bloggy full of dust and i even forgotten the key to enter it..

luckily i manage to retrieve it back..

is been awhile..

the past few week full of stress, joy and sad~

overall 30% stress, 15%joy and sad 55%.

reason i don't want to blog is for sure is going to increase my stress and sadness.. :P

but everything had past tense, now i should focus on praying hard that i wont failed any subjects this semester.. Orz

semester break start,

instead of choosing earning money working somewhere else..

i choose to work with my parents..

sigh..

it should be happy, try to be cheerful for work..

everytime i went to work with them, for sure i will end up thinking a lots of negative things

but

kids nowadays really should follow their parents work for a day..

to feel themselves how hard their parent earn those money for them..

when they pay money eat kfc/sushi king or any luxury foods for lunch,

what is your dad having? nasi lemak with teh ais? mihun goreng?

the place my father work is kinda far away from the town,

not many thing can be choose to eat,

sometime my mum choose to buy some foods at 6am and bring it to work for lunch

food such as nasi lemak.. (the very small size without ayam) or fried mee with mihun (RM1)

one people only one packets...

zzzz! i still can survive with that foods till 6pm,

but i dont know bout my dad and mum..

not everyday they having this, they got go out to the nearby shop to eat nasi campur..

the point is not bout what they eat, is how they spend their money on the food compare with us..

most of the reason i starve myself is i am lazy, but is also because my mum and dad who spend a little money for food.. i as their child, zzzz.. what can i say..

talk bout working...

the machine making problem is quite headache...


the backside of my dad,

though all the people talking bad bout him, but i still love him...

only until working with him, i can understand how much stress he is baring through himself though he never tell us...

T.T



my mum...

looking at the window... peeping the uncle who construct factor

they are getting old, and yet still be able to be so hardworking...

everyday wake up at 6am+, sleep at 12am+

even me who still sleeping keep finding excuses to skip the work (but in the end, i still manage to be awake)

sigh...

i seldom talk about my family..

and things about me..

too much unhappy thing that i am scare to shared out..

recently, my dad break his shoulder bone,

my mum hospitalized due to bee stings..

workers making lot of trouble and more more trouble keep coming..

that why during study week,

i accident and bump into others people car( cost me hundreds+!)

with pain all over body, i still bared it through..

i dint tell my parent or anyone about my pain.. till i get back home..

just dont want to make people unnecessary panic since i am still alive..

sleep for two days and heal it and in the end, i get sicked.. =.=

that time, how i wish i was crash died right in the spot during accident..

trying to tell someone but i dont know who to tell and how to tell...

i don't know since when, i became more and more mouth tight to tell out my stuff..

i keep have the mindset that, nobody owe to listen to your damnful life..

or they wont be interested,helped.. they are busy.. i am not deserve

with lots of stupid excuses..

i have many friends but when it come to asking for help.. it was like zero

i think there should be many, but i just don't dare to ask..

not because i am being arrogant.. it was just all those stupid excuses that i think others ppl will throw back to me...

i am really afraid i will make them disappointed this time...

please let me through this semester..

today while working, there is lot of thing in my mind i want to share it out,

but when i am here..

i am 100% blank..

bye bloggie..

i will update some happy stuff if i passed all the subject this semester

so bless me well~

muack, thanks for reading my lame post..