dont believe the person, don't ask them in first spot...

ignored or being ignored?

i don't understand.. why other people seems to have interesting stories in their life..
while I'm still black and white..
yea you might can said that it is depend on us how to colour our life,
i got the brush, i got the colour.. maybe, I'm not a good artist..

trying all my best to make things good in my life, but it seems so difficult, and everything seems went opposite from what i want!!
i don't understand it all?? why??
i ask opinion from my friends:
'what do you think about me?'
erm, am i funny? did i make you bored? am i a good friend?

trying to tell me don't bother bout what other people think bout you but just be myself?
I'm afraid that if i be myself, no one will be friends with me..

last time, i used to be the smallest among my friends
now, I'm sitting in a group of kids(course mates that small me a years old)
huh!! a sudden change,

i can understand the feeling of one of my friend who cant find any friends at college..

everyone wanted to be popular,
everyone wanted to be notice,
everyone wanted to be famous among people..
everyone wanted to have lots of friends..
i become very tiny, and shrink every single days..
no one notice me.. i am nobody...

i must put effort to build up relation ship?
heck!! i really tried my best to do that,
i was like begging among youngster to be friends with me.. so pathetic..
so damn sucks!! and some times i just fed up and thought to be alone for the entire semester...

housemates?
i have no chance to speak since there is a people who love to talk until she tired (i guess she wont tired)
so, I'm only the listener..
ahhh!! looking back my older post, it seems that i have an unhappy life at uni,
OG!!! rescue me, give me a little bit strength, make my face more thick..

pretty or attractive people do have advantage, where they need not have to find friends, people will looked at them and say hi..
that kind of people will be the unattractive, average, normal people with nothing special which other human wont even remember this people existence.. yea.. I'm talking bout me.. TT

some said i ignored people..
but now i don't know whether is I'm the one who ignored or being ignored...
i miss my home!!!

finding calmness through Buddha

i am too negatively thinking until i ignored every things..
until i try to seek for calmness through web pages..
the Buddhist bible...
teach me alots while I'm reading it...
they teach a lots of stuff that some time there is things around us but we ignored it,
feel so comfortable and make me think back everything that i've done and what other people done for me

things that make me felt that I'm still important at here is my friends, thanks..
trying all the best to improve my inner self,
hopefully can throw a way all those negatively thought

hopefully can find a path to laughter..
hopefully can find my dream and my future at here..

harder and harder

feels so damn down and life at here is like hell.. after reading a post from my friend, whatever stuff that written there really make me have to agree with it..
I'm wake up every morning without aim or whatever stuff.. just have to go attend the class if not will be barred from taking exam..
i feel that it is getting harder and harder for me...
i cant find a course mates as friends, even if i found one, they still ignoring me..
whatever things that lecturer crap in front seems cant get into my ear or link it to my brain.. then i started to think that am i choosing a wrong course?
too many things to concern,
too many things to be done..

it is like I'm starting out again from the bottom with nothing,
i talk less and listen more recently..
i hate to go out, and since that day, where i cheated for my meal and even get scolded for it.. i promised myself not to bother anyone to help me...

zzz!! i really need help with my homework, i found my group member during lecture classes, but all of them ignoring me, coz they came together as friends or housemates..
the lecturer tell us to download all the study material ownselves, i load to the website given, and the material not even uploaded.. zzz!! how am i going to study? i need to study harder and harder as i see mostly ppl that sit beside me, seems to understand what the lecturer teaching.. but then how the heck am i going to study? i got comp with limited Internet connection( i borrow line from my brother house and it keeps dc) and the studies material not even uploaded..
at the whole lecture class, i think I'm the only one who alone, aimless..
fuck it, this make me so damm regretted coming here, i wish i was working right now, working i can be friends with every single workmates less than 1 hour.. I'm here for 3 days for classes, and i still lost..

the most stress out things is my housemates, they seems to know everything bout their studies thing, and until now, I'm still lost and don't know why am i here...
they talk bout things that i don't understands... its quite hard, very hard....

i still cant find a path at here that lead me to the light..
so damm fucking pissed with my life at here..
always in worried and left alone at house...

i cant sleep,
i keep stomachache here..
i cant eat well...
group members ignored me,
course members ignored me...
my brother ignored me,
my health ignoring me also..
ZZZz!! i wanted to go home..

i guess life is not like what we always seen in tv programmes

worried and itchiness

today going to be the 2ND day, nothing special actually, just that i skip lots of tutorial classes, i know that there will be no tutorial classes for the 1st week, but worries conquering my mind and heart, i worries almost everyday, maybe because I'm alone and not yet find member that same course with me..
i talked to some girl during lecture class, they tell me that they also skipped for tutorial classes, but my brother tell me to go, since i got nothing to do if staying at home(now I'm alone at house coz most of my housemates going school or their friends house) even my brother friends tell me to go, to get know of some new friends, but i end up staying at home again..
all other friends seems to have so many classes to be attended, and i only have erm.. one day one class? so I'm really worried, i've checked my timetable triple or more time again n again n again...
i miss one class for the 1st day, i don't wanted it to happen again..

by the way,
i started to pop out rashes, is like being bite with many mosquito if i stayed at cold place for too long
today when i listen to the lecture class, my leg started to get itchy..
after the class end, i went home and change trousers and my pretty leg full with rashes..
quite itchy also.. i tried to control myself not to scratch it, cz i found out that the red spot will grew bigger each time i scratch it.. ZZ!! sound like I've been attacked by thousand of mosquito... (LOL?)

i think it will be the end of my posting today, hopefully everything will goes smoothly and i hope i can meet new friends soon...
guan yin ma bless me!!!