2010 Memory

today is 26 December 2010..

i type this earlier because of two reason

the 1st one is afraid that i don't have anytime to do that

[naaahh, this is a crap, spending lots of free time at home with drama n movies xP]

the second one is maybe i had lot of thing in mind wanna share it out,

since this will be going to say bout memory i had throughout 2010..

and the last one is maybe will got add on ler,

so i start early to write ba..

so this will be a super damn long blog post i guess..

with all those zap ba lang feeling i had toward all this year

and

i spend maybe 5 day writing this..

xD

sorry that the word is killing your eye...

something wrong with the coding..

i try to put color and changing font but nothing works..

please spend time read it since you already pressing into here..

drop some comment..

write something bout your feeling throughout the year too..

i wanna read it^^

So here it goes~

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Is a long year~

but not as tough as it is compare to the previous 2009..

i still trying to accept the fact though it is hard for me to do it..

but being here is a bless i guess..

i successfully finish my foundation study with not a very flying color result

but yet i am satisfied with it..

entering degree is another story..

is tough..

making me feel like a douche bag..

there are time i wondering what am i studying..

did i choose the right one for me?

what am i going to do if i failed it?

but maybe i am ways too lucky to able to pass the 1st semester..

I'm really afraid to face exam..

is truth though you may not believe it..

still searching strength to facing it..

maybe the way i studying is wrong..

but whatever is it..

i will not waste my student life..

three more year and i will enjoy it the way i wanted to..

people think I'm crazy to stay awake till the sunrise everyday..

but how long can we ever do something crazy like this when we grew up..

how many sunrise can you see in future when you have to work your shit out just to earn some living expenses..

how many shooting star you able to see??

how many time will we be able to spend for more than a day doing nothing but rolling on bed like a sushi with blanket and watching all our favourite drama..

I'm not crazy..

I'm just wanted to spend my time now doing things that little bit out of mind before i grew up to another stage of life where i won't be able to do it again..

I'm not selfish, I'm just want you to do it with me so you will have this kind of crazy memory perhaps?

but not many people really like it doh~

erm well, everyone have their own life,

cant force them to do things i wanna do..

i started to love the night life ever since i went university..

i spend lots of my time on nights and watched the most sunrise..

i like it, and will continue doing it the very next year...

talking bout Korean stuff..

this year I'm more and more obsessed with it..

all the drama stuff making me crazy..

i always wanted something without thinking bout the consequences..

now i am thinking bout it..

the best thing bout watching drama is,

they teach you how to grow up to be a better one..

though it is fake,

but watching them will reflect it to myself,

it make me feel like I'm not doing good enough for everything..

it make me feel like I'm not deserve those stuff as i did not the best i have..

some people may feel that I'm stupid chasing and listen to the language i do not understand it myself..

myself once had laugh my friend before last time..

but now,

i don't know why,

i just like it..

they teach me the beauty of silence..

they teach me the beauty of natural..

they teach me the beauty within self..

i may not be perfect,

but i am when I'm with all these stuff...

not only Korean stuff but anime too..

I'm watching back the anime i used to watch when i was younger back then..

there lots of meaningful stuff they teach which i did not realize when i was younger back then..

proof that i do grown up and saw things i didn't when i was younger? xD

and and..

i started to like to see beautiful thing..

how should i put this on word..

beautiful scenery?

something beautiful to me...

maybe like the sky?

something like you feel warm when you cold when looking at it..

whatever is it..

i enjoy seeing all this stuff..

i wish to see all this on real..

get to know all these stuff by movie and pictures..

yaaah~ my top wish right now..

work hard, earn lots of money to support me doing this...

travelling no where in some where i love and snapping picture..

in future, i hope i will be able to open wide my eye to see more beautiful stuff..

[dah spend lot of time blogging today.. tomorrow or late abit continue.. talk bout friend perhaps?]

