im the rejected

the gap between you and me
become bigger and bigger each day

until
i don't know want to talk what with you
crap?
you doesn't seems like the ppl that same channel with all my crap
serious stuff?
i think only gossip bout the same ppl, is all we can talk about

the important thing that you say you don't mind
i see you did that everyday
I'm upset? I'm angry?
I'm jealous?(maybe)
is it I'm over sensitive or over reacted with it?

try to tell myself is OK and try to talk more with you,
maybe you will realize that I'm still exist
and realize that actually i can talk a lot

but then,
should i really have to force myself to make me and you more closer?
not to say force..
is like making me n you become closer but you doesnt seem to care bout it?
a single thing that been said or done by the other friend of you, or they need not have to do anything
you will fly to that friend
the other is more attractive and more valuable to talk to...
and it seems like I'm trying to search a needle in a big sea..
my effort of doing all this.. i looked so stupid

concentrate at my studies is better than building up this relationship that did not ever going to worked

too fed up

i want to find some one to talk............
but...........
promise not to be emo again...
whenever im alone, ......................


this is life...
and im weird