Update

is been two week i abandoned Rejected..

last week had been the hardest week to gone through..

feel like crying again..

i had been very bad all this while..

i take a little bit time avoiding myself from them for a little while..

just for me to rethink all those thing i had done..

is it the best solution?

or just to protect myself from being hate?

hard to admit this..

but i am that selfish..

i just wanna protect myself..

protect my image..

protect it from being hate by all those i care..

some time i just want them to just have me and eliminate others..

a week of time i away from them making me realize how bad i am treating some of them unfairly and back stab them..

i knew it is my fault now..

i try to mend it back..

but it just did not work out like what i expected it should be..

sometime, i thought my this kind of mending-back action will just make thing even more worst..

i will try avoid all those sensitive issues right now..

I've been so physically and mentally tired..

the camping thingy really tiring..

plus all those problem that keep rushing into my brain making me feel so headache..

i cant even have a proper sleep recently..

maybe i done too many bad stuff..

i easily awaken by small sounds or anything that walking through me..

and then it causes my heart beat faster as if i just ride a roller coaster..

i wanna sleep longer but hard!

I've been procrastinate two days!

dint touch anything for my assignment or studying for mid-term..

what the hell is wrong with me..

i wanna go back home but i don't know why i wanna go home..

too many things need to be done

but i choose to off lights and sleep~

forget everything for the very last night..

i will chase back all the time i wasted tomorrow..

First Aider Camp

Went for a two day and a night camp organize by the First Aid Society by UTAR

located at Cenderiang Tapah, Perak

PLKN Kem Sentosa

never regret joining this camp,

get to knew with lots of new people..

also able to measure the ability of me..

and how weak i am =(

activity of the camp:

• jungle trekking
• kayak~ing
• flying fox
• station game
• obstacle aka physical activity
• social night
• talk

the time is very pack and almost no time to rest~

I remember playing station game after eating curry..

the committee some more ask us to eat more as it will be a tiring activity going next..

spin for 8round and i can feel the curry inside my stomach wanna burst out from my lung like a volcano..

I remember being cheated by the officer during jungle trekking..

10more minute.. 10 more minute..

i walk for 1hour still cant find the exit..

I remember how i force myself wake up early than Mr.Sun...

and doing morning exercise..

I remember how sleepy i am during the talk..

and yet i force my 10-tons heavy eye bag to open..

the talk is interesting~

I remember how we are teach to dance in less than half an hour..

my kayu body really cant make a spin.. some more wanna make a spin..

but i enjoy flying like a bird..

jumping like a vampire...

peeling off skin like a banana...

running as if im a bullet train..

running and spinning around with bunch of people...

I remember how i injured myself..

how i saw people injured themselves..

but we still manage to stand up from where we fall.. xD

i remember how we met in less than 10minute,

and we mix like as if we get to know with each other for 10months..

we helped each other..

we cheer for each other..

we make it till the end together..

I remember...

with my group mate, ASTHMA

Jungle Trekking session

tired but i enjoy it!

cam-whoring whenever there is a camera

I learn First Aid!!

if u bleed or anything~

feel free to find me,

i sure will balut u till cantik cantik xD

not forgetting them~

^^

During station game!

we won the 1st place!

teamwork is important

kayak~ing

i learn CPR too

haha!

there goes my first kiss xP

my rejected bandanna

rejected vs asthma

we get 2ND for the overall performance

not bad huh~

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seriously have to appologize in formally to all my groupmate at there...

im not in my very best condition..

feel tired most of the time..

and i felt like i shown a face = not-enjoying-face

luckily there is a 2nd place for us..

if not i deeply feel guilty~

thanks to my leader and flexi for being so caring

thanks to everyone in my group for being so supportive~

after the end of the camp..

yea~

sleep for almost 2days to get back to myself..

i still feel sleepy lor~

still feeling tired most of the time since the camp..

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cant wait for the upcoming wednesday where ASTHMA will be meet up again.. ^^

The 9th Emperor Festive

Every year,

all the Malaysian Hokkien will start to eat vege for 3,6,9 or 12 days starting from 1/9 according to the chinese lunar calender..

purpose of this event is as a grieving day to the 9th Emperor that had been frame to be betray the country, and end up being CHOP off his head..

in the end, everyone knew it was a mistake..

so this event is held to him..

not very sure with the history,

i heard it from my father..

this year is kind of special..

during the last three day before we send back the 9th Emperor to his 'home'

there is another event which occur 12 year one time..

not sure what is that,

but i participate the parade with Shyuan..

walk for almost 5km around DiamondBay..

i heard that there is around 18temple which include temple around DiamondBay area and Penang join the parade too...

and the last day of the festive..

1st in my very life time,

i saw so many incense burning~

lots of people crowding the road..