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Today is 28 December 2010, 5.10pm

spending time writing this in front my house...

and it started to rain~

back to the topic..

as mention earlier,

i would like to talk bout my friends

though not everyone might see this..

but this is what i want to tell them...

first of all is my primary + secondary friends..

the most well known friend's friend of mine..

basically everyone i knew get to known her as well..

everyone trying to be her friend..

jeeez, now you know how famous you are..

nothing special happen bout me n her this year..

she found some one..

good for her..

thanks for being so good to me and telling me all those gossip around..

all the best in everything

the sis of the previous picture..

another big sister which most of my friend fear? respect?

haha

thanks for being a good friend and caring..

cooking meals to me sometime make me so happy

because i very lazy mar...

wish you can drop few more kilo next year..

i just concern bout your health only, don't get me wrong..

this pig face only remember me when back to DiamondBay..

but still happy because you call^^

less friend i had because im not like you..

i wouldn't call =S

keep up calling me like you use to..

what more i can say except wishing you happy happy with Mr.Ferru

relationship only work out if you and him together tolerate..

almost three year,

time to married!

xD

hope you successful graduate next year!

is been more than half a year we din't meet up with each other..

even can make it to your graduation like what we use to talk to when we are still studying..

feel so sorry bout that..

kind of happy to receive your sms recently asking to hang out..

looking forward to see you

and wish you all the best in your career

find some happiness through it..

everytime i see you i only felt guilty within myself..

maybe that the reason for me to avoiding you?

im sorry i cant make it up as i promise when we study..

hope you will doing very well after graduation

take care

eh..

i don't know what to say bout you..

been friend for so many year

but it seems like i know nothing bout you

except that you are good in making joke..

keep it up

you cheer up my life sometimes

xP

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okay now is the people i met in university

start off with house mate...

my roommate for almost a year

and now she will be leaving..

sometime i hated you

but it not till the level i wanted both of us to be enemy or what..

but you are way too nice..

you are a very good friend..

though i wanted you to stay,

but i cant force you..

all the best in your career..

next time i go singapore find work,

remember take care of me ^^

sure will miss the moment we talk till we fall asleep,

watch ghost movie with all light off,

cooking, eating, playing and crapping..

thanks for everything..

thanks for helping me!

is good to have you as friend

thank you for eating every meal with me

thank you for not being upset whenever i fly aeroplane and eat with some one else..

thanks!

thanks this two for accompany me yum-cha~ing most of the night..

for talking bout everything..

still have last semester left..

sometime, i do wish that you failed certain subject so you can extend semester and stay a little bit longer with me xP

but all the best for the last semester..

its kind of sad

but i will cherish the time we have for the last semester and explore the night together!

i like being friend with you..

you introduce me lots lots of beautiful stuff i mention earlier

maybe you might not be aware of this,

but i felt that both of us had some thing in common..

i don't know how to describe it..

maybe i more wanna be a little bit like you?

the last semester you left..

wish you all the best next year!

sure gonna miss you when you are not around..

next year we go have breakfast again? xD

this is the house!

love it!

stay healthy with no ants and stray dog coming in to poop around the house..

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now is my university friend~

oo!

this one left after the very first semester..

that's all

hah~

wish her all the best in choosing the courses she like went entering degree soon~

come and play with us at kampar when you free

is good to have some color you really like..

when others think of you

it sure will be PINK

i wish you to get bit fatter than me!

haha..

no la..

stay the same as who you are..

learn to cook more when you free and treat me eat..

don't give up on study when you meet with any obstacle..

i want to graduate together with you all!

though you keep telling me you are lazy or din't do any revision on anything..

but you still good than me..

i have to deeply rely on you when it come to coding stuff..

please continue your good job on it and save me..

im not as clever as you think i am..

i know your ambition and wish you all the best in achieving it..

in future, if have any good path, remember me! xD

see this picture pattern also can tell that she is a busy girl...

a brave one who dare to cycle anywhere in dark..

i envy that part..

steady in doing everything?

i never see her panic over a thing..

thanks for leading me a way to love the sky..

thanks for letting me disturb at class..

thanks!

and please be mature a bit..

a guy who started to shine once entering degree..

you are clever one..

sometime i don't understand why you like all those stuff and article with full english talking bout stuff that i don't understand..

maybe clever one thinking is hard to understand??

kakakaka

keep it up and hope to see your name in DEAN or PRESIDENT list

next year perhaps?

a guy who like to lies..

especially in stuff related to study?

weeeiii~ if you achieve good result,

we all will be happy for you..

don't cheat you failed even though you are not..

wish to see your name in DEAN n PRESIDENT list next year..

all the best in everything..

xD

the very first friend i met in UTAR!

don't give up in study even though the exam is hard..

your hard work sure paid off little bit..

i want to graduate together!

