my long hair

before i start

wanna promote this little stuff i bought using the book voucher

wuhoooo~

the only thing im satisfy bought with no regret

i remember i got lot of book i wanna buy

but when i go there with the free voucher

i stunt

and

i hard to make any decision to purchase any other books

i finish spending it with buying a lot of unnecessary stuff

urgh~

kinda sad..

should give more!

but still i love you for giving us spending money ^^

thank you

i never cut my hair since like 3 months

erm 4? 5?

im not sure but the conclusion is my hair is grewing more and more kanasai

how should i describe it?

picture below!

hell yeah!

hectic

where should i put my long fringe

left?

right?

divide middle?

all behind?

i maybe look sleepy all the time with my sleepy eyes,

but the hair make me look like i just woke up.

and if you notice,

my pathetic spec which follow me for two years

look kanasai also

please don't notice that i'm getting fat

yea yea yea...

i knew im getting fat!

my phone's camera is not functioning after drop from high place twice

at the same place

same day

continuously~

uh huhuhuu

im deeply broke

i want many thing

i need nothing

therefore

im suffering of wanting it

need = buy

want = dream it

:(

im starting to crap out of nowhere

better off now

人不美 就不红

知识底 讲的话 都没人听

到底该怎么做

才能鼓起勇气

寻找我要的快乐 和 幸福

我到底做对了吗？

做了那么久，

都不懂 自己在努力着什么

都不懂 到底有没有得到 或 学到了什么

我还是很怀疑

自己的能力

到底

可以做些什么

我到底 有些什么？

for the past few month,

i keep updating all those feeling within my mind

have not been updating those song i've been listening

er.. cut short the story,

let all the youtube link below talk (with some 'short' caption of mine :P)

#1 T-ara -Lovey Dovey

i never paying much attention to t-ara

just knew some two famous song of them BoBeep and YaYaYa

when this song came out after roly poly,

i not really like it.. :P

but after repeating it zillion time

it's addictive.. (for me la)

you should check out their comeback show,

watching them shuffling..

is a great song

#2 Jay Park - Know Your Name

i always like his song

been supporting his style ever since his sole debut

#3 B1A4 - Chu Chu Chu

#4 五月天 - 星空

super love them!

especially this song

and super love the meaning behind it

#5 伍家輝 - 你愛我嗎

we should pay more attention to malaysian artist

this is one of the artist i like

me like his voice

do you love me? :)

#6 柯震東 ft 陳妍希 - 漂流瓶

since i have no internet connection

i miss out a lot of great new songs

been wanted to listen and watching their mv so so much

i have a great and long list

but to cut it short

the top 5 wanted list:

1. Miryo (B.E.G) making her own solo debut
2. K.Will
3. Jay Park
4. B.A.P ( new group that was like making lot of attention)
5. FT Island

argh.. BigBang gonna release new album, i will miss it!

and EXO that keep releasing teaser, wonder when will they really coming up with a real album

i want to watch GLEE

i want to watch OnePiece

i miss internet so much

and if you wondering why i can still blog

thanks to YES broadband

and Maxis broadband i use awhile when im in my aunt's house

sobs..

well life continue even without internet,

thanks to radio entertaining my days

been addicted to the DJ's voices ^^

byebye

me feel happy today

happy saturday

went for a short date with my friends

watch a nice movie

ate a good late dinner

everything is super fine

even the weather

just that,

im feeling tired the whole night

must be awake for such a long time...

is quite late

but im still protesting against the sleepy mode

hmmm

i miss it,

the night life i use to enjoy :)

is hard to struggle against the night alone

i feel blessed and appreciated,

even just for a day

friends willing to spend their time with me ^^

even if they willing to spend an hour or more,

to chat with me when i online

it feel great to have friends by side

ya

is a great week

i should declare peace with my bed and pillows

good night

a reason is needed

to motivate someone

to do something

there is no right or wrong in this world

people defined it right, when there is a lot of people protesting that it is even it isn't

majority always win

most of the time,

i choose to be with the minority

though they are wrong in the perspective of others

but if,

if you take a minute

and stand on their shoes

and act on behalf on them..

what will you do?

everyone make stupid mistake once awhile

but wait,

stupid mistake?

how do we defined it as stupid mistake?

just because i the only one think that it is a mistake and a stupid mistake

so everyone must be on my side and think that it is a stupid mistake

ya,

i have been very bad in judging people lately

due to all those stupid thought i made...

on how i defined right and wrong

on how other's people accept my definition

well,

im not trying to said that i am a super good person

in most of the stories happen among friends,

im just a neutral outsider..

analyzing it alone...

:P

angry, disappointed or upset we must!

but shall all of us,

look back sometime

far more behind before all those stories happen

what make us till today before this

worth or not worth it,

is you, your own to judge it..

admitting mistake and saying sorry

accepting mistake and apologize

:)

i hope one day

u will realize

the importance of things you owned in the past

one sad thing i discover is

no one to share and talk about it together

sigh

i guess,

it might be funner if there is someone working together with me

im jealous

jealousy make me keep envy and talk how good other's ppl life is

how about me?

:(

i paint the night in silent

once

i paint myself black tonight

:(

说自己不懂的和别人沟通

要不如说，没人懂得我的话题

没人想听

没人想知

不是自己心事重重

很多事不说出来

因为觉得你不会懂

也尝试过说出来，

看到别人冷淡的回应，

最后，

漫漫的

自己变成什么都不说了。

以前，

会很讨厌这世界，

不给我一个他

可以明白

我所看见

我想象的世界

我说的故事

明白我的安静世界

笑笑我的欢乐世界

现在

不在讨厌这世界了

不知不觉

我漫漫的变得很自私

想要

一个人

享受

在

自己觉得的美

如果你说，你了解我

当我自己也不了解我自己

不知道，

自己喜欢的和讨厌的是什么

你到底，知道我些什么？

你的好，全部人知

我的好，到底有人知吗？

还是，我根本就够不好

我不了解自己

我无法把自己去解释自己到底是怎样的一个人

只知道，我很确定

没有任何人，喜欢或自持我的喜欢

很喜欢把我的喜欢当成笑话，

直到，有一天

你喜欢上我的喜欢

而我，只能像个傻瓜

在后面支持你的喜欢...

在了解自己的过程中，

反而

更加了解身边人的一切。

是我太骄傲了吗？

还是，说到最后

我根本就是不会沟通的人？

我也不知道...

是我把自己关注太久了吗？

很多小时候的事

想不起来了

记忆力变得很差很差，

听觉变得很差很差，

味觉变得很差很差。

我会怕

在听不见你的声音，

在看不见你的存在，

会忘了 这一切的感觉

会忘了 你 他 她 和 它

最害怕

你 会 忘 了 我

自己要求很多事

就算有办法去实现。

到最后，还是被拒

漫漫的也变成 不敢去实现自己要求的一切

被拒绝很多次

不代表，再次被拒绝 不会感到痛

每次

都把世界看成很多不一样的镜片

要看到 不一样的世界

看不明白 我写了这么长的文章？

我自己 也看不明，

因为

我写不出

我心

我脑

还有我

想告诉你的事

最后

我

还是

选择

安静

不再

讨厌

世界

不给

明白

我的

一切

the first roundabout in my life

very creepy even to think of it

even creepier when im on it

huge relieve after i get trough it

phew~

car in big city indeed moving very fast and close

is a good good day

and good night ^^

to success or not

is still a question