you are rejected!!

this few days..
lots of unknown people started to add me..
especially those little kids..
i think is my junior..
but this junior are way too small from me..
such as 97's kiddo adding me? [i guess it base on their email]
I'm not trying to said that I'm getting popular or what..
but the point that i wanted to share with you all is the
ridiculous question they ask or answer

okay let me give you an example
orange@coldmail.com add me
the conversation was something like this

orange: hi!! [with lots of icon.. make me have to see what the alphabet is by clicking it =.=]
rejected: oh hi... who are you??
orange: I'm orange..
rejected: oh hi orange.. i know you??
[=.= this is the stupid answer i receive.. like i cant see your name on your email... but since this is a kiddo... so i patiently asking question again]
orange: no you don't know me
rejected: oooo
orange: oo what??
rejected: i 'oo' that you don't know me lor
[wtf??!! I'm controlling myself not to split any foul word.. ooooo is what??? I'm totally speechless]
orange:okay bye
rejected: bye
orange: haha bye bye
[what is so funny with bye bye??]

yeah bye bye and you are rejected from the list..
opps!! you are not even added into the list yet...
zzz!!!
lame conversation..
i thought if you really are my junior,
you can understand simple english??
who are you?? and you answer back something that so surface...
zzz!!!!
if you added me six month ago..
i might can still entertain and crap awhile with you

this happen also at my friendster and facebook friend list..
yep.. i might accepted friend request..
but few days or weeks later..
i will start deleted all those unknown..
part of my entertainment..
haha!!
i cant understand why people love to add so many people at their friend list
and i can bet most of them are unknown..


and now..
I'm trying to reject those phone call with unknown number...
especially these start with 010 and with special hyper VIP number (as I'm avoiding people right now)

OG!! i rejected a lot of things..
haha!!

hoping tomorrow will be a better days..
im totally addicted to Boys Like Girls, The All American Rejects and Crowd..
i cant get my ear off from you!!
your music doze me away from the reality


you came into my life...
you know that it all takes my breath away
so maybe it's true
that i can't live without you
there's so much time
to figure out the rest of my life
that you've already got me coming undone
and I'm thinking two
is better than one
you make it hard for breathing
i think of you and everything's okay
and finally now, we're leaving
[part of the lyric from Two Is Better Than One- Boys Like Girls featuring Taylor Swift]

new hair style2

i read back my old post
actually i purposely do so,
because i wanted to know, the 1st expression of mine when i make any changes thing on my hair..
as i remember, i was totally upset with the outcome..
just like what i feel now...
link to previous post

whenever i cut a hair..
i will not face the mirror..
even if i face.. it will also be less than 10sec
if I've straighten, or done something permanent on it [i don't know wanna how to describe it]
i always choose to done it at long holiday..
just for me to adapt with my hair before i show it to other..

just like the hair in above link..
i think i use a lot of times to adapt to it..
before i started to blog and praise on my own hairstyle [==]

this time different..
i only have less than 2 days time,
before the school start..
aaaa!!!
maybe i should start combing hair to make it straight back
(but money will be wasted)
maybe in a days or two.. i can adapt with it...
cut the crap and picture will be shown

new hair-style
[lazy to upload since i already loaded it at facebook]



the second semester had started and this week will be the forth week..
and the mid term test will be around the corner..
with tones of assignment to settle
and studies to cope with..
i think that..
i should start studying..
this is the toughest semester..
till now, i don't understand anything that had been teach except for math
another 5 subjects...
i have to start study the book before the book study me...
DIE



oh yah!!
today is quite a special days..
two of my classmate birthdays..
although just get to know them for less than 3month
[minus all the sem break, holidays and time we started really became closer]
it feels like we have know each other for so long..
really feel like this..
all of you have became part of my life
and no longer a stranger in my life..
this semester passed so quick since that we only study for 4days a week

Happy Birthday Elson
Happy Birthday ZhuoZhuo
may god bless two of you..
(i wanted to continue blog but the mosquito attacked distract me)
and happy incoming birthday to others
and happy belated birthday to previous friends that just celebrate their bday


off

3rd Post

the 3rd post in less than 24h hours...
seems like blogging is part of my life!!
i should try to plurk more instead of blogs...

yea~~
BoA... just like this picture so much..
she is so pretty and handsome
even handsome than the guys out there..


my new net browser image...
love it love it!!


this will be the 'THING' that will accompany me for the next 6 or 5 weeks
have browse through their official website just now..
and luckily i receive this as my title...
with all the answer provided..
plagiarise smart!!
XD

if....

if i can became the people they expected i would be
if i can became just like them
if i can turn back the time
if i can became some one important in you
if i can became some one instead of somebody
if i can live on life with not regrets
if i am given an opportunities to choose
if i am born with an unseen attraction
if i am not born as a human being
if only life is as easy as ABC
if all the if are true

then
im no longer a Rejected that people see today

grouping

actually I'm going not blogging today..
as there is nothing special for me to me to mention
except the incident happen yesterday
guiltiness fulfill my heart and I'm going to take this feel forever with me
another regrets in life..