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no picture doesn't mean i forget you!

or you are not important in my life..

all those picture are snap by myself and people send to me..

i don't have yours... =(

or i forgot i have but i don't know? xP

sorry!

thanks to my beloved family for everything!

i dont wanna reveal here..

but i appreciate those who treat me like family

and to those who are not, er.. i don't think my thought of you is important since you are not..

to all my friends,

thanks for being my friends and helping me throughout the year..

i know my bad behaviors...

have try to change it but failed..

thanks for accepting it!

and helping me..

i appreciate everything!

i will continue being like this for the very next year xD

sorry if i done anything wrong,

sorry if i anger you but i don't even realize bout it..

sorry that i don't know how to say sorry..

sorry that im being to straight forward sometimes..

sorry for being rude?

sorry for being sorry

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talk bout stuff i've done in this year

the very first one of course is entering degree..

meet lots of new friends...

went to Cameron Highland for the first time...

then went to KL for a 6Day n 6nights stay..

then went for a camp..

throughout all the experience..

i realize more stuff about myself..

• i cant stay out from home for more than 5day?

i will feel tired and don't want to talk..

the trip will turn not very enjoyable for me..

• i like Cameron..

superb like..

though i hate cold but i like the environment at there..

super like!

• i cant stand on standing for more than 30minute for accompany people shopping?

this thing i realize when i go out with mum..

i will get suffocated..

=S

• drinking coffee kills me if im trying to be awake with it

but i still like to drink it especially MCD breakfast..

but mamak kopi panas don't seems taking the effect...^^

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today is 31st December 2010!

around 7.35pm..

wah one year is gonna past just like this..

i dint really spend total 5days writing this stuff what..

hahaha!!!

after wrote bout those thing previously,

i had a serious thought of things that i done..

especially how my friends treated me..

i happy and so grateful meeting them..

i thought of lots of stuff,

lots of small things that my friend done that i doesn't realize..

really appreciate them!

example?

my birthday~

thanks shyuan for being the middle person of everyone..

thanks lijiun for organizing it?

thanks everyone who coming out that day,

dump all your stuff behind to celebrate with me though i 'don't really wanted it'

thanks!

another example?

BBQ n steamboat

thanks to all my classmate doing all the preparation

and all i does is come, eat n sit n back..

thanks terence who woke up early to the wet market to buy all those foods....

and everyone!

there is too much and if i keep writing it i guess this post will be damn freaking long..

and really..

i really meant it..

to everyone..

anyone who reading this...

you! yes you!!!

no need have a doubt on this..

It's You!

THANK YOU for taking care of me this year..

lastly..

i will wanted to write out something i wanted to do for the year 2011 and in future..

★ Korea~ is been on my dream list..

★ to learn Hangul~ should keep up to it.. 2010 started it but i dint manage to continue to study bout it.. lazy

★ to learn listen to Hangul~ argh! i wanted this badly, i wanted to listen to what korean talking about without subs!

★ Yoga~ learn lots of basic skills in yoga class.. now wanna practice one month at least one time doing some simple pose (LOL)

★ maintain or drop some kilo~ I'm getting fatter.. i hope this amount stop and wont grow.. xP but i seriously need to diet before i saw tire in my stomach =S

★ WushuCLub~ i talk bout this ever since i enter UTAR.. wanna learn Taichi.. but this see 1st.. i really very busy xD

★ Driving~ i wanna learn more driving, now still very noobie and turn more noob as time past.. and my hear beat as if it gonna come out from my chest each time i enter big roads with lots of cars..

★ Hair~ my hair is now totally a mess! i wanna have something different.. hmm.. will think bout this..

