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Monday, November 21, 2011

study time is pack,
i am not regretting taking so much subjects this semester..
in fact,
i'm enjoying it (i guess),
dealing with rushing assignment,
midterm,
quiz,
and also finding internship for next semester..

i make a lot of stupid mistake..
i learn from it,
learn a lot,
especially for job interview,
and
job finding..

i listen a lot of talk from some famous company..
then only i realize how tiny i am,
how weak i am..
measuring my capability,
asking myself,
do i qualify?
am i good enough?

one year left in university,
and i still think i din't grow up much yet
wanted to use the time left to really wake myself up..


by the way,
i found an intern job..
i'm not sure whether it suit me or not..
a friend of mine once told me,
'wasted 30k but end up doing something else?'
kinda true,
i decided to use this intern period to try to love the thing i study..
hopefully,
everything,
will went smoothly

my assignment went super smoothly..
my group mates and i cracked head to think of a new ideas..
in the end,
lecturer accepted it
and
we also won a chance to enter a competition..
muahahaha!
if really enter the competition,
i wonder did i have time to blog, facebook and sleep?
hahaa~
we will see how things goes later..



some random pictures ♥

my big big table that accompany me study
(though im using a smaller one now :P)

when me vs assignment
(macam very rajin hor)

a little thing i did for flea market
and also for the future future market ♥
please support me at lomo-ing


last
for 11/11/11
pepero days!
cant find any pepero at here
so i duplicate it with rocky ♥

the end ♥

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

自卑

以前
会觉得
自己不够美
而很自卑


除了不够美
还觉得自己不够好



努力把自己
解脱这些想法

努力
不比较

努力
去接受

努力
去享受生活
看看不一样的世界

努力的
呼吸
这世界的美



用很多逃避方式
就这样
我活过来

最近
自卑感又来了
不够美
不够好
不够聪明
一直怪自己不够努力

这世界
这社会
接受不了
我的
太多的不完美




找了几个朋友
想说说
最近
我很伤心
但
还没开的了口
就被拒绝

每次都会将
在我最低落的侍候
没有人在
没有人愿意把事情丢下
听听我说话

因为某些原因
和几个朋友
呆在一起
听着他们聊聊天
还真的要谢谢他们
如果没有的话
我可能
在家
一个人
安静下来的时候
更想不开

真的
很想
哭出来

现在
静静
一个人
想了好多

其实
我算是什么嘛
哪里有资格去 要求
哪里有资格去烦人
别傻了
下次
不要在去烦人




寻找爱?
其实
知道自己有很多的不好
要求可能从很高
变的很低
很怕失望
把很多事都看得很重
这些想法
在中学才敢要求
现在
让它活在幻想里
不要想太多了







幸运的是
我还有
家
开着门
等我回

累啊

手疼到很够力一下
忙完了
想好好的睡觉







完。