superstitious me
everytime looking at the clock
it would be double same

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a friend tell me that my blog is dull
is even more dull with those sleepinggenretype songs
i change it, but with only a songs..
zzz
i cant add in songs in it, i dont know why



okay
the purpose of blogging today ain't suppose to talk bout this
but internship stuff had been keep making me so frust
other's seems happy and satisfied leaving school for internship
while me.. erm, i don't know what to say

i choose alone go interview to a company
why?!
most of my classmate all decided not to intern
some who are lucky enough to be born at big city, can intern at company near them
my parent keep said i am stupid enough to go alone
i was thinking, when i grew up later,
i was suppose to go alone also, what is the different?
the most stupid thing i had to admit is letting go the other opportunity
sigh, not to mention bout it anymore...




at first i suppose to feel relieve..
aaah~ finally there is a company willing to hire me
but now, intern at a Ipoh is not easy..
no transportation, u die
people keep telling me the public transportation is not as punctual as those in kl
no accommodation yet,
next week gonna start my job, and i haven't found a place for me to sleep
the place i wanna go, my parent wouldn't allow
the place my parent want me to go, i don't feel like going..
urgh!

i don't wanna trouble other relative or friends
my face is not that thick enough
one week is already enough killing my pride..
my parent keep want the best for me
as what they said,
im a girl, that is the real problem..

if keeping me safe till the end,
when would i be able to grow?
just like driving car..
keep did not let me drive it,
now, i feel like a loser and you keep saying is my fault for not drive it out
and now keep pushing me to drive ==

im not saying that is my parent fault for all this mess..
most of it is my fault too for too obedient (LOL wtf is it?)
whatever
things had come to here and i need to think of things to clear it up


this saturday and sunday gonna spend a day trip to there to search for room

sigh~

i am too tired to enjoy my holiday after i came back to home

all i wanna do is just lay down and sleep

enjoy reading my books with music i like with a cup of hot drinks

online and watching video from facebook and youtube

i just love to stay at home silently without disturbance

and all of it,

gonna end soon