...

okay..

spend some times to do some complaining...

i am so freakishly pissed off right now..

zzz

feel like want to tell to others but

i think I'm the one who will being tease for being so sarcastic..

Ive been being patient over this case since u enter my life

i don't understand?

is it my problem?

or u?

when others sleep in my room,

u will keep quietly..

and that is the moment of silences i can felt during sleep time..

until the others left and u started to open songs/radio loudly..

can u be a bit considerate to me??

even when u sleep, i did not even open any fucking songs..

i can work in dark just to let u sleep in dark..

being so tolerant to u if can..

i cant even sleep well this few days..

and the moment i started to can communicate with sleep

u come and interfere my communication

zzz~~!!!!

change my study place to living room since i knew u sleep early

i don't want to disturb you

since you ady so 'tired' with your day life,

so i give you sleep

i let the whole room to you..

sleep in darkness. i cant remember when is the last time i did this at here..

is it I'm acting too princessly?

i really feel sick looking at you..

you now creating nothing but just hate

==

not letting me sleep is not the only reason i hate u..

adding up other internal n external factor..

which i lazy to describe..

aaahhh...

forget it..

I'm the bad ppl in the house

u are the good one..

you are labelled as the best of the best housemate n roommate by others

and i am the other ways..

u cry ppl considerate

now i was like being black labelled for not waking u up or teaching u

zzzz

fine..

spending my fucking 15min

crying for this

am i too stressed out for the 6 days non stop exam?

am i angry for not being can have a good sleep?

or just disappointed with what I've done for the exam...

the exam is creating huge disappointment in my life

for the first time,

I've being so scare to face it..

I've being so unsure with what I've done

even not a chance for me to feel unsure with what i've done

burning all the oil i have just for these days..

all the effort is like being wasted..

easy question is being blanked..

hard question filled with craps...

really scare that i cant do this well..

maybe i look too high on my capabilities some times

what i want now?

sleep or study?

maybe continue study...

sleep when i get back to home...

i miss my bed...

sleep is my life

the reason why i so pissed off

i aim higher

not just enough

but higher