rain from evening to midnight...
i love the moment when it started to rain..
love it the most when all of the people at the house
gather together..
i really love my housemates..
all of them are so nice and friendly

before started to blog..
i had lots of things on my mind that i wanna to write it down at here..
but whenever i started to blog, i forget it all


today i suppose to went out celebrate my friends birthday
okay i admit i lazy to go out...
but the 2nd reason that i did not wanted to go out
is i afraid going out alone
whenever all my classmates are meeting at mamak stall middle of the night,
i will reject their invitation
but i will go together with my housemate or friends
is because they live near to me
and we went out together but not alone
quite scary to go out alone from here..
excuses are just excuses to covered the mistake
but
still the same phrase
my existing are not important..
people will still have fun...
(i tell this phrase to my bro friend, and he said that i totally sound like my bro)

there are once my friend tell me that
people that study at the school with only one sex..
(which mean boy school and girl school)
got problem in communication with other
compare with those who study in mix school..
some of it might true,
because the some of it is me..
i started to really mix with boy friends are when i entered form6..
people may not realize
but my hand will sweat when i talked with the opposite sex
hard to understand the way they think..
so i like to observe the way they talk or react
and i understand that all of them love to mix or be friend with those who are attractive..
because my brother and my cousin are all like this...
keep critic on those who are born fat or ugly..
==''
it is not my fault to born ugly...
but although their mouth are so stink(mean talked without considerate on other's feeling)
but they still have lots of pretty girl friends..
i seldom see a ugly one snap picture together with them..
and that make me realize of one point
people are realistic...
or I'm the one who are realistic??

by the way..
i think i never mention before..
as my age grew older..
i started to hate birthday
maybe because, a lot of people that i expecting they will remember
but at the end they forget..
so..
not so many people really remember my birthday...
while other love to have a party for their birthday..
i love only silent dinner with no wishes or present or cake
just a normal day... nothing special i guess...
a day where we are one step closer to death..
a day for us to realize, we are getting older
I'm no longer a kid or teenager
stepping into the other stage of life
dealing with lots of problem...

friend tell me to enjoyed my university life
as when you started to work,
you will find yourself busy and
had no time to rest...

okay..
I'm enjoying..........