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thanks

i really cant describe how many ppl are there..

one whole long road is crowded with people..

the sky during that night very smoky~

9 lions

God vs Menara Condong

the DATUK..

his hand really shake..

but the guy is way to young to be possessed by Datuk

一见发财

一见大吉

the operaman~

Success~

I become the spotlight!

haha

so many photographer flashing the lights

the lion hold this position till the event ended..

hou geng ar!!!

around 9 or 10 we finish the parade,

almost 80% chinese in DiamondBay + outsider watch the event

Datuk walk till tired

ah ah~

free drinks, fruits and kuih all over the road for those helper like me

haha

primary school

kindegarden~

secondary student rush over to see the parade

i thought there is a real human standing so long in this position

the cutest god~

三太子

the ship

with a trolley of candies to be distributed to the people

the most catchy flower car

the gold turtle

never saw so many lion in the same time before

7.30am..

start queuing for the parade~

saw the 9 God that we usually saw in the red paper for burning

i dont know how to called them

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so it ended just like that..

this is the day where i feel blessed the most...

Never Give Up~

Result release~

some get result beyond expectation~

some get lower~

some have to face probation~

some failed~

lots of friends of mine passed their exam with flying colours~

some did achieve great improvement..

their hard work at least being paid~

shame on me who dare laugh on them once!

i seriously envy them~

some of my friends did not achieve quite a good result..

some have to face financial problem as loans will be hold for at least 2 semester..

sigh~

i really don't know what else i can said to them..

seeing them study = suffering during exam week..

i really wanted to advice them to change their current course to a much more easier course with less killing papers..

but, this is what they had choose..

please blessed them..

please never give up in halfway~

one by one,

friends that i made in university are leaving..

kind of sad to let them go..

i hope none of you who successfully going through one year foundation leaving after the first three month studying at degree..

i do not hope that you will be the next =(

as for me~

i get what i deserve for..

but i do hope for a higher grades..

some of the subject i feared most, passed beyond my expectation..

other subject really make me feel so disappointed...

but i do satisfied with my result..

just that never felt enough..

I'm fired up with motivation to do more better for next semester!!

hope can make my CGPA graph up slightly a little bit higher if possible..

i passed my Japanese language~

xD

Crush~

in my definition, crush is a feeling toward someone you know but the opposite doesn't know you very well or even an unknown..

or someone you knew well =)

what i like about Crushing for someone is the excitement feeling toward someone whenever he appearing some where around you..

the heart beat as if going to burst if he notice about me..

the meter of happiness rise till the max if he ever enter my dream..

stalking bout everything of him~ xD

so i do hope, facebook will never add in new feature,

which is who had viewed you..

sobs.. never going to dare viewing you again...

feel happy the most, if i saw him appearing online..

wandering will he notice all the stuff i post~

noticing my name once awhile..

notice me at the school...

the most brave thing i had done in my entire life is adding you~

and the most happy thing is you accept it..

but the saddest thing is it have to be pending so many days~

and this is the part i hate about Crushing...

WAIT~

the only thing that i can do is wait..

and he will never realize it...

and the more i stalk bout him,

the more i realize, he deserve someone far more better than me..

and some one like me,

will not ever be even notice by him if i walked pass him..

still, being un-noticeable by him is good..

too many crush~ing will end up crushing myself in the end..

i have to give a loud applause for everyone who DARE to pursuit and fly toward your crush..

from unknown to friend and to even more closer..

but before you rejected him..

remember~

is you the one, who approaching him first..

is you the one, who thought he is the best that suit you the best from the very first time you start stalking him..

reject his love,

but never till the spot where you have to step on him to make you feel good..

but never till the spot where you dare said you deserve even more~

one of my friend once told me,

mirror yourself before you ask for more~

do you really think you really deserve for more than this...

when you successfully catch the guy attention,

you ask for more..

and in the end, you maybe will get nothing..

ah ah~

appreciate it my friend..

lesson i learn from the story~

never approach your crush for love...

you might be disappointed to the fullest~

though i like you very much..

i decided never going to let you know..

never going to reveal it public who are you..

one of the drama i love the most about crushing is

taiwan version sweetkiss

and

korean version sweetkiss

is a very modern-type fairy tales..

there will be no such thing happen in real world...

p/s: the truth is, I'm easily crush for someone xP

Korean Bun Hair

I have been inspired to do Korean Bun hair ever since i get my hair to cut short..

lol

just because my hair length isn't long enough,

i have to wait and wait and wait..

and finally..

today,

my hair can achieve the result..

though it is still not what i want..

but i am satisfied..

is simple..

all you need is just hair and hair band..

search in youtube for tutorials..

there are lot lot of TUTORs teaching with different type of hair and length~

front look..

the bun..

paiseh too mini liao..

this is the best my hair can do TT

perhaps with an accessories will look nicer?

xD

sigh~

i do hope my hair not only grew longer

but grew a lots...

i still wondering~

should i straighten my hair?

should i cut my hair little little bit?

hmmmm.....

stalk~ing

i thought that you are really that good..

until i read some comment you posted on other people status..

i never beg you on the very first place,

i don't know if other ask for your help or not..

but for sure..

the point DROP~

from what i observe,

i knew...

ah cis..

