Thank U/Sorry

A simple post to say out loud a lot a lot lot lot of appreciation to all the people beside me...

those who celebrate my birthday, thanks for the effort[will update bout it SOON]

those who work hard with me every night for assignment..

those who give me courage,

those who had being treat as 'punch bag' accidentally whenever I'm in anger[thanks for not being upset with my attitude]

those who help me do all the registration stuff,

those who help me on tips for exam,

those who help me giving all those important information..

i cant do anything except express my gratitude here..

thank U

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Recently I've been so down..

lot of time i wanna complain all those invisible problem that laid deep within my mind..

but i cant explain it in word...

it had been so so tough..

every night, i feel like want to cry out loud whenever I'm thinking that the arrival of TOMORROW..

sigh.. my stress level is boasting every single day..

after i ended each of my exam..

feel nothing but just disappointed..

I'm not trying to show off right now..

i just really feel disappointed with myself this few days..

feel like I'm going to back to the previous me in two years ago...

useless life, wasted the two years time..

i know the goal that i should fight for,

but i just cant motivate myself to get into it...

whenever i see others people studying,

the kiasu-ness minded me start to feel pissed off...

i just cant understand myself..

sigh...

I'm shivering every single day

afraid of the arrival of tomorrow..

I'm feeling that I'm changing a lot into more aggressive me..

so hate myself whenever i think back on how arrogant am i trying to control others people life to follow on how i planned everything should be..

I'm sorry..

to those i hurt before..

i talk without think twice..

my word are too harsh...

if my attitude pissed you off...

I'm just sorry..

i apologize sincerely..

is been so tough for me to go through..

acting to be too strong is too tiring..

becoming strong and independent is stressful..

sometime, i do hope there is someone willing to share out their shoulder for me...

i hope that people will treat me like i need some protection...

i do hope that i can cry out loud without feeling shame of myself..

i do hope that i can becoming a person that rely on people and not people rely on me...

i do hope there is people willing to teach me like i know nothing bout everything..

T_T

everything is been so damn hard for me to go through..

i just hope that, people will not look too high on me..

don't put too much expectation..

I'm actually not like the one you see everyday...

I'm a weak and pathetic human that seeking for a simple life...

sorry

I'm in such a condition that i don't even know what i want to say anymore..

T_T