★ Programming~ i wanna try my best to cover this thing up!! it's gonna be my career base in future what ==

★ DEAN list~ dreaming of entering this list at least one time? but with my attitude toward study this will be another dream xP

★ successfully go through every semester with no C and C+ AND FAILED AND barred from taking exam~ this is the most important list to do.. pobi pobi.. at least give me pass every semester will do T_T

★ DOTA~ i dream bout playing this game very pro-ly every year but i still don't know how to play this ==

★ FACE LESS COMPUTER~ oh this is impossible, but i want to reduce atleast time on facebook? my hand is started to trembling hard sometimes.. i don't wanna get Parkinson in early age ==

life can be beautiful without internet and computer..

im trying to searching for a life which i imagine it every single day..

i'll tell you on next next post when im free ^^

now is something materialistic i wish to have,

though is not Christmas xD

dream 1st only the thing will come in future~

★★ Lomo-Cam Diana F++ with full accessories~ this is kind of unrealistic for me... xD cost almost 1.5k+ and above... maybe an instant cameras? xP

★★ Apple~ not apple that can eat, is I-phone but need to sign contract damn! why don't let us buy i-phone!~ or an Ipod-touch

★★ DSLR??~ lumix GF2 will do xD but this maybe will be 5 years+ onward plan

★★ Coat + scarf + boots~ damn i wanna wear this stuff madly but malaysia is too hot! that why i plan wanna go to Korea during spring time near winter ma xD

★★ Concert~ never been to any concert before.. wish to go but it is quite expensive.. the one i wish to attend most or at least try one time is musical theater^^ or a k-indie concert from whoever at korea^^

that all only things i can think off..

there are a lot!

but i can't recall it out of sudden..

all those are stuff i want badly badly!!!

**the time is 8.15pm, will post this approximately at midnight.. if i still remember xD**

one more hour gonna 2011!

here i am again..

this year a bit special i spend my new year eve with two of my baby laptop..

previously is only tv or sleep early..

watch youtube whole day long...

i think my life won't pathetic till where..

think positively! there are people still have to work at this moment..

there are people sleeping under broken roof!

life still goes on for new year.. =(

God Bless Them..

zzz!!!

i wanted to sleep early this year..

but waiting this to be posted up =S

actually i also don't know what i wanted for life

sometime i may sound like I'm a no-lifer who trying to have a life or searching for a life?

I should have to control myself for not being too emotional..

people around me are striving for me,

i should think of this point if I'm thinking negatively!

heck,

this make me cry =.=

sigh.. out of topic..

i also don't know what I'm talking about...

anyway..

thanks for spending time reading this..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

wish you all have a wonderful year..

and next year onward will be a bless to everyone!!

IM gonna turn 21!!!

psst~ im still 16 mentally and physically just basically im 21 xD

SLEEP

I love sleep~

well basically everyone do right..

whenever anything sad

or I'm trying to avoiding something important like making decision which will like

*whoa* affected my whole life..

i will choose to run away by sleeping..

only by sleeping i feel myself the best..

i can even ignore eating or drinking just to have a nice sleep every in my entire LIFE!

sound over reacted right..

LOL

till something happen..

which make me so damn afraid going to sleep..

maybe i too kiasu already

or i don't wanna waste my effort and my baby laptop who work hard for it everyday..

yes.. for people who know me..

is that berry berry game from digi..

damn.. cant believe myself that im so obsess into this game..

now my sleep time totally disturbed..

every time i sleep, out of sudden i will awake of scared/afraid?,

and check the ranking just to make sure my ranking is not dropping..

if that rank fuckingly drop one rank..

my mind totally disturbed and i dont have any mood to do anything else except keep looking at it to chase back the ranking..

though in my mind i knew that i will have less chances of winning this game..

i still keep on doing it..

==

mind give me a consolation prize DiGi?

I don't really like blackberry..

If the prize give me a Diana f+ with full accessories,

I will definitely die hard for it.. xD

maybe sell it if i won the blackberry by any chance..

please help me wish other contestant line lag abit..

laptop/ desktop software lari lari..

LOL

but seriously for those who click on it everyday, please beware..

i already had minor symptom hand had less energy..

i very pity ler..

now sleep time less than 6 hour everyday..

if clashing with exam day..

seriously i need not have to sleep for the whole day..

i think my eye is so damn tired

and yet my brain keep phycho me don't go to sleep

or when you wake up..

sure something happen with the digi website..

then ranking drop!!!

