learn

Christmas just ended few days ago,
i had a good time chatting with some friends of mine
talking about anything to nothing
except for something which i dislike and everything just turn awkward in a sudden
*friend i apologize of my sudden rudeness, i did that because i hate it if people bring out this issues in public*

i may love to request a lot in front of you
i hope you can do this, i wish you can do that
but in fact,
I'm not
most of the time,
I'm just saying it just to make a chit chat topic
but not with my bbf of course.. i really expect my bbf will do it..
:P
learn not to make blank promises
learn not to give other pressure with those 'wants' i wish to get from them

i make mistake,
though i knew part of it is not my mistake
i just admit it to prevent further argument..
i hate to look at myself in anger
i hate myself when i start to talk back in anger..
i dislike myself behave like a bitch
is not that I'm pretending to be goodmannerorinnocent baby.
just nod, smile and say sorry..
learn to control my anger aka anger management

my parent dislike me spending money on those unnecessary stuff
such as cleansing foam
yeah, i never use cleansing foam/facial in home,
just wash with plain water or soap?
for them, it is unnecessary to clean your face with those stuff,
if your face turn uglier (with pimples and or dark spot)
they simply put on blame on that facial stuff..
LOL this is my mama, kinda cute
what i wanna buy they will say NO
so most of the things i want to buy is still on the wanted list
thanks to them, i save a lot
sometime when think back, i maybe does not need those stuff
learn to control my eager to buy things
learn to differentiate needs and wants..

i dump my friends a lot
most of my friends,
I'm not the one who will take the first move to say hello
maybe i should change that and start saying hello
learn to be extrovert instead of introvert
learn to use verbal instead of nonverbal communication

learn not to look down on myself
instead of saying i can't or I'm not
tried saying now you're not/can't but not in future

people who know this,
i guess only one..
i run away instead of facing it..
if it give the feeling of insecure and make me want to run away
is it indicate that i hate it?
or im just not prepare for it..
learn to accept
learn not to avoid
learn a proper way to avoid.. LOL
till now i still avoiding it, this is totally creepy =.= i know I'm bad
I'm still living in my own world
world that won't give me hurt and everything is under my control.
i am not prepare to step out from my own world yet.

learn to in love with tea
this is random haha
i heard that tea can help to reduce weight
i keep eat and eat non-stop since the sem break start
met with lots of relatives and friends
all of them said: 'wow thin dy, kampar no food eat?'
i don't know i should believe it or not whether i really thin or is just a sentences to say instead of hello
my face is getting chubbier and the pants is getting tighter
symptom of getting fat..
i need to be more thinner
every year resolution to be thin but i failed...
is a good thing of going internship alone,
i wanna make a huge makeover if possible LOL (at least thinner)
trying to avoid seeing my friends this five months,
see what will they said to me after five month xD


learn to dress well
i think i need to improve in this
since i born till now,
i don't have any fashion sense though i love to see how well people dress
when it come to buying cloth to myself
i epic-ly failed
should i find someone to blame? xD
yeap my parent again of course, they keep giving me the impression that our family are actually poor
we are so damn poor that i couldn't buy a shirt which is expensive than rm15
we are so damn poor that i couldn't buy a pant which is expensive than rm30
but now everything changes,
we have e-commerce, lots of online shop with cheap deal...
but then, even i bought those awesome apparel that definitely make yourjawdrops
i couldn't wear out, i still prefer t-shirts and pants
well then just forget bout this,
stick back to t-shirts and pants.. :P
by the way, we are still poor Orz

with all this so many things to learn
i take it all as resolution of the upcoming years


end this post with a song from The Click Five that promoting awareness about human traffic
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