incident that happen twice today..
and the last one, happen just after i wake up
at first i am a bit pissed off..
why they wanna push all the responsibility to me??
yes i admit that..
i wanna push that stone away since the previous experience..
they wanna form a 'incredible' gang or what
i don't care..
you want take all your previous 'incredible' member away from my existing group now
i also didn't care already..
keep repeating and sound like I'm the one who snatch away all the member they want
when forming a group..
i did not even wanted to sound out any opinion..
whatever come just let it come..
forming group with the people i don't want i also never mention out anything...
you really wanted it.. why don't you bring it out this issues at the table and discuss earlier???
and i never snatch all those people..
people came by their own..
if i knew that this will happen again..
i shouldn't following you all...
I'm not trying to sound that I'm blaming you all or what..
but think again..
don't you really sound like you are pushing all those bad stuff to me??
i admit that they all are so clever and genius group I've ever met in this uni(after 2 sem)..
i rely them a lot also...
maybe you don't have the intention to sound like this..
joke??
since this incident.. that happen twice today!!
where people bring out assignment member group issue out to me
fine...
i have nothing to say anymore..
take whatever people you want..
don't ask me.. just ask the people you wanted..
throw me all the people you don't want..
no need ask me also.. just tell them that they have switch..
after you have done.. inform the tutor..
i don't want to involve in this things...
I'm tired and i hate to step myself into trouble..
i just wanted to go through this 4 year at here smoothly and simple...

**pushing you till the death road
forcing you to eat the dead cat
is not my intention okay??
you hate the dead cat??
throw it to me then...
if you still dare to do so after you read this post...
i have nothing to said anymore..
i have no feels in discussing this anymore

like i never felt it..
the expression in your face when other ask you to join into the group I'm enter..
that is the reason why i don't want talk anything..
or asking anyone to join my group
i knew it you wanna join the other one..
waiting for the other group to open their mouth and invite you..
people just have the attraction to attract other people to join them...
maybe they really have the market value in doing assignment..
no comment...


and then I'm not your spare tyre..
when nothing happen, you wouldn't find me
something happen, you find me everyday
you are like a fly..
when I'm poor with no food with me, you would not fly to me
and whenever I'm biting a food or what.. you will keep distract, disturb and ka ka cau cau
and never concern bout my feeling or what..
you are human that need care and i need not???
you are the human that can give people hurt and i need not??
i can't understand..
the first time you failed, you said you wanna worked harder the other time..
but i never see that..
maybe is me the one who think a lot or l
and love to take other people business into my account...


well now only you realize that I, the rejected you see in life
are not that good..
I'm a jerk

[before everything start, i already feel tired and sick]

confession

I'm sick with myself...
thought that the evil part of me have been pushed deep inside in my heart..

i cant control myself doing all these bad stuff..
as I'm happy that I've turned in to a good people..
but, God are testing us everyday..
and it seems like it proved that...
the personality and attitude of me will be never change..
I'm still the greedy one..

i have no feeling toward these incident..
but
when they talk about it..
i have protected myself.. although is me who done wrong
creating a lot of fake situation..
to prove that I'm not wrong at all...
even pushed to fault to others

I'm still a good liar..
no matter in what situation..
i lie..
i lied to them
i lied to myself
just to protect myself..

i used to hate people that lied to other..
but when i did that..
how many people actually hate on me???


I'm still the best liar..
from small till now..
this is the fact cant be change..
pride is too high for me..
i cant afford to lost my pride...
therefore i lied(I'm finding excuses for the reason why i lied)


I'm such a jerk...
I'm sorry

RIP

is been a day, since the tragic happen..
at first, i felt nothing bout this..
but whenever i saw people posting bout the people that passed away
bout the condolence stuff toward them
my heart feel pain at a moment..
although i did not knew who are they,
but i just feel sad..
last time, i think of ending a life..
but now, seeing these youngster, that died tragically,
with all their hope and passion towards their future...
and how their parent rely on them...
because as i knew, one of the victim, came from a broken family
and the victim's mother put all the hope on the victim...
but end up...
at first, the people are standing actively in front of you...
but in a second, you will never see them again in life
cherish my life from now onwards...


human behavior are hard to predict...
they are nice to you for a moment
after a turnaround, they change into complete stranger...

lot of things happen..
laughter that you heard, hiding lots of pain inside..
keep on struggling on life..
but there are people just don't know how lucky they are
and keep on complaining and complaining everyday (that me, i admit)
people said,
happy go through a day, are better than you sad and crying over the day
what for you wanna became so sad over a things that happened in past
and only you the one, who keep on remember it
sad over the things that is in future..
and only you the one, who keep scaring yourself off...
i keep on telling to myself all those thing above..
but i just cant help myself thinking all these things..
is hard for me to become a simple person..

haih..
i just don't know who am i yet
i keep on changing myself everyday for stupid reason..
and I'm wandering who am i actually
if I'm disappear from this world..
i wander, how many people will remember me...


[i keep on teasing on these type of human
and yet i change into this kind of human]
[tears drop to tell myself is lucky to be alive]
Rest In Peace to all of them...