a lot of thing had happen..
after the exam mark are released,
everyone seems happy but in their inner heart,
i can feel that everyone is not satisfy..

study and not study is your choice..
when the result is out, your marks is low..
who can you blame except for yourself?

other people commenting or talking bad behind or in front me
i don't mind..
even i became less socialize with people at here..
became a nerd
even if my other friends at here, had it all, all the friends..
i think i wont regret..
because
i still remember the promises that i had make to them..

i make my mistake once
i failed my life once..
i disappointed them a lot

whenever i saw her,
i can see a sorrow on her face,
she must had been suffer a lot..
sorry...

because of that...
i try to strive for it
even it is tiring, but when i imagine her..
i think i can continue it without any complaining

actually I'm quite disappointed with my grade,
there are some paper i really sad bout it..
while other score the highest,
i cant even get half mark of it.
and the fucking assignment is making me headache..
i really hate to do something that had to deal with my mouth..
zzz!!!
i can see other can score really well for their exam
how come i cant be like them?


while the exam is around the corner
i can feel the tenses at everywhere..
everyone started to freak out
and i think,
i should start too....


human like you should not be disappeared from here..
became a human where people are not notice bout your existence is painful
it is not as easy as you think..
but
for certain reason,
i think you can do it


best of luck to us