This Friend of Mine

there is a friend of mine..

came from the same hometown..

studying in a very same university..

what make us difference is..

every night,

i go out eat with friends..

This friend of mine,

eat only maggi and bread plus tuna..

and suprisingly,

this friend of mine..

seldom go out eat..

every night,

i went out yum cha~ing, online till the sunrise, assignment~ing last minute...

This friend of mine,

sleep early early..

every weekend,

if i got the chances to back hometown,

i follow my friends car,

or jump to the bus and fly back home..

This friend of mine,

ride motor from here to hometown..

riding solo~~

I wish

to end my university life so damnly,

i make every semester credit hour full!!

This friend of mine,

choose another courses to easier the study,

the very same course,

from 3 years to 4 years..

i am so swt!!!

but i really salute This friend of mine..

worship U!!!!

u very hor liao!!!

all the best to you in Sungai Long...

will deeply miss you

maybe sometime xD

This Friend of Mine

reject

why people can reject me that easily..

I'm still scare..

to go,

to do,

everything...

ALONE...

i have zero confidence in asking for help now..

i have zero confidence to ask someone accompany me awhile now..

especially when it come to them..

everything that i asked keep rejected..

all what i can do now is waited for you to find me...

maybe I'm just not very important in your life compare to other friends of your..

i should learn to reject once awhile..

I'm so down..

i put so much effort in it..

and yet i failed to do it..

i really don't know what i should do right now..

it felt like my life is totally messed up..

=(

i should hold it..

but not today..

not after what I've done

not after what I've gone through these few days..

I'm extremely-officially tired and exhausted

TT

My Hate

maybe other will think my hate toward you is cruel as friend..

but....

the real intention were not 100% in hate..

i was hoping,

you to turn more into a person who i wanted to..

maybe you didn't,

that why i get annoyed..

I care bout you

that the reason

why i hate you

it is stupid

but i do hope for your forgiveness

when you realize how bad i am someday..

Untitle

I'm awaken from daydreaming~

have no where to go

have nothing to do

here i am again

waiting for new notification

waiting for new mail

waiting for new update

waiting for new response

waiting for new message

waiting for a called

waiting to see a new tab appearing

waiting it to be complete

my life is full of waiting..

i still doesn't have the courage to break through the waiting..

though people said,

life is short,

try everything and speak out..

I'm still too afraid to face it..

I'm afraid of failure

I'm afraid of rejection

hmmm..

Fragile

Life is fragile..

Cherish it..

Love people around you while you could..

We will never knew what will happen next..

All what i can wish is

the safety of all the people i love and i care the most..

though i don't know you,

but i still feel very sad..

maybe I'm wrong..

to think bout death of me every time..

maybe I'm scared..

that my friends will accidentally end up just like you..

rest in peace..

You're in the arms of the angel, May you find some comfort there

p/s: Fuck that damn-asshole-brainless Doctor, even if u survive from the law.. i wish ur children will end up being crashed by someone like you..

Happy Birthday

A simple post...

Just to wish some one happy birthday~

for the one behind me..

ya

she look like this

haha!

Happy 20~ing

nothing wanna give you

your birthday fall on the day where i really broke~ing

so really paiseh ar...

but i really really sincere

wanna say it out loud

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Looking into your eye..

make me realize

I'm weak

I'm stupid

I'm not insane

recently just insomnia..

feel so sorry for myself if i choose to sleep..

rather spend my time blogging, reading and see

the life of other..

and learn the best from them..

started to dislike NORMAL..