middle of the night stalking on other people privacy~

but,

FACEBOOK, TWEET, PLURK

are international and OPEN to public..

xP

i sound so lame tonight

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Back again to the world where

i talk,

i listen,

i obsessed,

i watch

to something that nobody even bother...

when some one ask what you watch every single day~

i just can said that i am watch something that definitely wont cross to your mind to watch..

they force me to talk~

then they show no interest in what I'm doing..

so what is the point for asking me??

kind of feeling awkward to start some conversation with them nowadays..

even talking to them make me feel uneasy~

I'm tired...

morning lifestyle is good,

but i still prefer the dark...

just a random post to share how unhappy i am today...

i did not intend to make anyone unhappy..

sometime is hard for me to satisfied both side..

and till the end,

i still have to protect myself from being hurt...

sorry if it hurt you the other way back...

but,

people shouldn't be so fearful to me...

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City That Never Turn Dark

After the end of my final exam..

get myself packed and set off to the city that never turn to dark..

is been quite awhile i never step myself to the city..

Oppppsss.. Im waiyin the kampung girl~

hoho~
went there for 5days 5 nights stayed with my beloved classmates...

Day 1 28/09/2010[Departure]

i took 3.30pm bus from DiamondBay to Kampar to catch up KL bus together with my friends..

sharp at 5pm, we set off...

around 8pm,

me, lijiun, wanchui n jiaming arrive at Bukit Jalil's bus station...

thanks to Mr.Jay who come from far just to fetch us to Kajang..

then of course~

Dinner at the 'well-known' Restaurant Kee V 卫记辣汤之家 [click on the name to go to the website]

after dinner we went to the home-stay provided by Mr.Terence..

Day 2 29/09/2010

Went to Sunway Lagoon..

with Elson and Jay..

Rainy day did not spoil our mood to have some fun at there..

nothing interested at there except for the PirateShip and TomHawk..

1st in my life time i play such a games...

thrilling!!!

then we have our dinner at Sakae Sushi..

nothing special also except it is quite cheap..

i still prefer SushiKin xP

Then we went to the famous and the biggest PasarMalam located at Connaught Street, Cheras if im not mistaken..

is long and tiring to walk after we played at Sunway ==

ate 'stink taufu' for the 1st time..

and it taste like chicken sheeet and smell like one too..

but overall ok ok lor~ xD

Day 3

went to mid-valley

walk whole day buy nothing...

mega sales had over, so the item displayed is rather expensive..

we manage to end up with a mid-night movie watching

Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Ga'Hoole 3D

start to love 3D movie.. ngek~

then Terence bring us eat the Famous Satay in Kajang~

Day 4

went to shop at Sungei Wang, TimeSquare n Pavillion..

but our main purpose is to sing Karaoke at GreenBox..

meet with Darren n Elson to have fun..

Visited Jay at HarveyNorman,

and the Panasonic Fair at Pavillion..
shop shop shop and then we went home after yumcha~ing at kajang's mamak...

Day5

went to climb Broga Hill..

first it is fun,

middle it turn tiring..

at the end, it get frustrating and i started to grumble:"When will reach the 1st peak!!!"

i did not successfully climb to the tops..

quite disappointed..

what to do, really have to give up before asthma really attack me...

i give up going to the spa since i get injured during the hiking..

so i slept till around 4pm,

woke up and realize everyone also end up sleeping and did not went to spa also

haha~

night,

we have dinner together [Me, Lijiun, Wanchui, Zhiwei, Jiaming, Elson, Darren, Terence and Terence's brother]

then we went to the well-known I-City at Shah Alam...

Raining day spoil our mood...

nothing really special except for lots lots of LED light~

good place to SS~ing..

went home after mamak~ing

we play some card games till 4am...

Last Day~

Sobs..

happy time flew fast~

and is time to say byebye~

after breakfast, me n Zhiwei back 1st..

thanks to her who willing to wait together with me and teach me how to purchase bus ticket..

muackssss...

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After the Sunway Trip,

i feel so tired for the whole activity...

TT

did not have the mood to play anything also..

maybe that's the reason why i fell down during hiking..

I-City~ing

3D movie~ing

Sunway~ing

SS~ing

Token of Appreciation

A million Thanks to Mr.Terence Tong n Family that provide us a good home to stay..

Thanks to him that fetch us everywhere we wanted to play..

Thanks to him for sacrificing his sleep time to accompany us MCD~ing

Thanks to him for driving car late in the night although he is tired..

Thanks to him for entertain us

Thanks to him for everything~~

^^

Thanks to Mr.Jay that come from far to fetch us from bus station..

Thanks for sacrificing your precious holiday and accompany us..

Thanks for drove us everywhere to have fun..

and really sorry for what had happen to your little car..

TT

Really appreciate everything that my friends had done..

sorry if i behave not so good..

sorry if i done anything that make you upset...

this is really a fun fun trip~

i will definitely treasure the memory i have during this vacation..

really looking forward for another trip~

really happy that i met with every single one of you in my life..

I HEART YOU ALL

❤~ing