...

later around 7am will off to the hospital at Ipoh..

gonna spend one day at there to accompany her..

something have to cut off at the feet..

this is an early symptom..

slowly, the whole leg will be cut off..

this is the most horrible way to die..

it take time,

the process is pain..

and it make others life difficult including oneself..

i think the most scary part is being alone at the hospital..

think of nothing but the probability that the next day you wake up..

you no longer can stand, walk, run and jump like the way you use to be..

even there is moral support from friends and family..

it still hurt..

thinking that you will be useless person that needed to be help by others to move on..

is it never too late to regret and start to make things right, is it?

this had been in my mind recently..

what will happen to me if i lost my legs or hands..

i should relieve and grateful that i am born perfectly..

this few weeks, i had been torturing my body so much..

with the unbalance sleep time and diet..

now i can feel that my stomach started to growl in pain...

no worry everyone..

I'm still healthy

i guess...

i wanna jump the topic into education..

i mean my study stories..

nothing special..

just that,

till this moment..

i still thought that,

i might have chosen the wrong course..

i try to convince myself that it will get easier and i will adapt to this subject..

but it's not..

too many stuff that suppose to be a common sense but i still don't know about it...

then i also realize,

is never been in my list that i will end up in the field that I'm studying...

just hope that things will get little bit easy to follow soon...