I Want?

OK my blogging mood is back...

feels like wanna update each hours whenever there's a things on my mind..

just because i forget easily,

that's why i like to write out everything i want at here..

start it with something that entertain me..

MUSIC!!!!

I'm really addicted to Korean songs..

sound so stupid listen to songs that nobody will listen

erm.. nobody here means my friends...

i have very little friends who same the same passion as i am...

they thought listening to those kind of music which they don't even understand is craps [for certain ppl]

so most of the time..

i listen and SS alone..

this doesn't stop me from loving K-pop~~

The Korean

• 2PM - Tik Tok, HeartBeat, Tired of Waiting, Again n Again and etc..
• Big Bang - Lollipop part 2, Lollipop, Stylish, CottonCandy and etc...
• SuJu - SorrySorry, SorrySorry Answer, SeoulSongs, DiscoDrive, SuperGirl and etc...
• SNSD, Kara, 2AM, LoveHolic, Mblaq, SS501, Shinee, Brown Eyes Girls and etc...

The Chinese

• S.H.E - 两个人的荒岛, and etc..
• lots of cha ba lang artis i lazy to stated out because it is in CHINESE
• MR., and etc... [ trying to get update with canton songs..]

The English

• LadyGaGa - Kandy Life, Your Negativity
• Jason Mraz - Try Try Try

erm.. that's all i can remember..

i listen more to korean..

remember the beats of the music than the song titles...

my brain cant fill up with all this things..

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i just don't know why,

things that i don't want it to happen..

it will eventually occur..

i hate it to occur..

in fact, i wish it will never going to happen....

but,

just like what i told my friends...

my curse have turn to blessings to them..

nothing but JEALOUS

when i knew it is getting more and more stable..

i hope it will break some where..

but it turn out differently of what i wanted it to be...

forever the same..

what i want, will never going to be what i get...

did i really work not hard enough to get what it takes???

what for I'm so upset with all this things???

because i don't want it to happen on that people??

or because i wanted it so much???

still don't understand what i want..

last few days,

i was so in mood wanna purchase a speaker from a friend of mine..

but today, i felt is kind a waste of money....

last few month,

i was in dilemma to choose whether to continue pursue the course im taking now,

or a change...

last few days,

i make my decision to change it..

but today,

i ........

im in dilemma again....

physics..

i choose physics because of engineering..

and i thought i will end up becoming an engineer some days..

i really not sure what i will end up if i continue studying this..

i ask lecturer before what I'm going to be in future..

but i forgotten all the thing he said..

software engineer?

programmer?

i keep on thinking of the best solution for this..

i wanna ask some one..

but no one can answer me..

but, who dare to answer question that change life of one??

everyone ask me to make my own decision..

zzz!!!

now, i really have to admit that independence is so far away from me...

i can't make my own decision..

and i don't even know what i want..

Computer Science?

Information System Engineering?

Accounting?

Architecture?

i sound so greedy...

and i don't know what i really major in..

what i really expertize in..

what i really want...