I Used to....

this one is a lame post..

u can ignore this one if u dislike crap..

is been a year and plus several month i start studying outside..

although it not so far away but i miss my home (some time)

since i enter the whole new world of mine..

i spot something missing in me..

hell yeah~~

i forgotten how SS i am..

i forgotten that i used to love SS so much..

i forgotten how SS feel like...

and you know what?

one year,

and all those feeling to SS disappear..

those craps that i love to talk so much previously..

i feel so childish..

those joke i feel funny previously..

those joke that i love to laugh till tear drops before i even ask it..

those joke..

it make me feel dot dot dot..

i remember how i use to in love with msn so much

how i love to sms so much

i can entertain up to 9 people in chat box previously..

talking nonsense, talking crap, just chat whatever it is..

i use to empty my sms inbox up to 5 times in a day..

because the memory keep full..

NOW?

msn sign in for a day,

not even two box appear on my task bar...
my phone, not even a sms appear for one week or more...

and i even lazy to press the phone..

lazy to reply or forward a sms

i remember how i use to talk joke or crap with my friends..

i remember i use to laugh till tear drop whenever there is a gathering with bunch of friends..

NOW?

i feel tired..

sometimes i don't even feel like i want to talk or laugh..

those picture above..

if the previous me.. i sure will eliminate those fugly pose..

now i even lazy to do so..

i lazy to edit the picture..

i just throw it all and randomly sort it and put a font in it..

and that't it...

is it I'm turning older in my thinking or I'm old?

i try to implement all those feeling again..

i try talk joke again..(COLD)

i try to crap again (FAILED)

i try SS again(UGLY)

oh great.. i failed

=(

wah!

just only one year i already change like an auntie..

Face it

I do not really believe that how much you pour into something is equal to how much you gain..

but then,

when there is some one sad or emo~ing

i just cant help myself to said this kind of fake-encouraging statement to them..

is like creating a fake hope to them

people just love to hear something nice when they are down..

people just refuse to accept the truth..

they escape from the reality to beg some sympathy..

they try to grab some attention by being silent..

they want to avoid the fact that needed to be face because they don't want to face it alone..

they just hate to be alone...

[i mean me]

sorry...

i love to judge people base on me..

sometimes,

i just don't want to..

because i don't know how to..

and because you have more friends that care bout you more than me..

i have no power to voice out my opinion..

just hope that,

other people can wake you up..

to face the reality..

hope that,

you can change your attitude over everything..

to be a better one..

to chase away all the pain from you...

everyone is worrying about you..

they discuss about you every time you are not around..

dare not to discuss it to you,

cause you sure would not want to listen to it..

you don't want to accept the fact that you are sick..

some people just fed up looking on how you going to make thing even worst..

you so stubborn

thing is getting even worst..

really hope that you would make a step..

face the reality...

the process is tough..

but you still have us to support you..

we may not be able to understand your pain..

but we can help you to stand again when you fell..

we can bring laughter to you when you feel pain..

we are here..

=)

WorkHard?

Since i start to study at UTAR

i start to in love with DSLR camera..

wish to own this type of camera so so much..

i don't know why i want to own it..

maybe because of trend?

it can't be i love to take photo..

maybe i love to take picture..

but it is not till the stage to own this kind of professional camera to snap those picture..

friend tell me that it is not so wise to buy this type of camera at this time..

is kind of waste of money..

even my parent and my sibling said the same..

they advice me to buy a compact camera first instead of a DSLR camera..

they knew me..

they knew that i will be just passion with this kind of thing for a while..

and then i will throw away the DSLR camera..

==

plus.. no one will play this kind of camera together with me..

there are a friend who just bought a lomo camera(which is one of the cam i wan to buy)

seriously encourage me to buy..

purchasing this camera,

is one of the reason why i work so hard in every semester break..

even friend went to vacation and i wanted to go so much too..

i bare with it, just to achieve what i want to buy..

some friends, tell me..

just buy it when your loan come..

i don't want to because i want to buy this thing with my OWN money..

this time,

I'm truly jealous...

ENVY with a friend of mine..

I'm sorry to said that,

some people just need not have to work hard to own something..

parent pampered them so much and will just bought to them..

aaaaah..

maybe my parent will buy one for me too if i really ask for it..

REALLY mean it..

but..

in the end,

i still think that i should work hard to own something that i really love..

at least,

in future when i dump this thing away,

i wont feel sorry to anyone except myself..

the feeling of wanna buy a DSLR camera disappear slowly..

envy it when my friend and my brother can shake leg and do nothing during semester break..

some time i just don't understand what is the reason for me to work so hard...

work so hard but my family did not really support me to buy this kind of expensive thing..

but at this moment..

i really hope i can own it....

Glee

Glee is a drama..

musical drama...

is not cast by those girl who sang 'Gee Gee Gee~~ Baby Baby~~'

this drama did not catch my attention at first..

because there are no hot guy in it..

thanks to the great review by all of my friends..

i watch it~

officially in love with this drama so so so so much..

although the actors and the actresses did not look as great as Vampire Diaries..

but the story line is good~ maybe they talk bout conflict in school and it does reflect a bit with my life...

i love every episode of this drama,

the songs is beautiful and entertain..

