ME = Lansi??

I very arrogant?

i very snobbish?

I very Lanci?

previously i may~

but is not that i put my pride high~

is because i afraid people would not want to recognize me as friend..

i live in shameful live =(

lol

this is so over-crapped..

but this is what i think of myself..

sometimes,

i don't even think i deserve being friend with you..

i will always thought that i may not be that good,

you will feel ashamed to have me as friend...

sigh~

maybe the friend circle i have previously is too small..

my friend protected me well..

i afraid of being hurt..

i afraid people may not want to wave back or smile back when i smile or wave to them..

too many thing that i afraid..

i try to change now..

now i am slightly better..

i am little bit brave when I'm with friend,

i feel confident to do so if there is friends beside me..

(still sound like loser ==)

but people just don't want to look at me..

i don't know why..

the same friend i had met for two years plus plus or even more

they just don't wanna look at me..

is it i change too much that they cant recognize me..

sad

my problem?

my fault for not just go and say hi to them?

my face problem?

i born with arrogant and fierce face?

i am not friendly in reality?

people dislike me?

i cant open a conversation well?

I'm not a good talker?

things that i talked boring?

i too boring?

i am not attractive enough to be listed in your friend list?

i look like a nerd-IT~ians?

T^T

that people added many people, but not me..

i hesitate many many many times,

thinking wanted to add or not..

in the end, i end up not adding anyone..

for me, i afraid the people feels like i add them because i need to use them or what..

plus,

i added one guy i liked previously~

and till now, i talk nothing or anything with him..

keep saw his update and i still don't dare to comment!

because i afraid again!

afraid people would not reply!

he even take 3 weeks plus to approve me previously..

make me feel no chance at all and I'm totally stab-my heart-to-death..

and of course,

he do live perfectly in imagination =)

maybe not knowing you is the best, you can stayed perfect in my mind forever till i forget you someday...

maybe the reason of everything i have is..

i expected too much..

i think too much..

watch too much drama and i relate it too my real life,

and

and

and

i actually very good one

=)

I'm not a mean people..

can you just comment one time?

just one time!

and keep replying~

we can be best friend =D

can you add me~

I'm happy to see that you added me =D

*bright light* [ada chance ni xD]

someone save me from the imagination world

=(