AAAAAAAaaaaaaaahhhhh NOOOOOOOOooooo!!!!!!!!

this is the life I'm going to go through till next year when the game officially end..

or maybe one day i realize my ranking drop till the bottom the very next day i wake up..

i may give up..

and change to hotlink [== joking]

Love the day without the Sun

The previous Exam i had yesterday was totally a FULL disappointed

=(

had an early revision bout it..

during exam time,

I slept twice while thinking the point..

==''

cant even memorize what i had write for everything..

Don't even dare to look back at the question paper..

totally scare me off now..

I really disappointed with my performance for that paper..

so damn sad and straight went to sleep till the night..

and till now i don't have the mood to study for the next paper..

but the night scene just now had cheer me up little bit..

saw lots of shinning star lighten up my mood..

plus, meteor shower totally make my night..

don't know since when i started to in love to watch the sky..

started with the beautiful blue sky~

to the white cloud~

to the rain~

to the moon~

to the star~

how i wish the moment never end..

the cloudy night forces me to go back..

but i still like the cold cold night..

Is a perfect night..

Love the day without Sun..

Love the cold morning Breeze..

totally enjoy Longkai~ing in the night..

but no people like it..

making me do it alone most of the time

=(

nevermind~

I should start pack up my mood to study now..

so long bloggie..

...

Feels like crying..

The feeling where tear keep running within the eyeball so damn painful..

I miss home...

I am so pathetic broke..

If i can be like firework...

=(

Zat~ing

spend lot of time thinking whether did i accidentally speak out anything that hurt people around me..

still thinks that people around me cant accept the way i talk or express myself..

the way I'm talk very hard to accept mie??

i already very long time no 'zat lai zat qu' with friends...

miss those moment where ppl will never talk seriously, take thing seriously if i had talk too harsh and will shoot back me...

glad that my friend studying together with me at here..

at least won't get bored till no where when i cant find people to chat with..

yesterday MCD breakfast really fun~

so serious mie you..

you scaring me off to talk with you..

Lomo PhotoShop

Influence by a friend of mine,

i started to use photoshop for the very first time..

Quite HARD ler..

learn everything my own from Mr.Google

Grab some advice after finish editing from people who played with Lomo Camera..

Accept some critics from expert..

This is the best i can do from now...

i got little bit improvement in adjusting coloring~

better than last time although still not expert yet..

xD

The Ori

The Lomo Edit

I still think not very looks alike..

very hard to adjust the color, the sharpen, the contrast to look exactly the same..

maybe i have missed out some important element..

this is the best noobie 'piece-of-art' i manage to produce..

the original

im just trying to make the picture looks like VGA format..

FAILED

but i still like it..

SpoonFeed?

Because it happen just now,

so i think i wanna do some comment bout it...

but first of all,

i have no intention in blaming anyone or what..

this is just my own-selves opinion..

calm down and read through.. If you are reading it anyway...

in education,

sometimes, we need to learn how to be independent a bit..

as if for my example..

my failure past tense..

form 6!

teacher really never cover everything..

never provide any tips for everything..

never bother to help (some)

we have to study ourself for one BOOK around 150pages(include cover, glossary and answer) as teacher unable to cover it..

everything cover by ourself..

no choice..

when i failed it,

no ones to blame when everyone blame on me..

it is my fault...

stand on education perspective,

teacher will never wrong..

is us the students who wrong if we unable to understand it..

because we never take a step to understand it..

asking someone?

do some research by our own?

maybe you never receive this kind of education before..

yeah~

is quite unfair for us if we compare this case with everyone

where,

other class get the tips and example..

it never get as serious as you need to make the tutors angry with you right..

i advice you on spot that you should apologize and in FACT,

you really should..

there is no point argue with tutors..

if she really change,

it bring no changes to our life also..

plus,

you will get hated by tutors..

ONLY YOU!!

while other student can feel so enjoy seeing you argue their rights with tutor..

but really appreciate your effort for trying to protect the whole class right

and be the brave one who voice out what on everyone mind

when you grew up a little,

when you make yourself a step into the society,

there will no longer be spoon feeding..

everything is on our own...

Gonna have a Test later..

but i still study ZERO..

maybe because it is an open-book test?

out of random..

i shoot the skeleton of my poor phone

and my spec

do u notice anything in the bottom pic??

^^

take note on my spec shadows

Exam is around the corner..

i should start to love the books + notes

all the best to me and everyone..