I'm so envy with the actresses with those beautiful voices and the skills they have..

i envy that they have a teacher like this.. cool...

never bump with this kind of teacher in my life at all...

he does look great when he sing xP

OMG!!

the drama is addictive and the songs as well...

can't wait for season 2!!!

努力喜欢你的喜欢

我一直都很努力，

努力去喜欢你的喜欢..

你喜欢的，

我都懂..

我喜欢的，

你懂得多少？

就是因为你从来都没听，

从来都没问..

我喜欢的歌，

我喜欢的颜色，

我喜欢的一切，

你从来都不懂..

全都是你以为这是我喜欢的，

你就跟别人说这就是我要的，

这就是我..

现在的我，

对你来说，

只是你以为的我..

你们，

根本，

不了解..

最心疼的是，

你们，

永远都不会努力去喜欢我的喜欢..

现在的我们，

变了..

你发觉到吗？

只有你在说，

我一直都在听..

你有 听过我说的话吗？

你有 努力去听吗？

你有 在听吗？

我还是你的朋友吗？

='(

但是，

自私的我，

还是很希望很希望，

你会喜欢我的喜欢..

我还会努力的喜欢你的喜欢..

会一直的努力，

直到你看到我..

the saddest part of all is,

we no longer can be in the same conversation anymore..

you still cant realize the distance between me and you had became so far away..

i hate it!!

when there is no one that i can share what i like..

what i love!!

what i want!!

because no one even bother..

stuff that i like, usually no one like it..

i have the worst taste ever..

=..=

RELEASE!!

candle night

Yesterday went to Band Night organized by my school music club..

paid RM10 and keep yelling like insane..

is kind of worth..

enjoying music..

lots of handsome guy at there.. xD

feel so relieve when i yell out loud with no worries..

ah ah~

million of thank you to my friends who willing to go with me ^^

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OK

one thing i hate becoming single is

people start to use me and making fun of me..

especially those who are already in a relationship..

most of them..

is it this is the way for you to boast that you have the one you loved and the other loved you back and bla bla bla to me~~

huh....

this is some of the reason why i hate to befriend with those people who are in a relationship..

sometimes, they talk like they did not know how to respect people..

i only be-friend with those people who respect who i am..

those people seriously need to be thought again how to communicate with people properly,

as most of the time they only know sweet talk with their loved one and abandoned others friends..

so don't whining in whatever facebook or msn that you don't have friend when you are in relationship..

think! how you treated your friends when you put yourself in full commitment during your relationship..

I'm not angry..

just feel very uncomfortable...

by the way,

I'm not mentioning all people..

I'm just attacking certain people who make me upset...

opps.. so you are upset huh?

do you think of my feeling when you making fun of me in front of so many people?

=..=

盧廣仲 - 四果冰

AAaah!!!

waited for so long for his album after his making his biggest debut in 七天

super exicted!!!

四果冰

this EP only have four songs...

love it so so so so much~~

^^

Track List:

01. To：
02. 蚊子
03. Nice to Meet You
04. 雪兒

love [Nice to Meet You] the most..

is like singing my university life..

蚊子 is suppose to be an annoying insects,

he can sing till so sentimental~~

very pek chek lyric.. very cute very cute songs~~~

"我说：du~ lu~lu~lu...

你说：嗯~~~~~ "

wahaha!!

great job Crowd~~~

Nice to Meet You

我就在淡水河的旁邊

我看著太陽慢慢不見

每次一到了這個時候

我還在回家的公車上面

就快要愛上了淡水

除了雨下不停的冬天

不管未來會在哪一邊

我還是會想念

不能忘記的有

大一開學的那天

還有 一起去過的海邊

你說 人生要瘋狂幾遍

我都懂

只是習慣比較早點睡

繞著操場一圈圈

時間過了一年又一年

我要忍著眼淚地說

很高興能認識你耶

我最親愛親愛的同學

我還在淡水河的旁邊

這裡的風景有些改變

但我還是沿著河邊走

才發現我們認識了多久

天知道我有多愛淡水

除了雨下不停的冬天

不管未來會在哪一邊

都還是會想念

不能忘記的有

遇見你的那一天

還有 熬夜到天亮的冒險

人生就是要瘋狂幾遍

我都懂

但是能不能健康一點

繞著操場一圈圈

時間過了一年又一年

我要忍著眼淚地說

很高興能認識你耶

我最親愛親愛的同學

不能忘記的有

大一開學的那天

還有 一起去過的海邊

你說 人生要瘋狂幾遍

我都懂

只是習慣比較早睡

繞著操場一圈圈

時間過了一年又一年

我要忍著眼淚地說

很高興能認識你耶

我最親愛親愛的同學

時間能不能永遠停在

這天