Wrong?

I'm kind of upset..

=(

just don't know why..

at first everything seems to be so perfect and i was totally looking forward for everything..

but now..

after everything become more clearer,

i felt that i had chosen to wrong course..

seriously..

i never score well for my course related subject since my foundation studies..

everyone is like getting at least a B or above...

while I'm below it..

assignment?

is totally a crap..

i never really done or contributing at least half of the assignment works..

and others people are doing it quite well..

today,

after working for over 2hours..

only i realize,

i am weak..

i am nothing without help from my classmates..

i cant even solve a diploma-like-assignment..

==''

this make me feel so sick of myself that still feeling proud when telling others people that I'm studying IT courses..

now everything is getting tougher and I'm still lost in no where..

Programming, a subject which i thought i knew and familiar it when i start studying..

I'm totally so wrong with it..

T__T

i cant even run the program..

keep on showing error or asking me to abort the system..

not to mention that i failed to install a software from a CD..

i failed to download those software from net, even searching it is a problem to me..

i failed to register those free-trial-software with those crackie stuff which till now i don't even understand..

even when the computer pop out update for everything such as java or my AVG..

i just ignore it all..

i am just failed to do everything related to computer..

and everyone thought i am so so so good with it..

==

and i never really understand the process of formatting a computer, which my lecturer told me that IT base student should really get to known of this concept..

sigh~

did i choose a wrong path?

I don't even know..

T_T

Skull-Hat

Last Saturday i went to Ipoh..

I hang out at Ipoh Parade,

it feels like i haven't been there for ages..

lots of things had changes at there,

the 'lala' store are no longer so 'lala'..

and shop at there are much more valuable to spend time with if compare to Jusco which only have like 5 shops that can make me have a stop to look at...

by the way,

i did mention to friends that i want to owned a sunglasses,

preferable the type that Crowd Lu's spec..

I've tried all various kind of glasses..

sigh..

my head is big, my nose so kempis, and my eye is so small...

I'm not suit to wear this type of glasses...

so that's all for the sunglasses stories..

I'm no longer hunger for it anymore..

cause when i look at the mirror,

i look uglier than wearing my standard5 spectacle..

[my 1st spec]

my another addiction is hat,

a skull-hat..

just like the picture above,

almost the same as the above picture lar,

the one that really catch my attention is a skull hat that a model wear at Private Colour

phew, it really take all my attention away..

the cloths at the shop also a catches,

all those Korean style..

but the price of the items inside the shop is killing my purse..

though there have RM30 per cloth,

but the skull-hat draw my attention away..

the female model wear the type of vintage clothing and with the hat..

it looks so gorgeous....

it seems so alive LOL

i like the vintage-type of red, you know? the type of red that look old old de....

and that hat is not just like the skull-hat shown at the picture..

is a bit different type of hat i guess, cant be label as a skull hat also

so geram that i cant find any similar skull-hat's picture at the net to show u all and for me to keep admire to..

T_T

i still miss the hat.........................

but after buying it..

will i have any chances to wear it?

xD

i found a friends who dare to do anything as long as people accompany her..

just like the time we wear Christmas hat and lepak at kampar during Christmas eve...

so maybe next time i will buy it, MAYBE~~

i think when my loan is approved,

i will spend like a shopaholic..

i just cant resist it..

^^

till now i still cant forget the hat...

Ipoh Day Out

lazy to add in caption...

lazy to talk bout it..

cz im too tired

anyway, it is a good good trip^^

Shit Star

what exactly had happen anyway?

why i dont catch any clue in between?

is it im going to over?

im the one suppose to be blame for causing this?

it is too obvious to be felt..

just those human like me which is born with a retarded-stupid-brain+eye cant felt it...

maybe is time for me to back off..

maybe by this,

i wont feel like im an idiot in front of others..

i shouldnt look too high on myself,

look myself as if i got everything and everything owned me as part of it..

first week i realize,

but i thought it might be a fake misunderstood i created by my own..

mid of the second week,

things became clearer and clearer for me to see through the mist..

if i back off will make the earth feel more better when rotating around the sun..

then i will...

should i apologize for disturbing the natural routine of earth..

do i have the right to feel pissed off??!!

do you feel that I'm talking bout you?

YES.. IT'S YOU...

don't worry,

because I'm the one who suppose to be blame for being an idiot..

it is not your fault~~

because the sun control the whole universal and I'm just a "tiny-mini-shit star"

[shit star=tahi bintang]

so?

sun did not move but the shit star does,

so when something happen?

then it is my fault lor..

anyway,

the meteor keep approaching the sun but the sun still seems so far away..

the sun did not even bother to spin toward the meteor,

after so many years,

the distance between the meteor and the sun is still very far away..

so no matter how hard i try to approach you,

you still did not want to accept me..

I'm just sound like an idiot running toward you where as you only keep on looking at the other planet but not a star like me..

you may laugh at my posts,

because u never realize that I'm talking bout you..

because you never bother..

it is a stupid comparison that would never catch your attention..

funny huh~?

other planets are much more important..

because star are not as attractive like a planet

and together the planets and the sun will form the galaxy,

while the star is just part of the short-stories to be mentioned...

star can shine without the help from the sun,

sun thought that star can survive,

but it cant

as sun is the mother of the whole universe..

star need sun,

but sun never realize it...

I ❤ Jacker

Do I ❤ Jacker?

Do U ❤ Jacker?

Actually i never eat this crisps before..

Today one of my classmates bought this..

instead of throwing it away,

so i go-green for it

^^

SEE~~

I AM SO ECO-FRIENDLY

These are the only Humans that still Survive!!!

Gang among the classmates i usually hang out with during foundation..

is kind of sad that everyone left,

but we are still FRIENDS in TC's Water Station..

That's the reason why I ❤ Jacker TODAY

Thanks

Gift

really appreciate every gift that is given by friends..

i met a lot of new people,

i grumble lots of negative thing bout these new friends..

i always complained and never feel satisfied with everything..

but then i realize,

these people are the one who always by my side whenever i need help..

even i never speak out, somehow and sometimes they knew i need them...

when I'm alone, they will chat with me..

when I'm hungry, they will buy food for me, eat together^^...

when I'm bored, they will come and entertain me..

when i talk, they listen

when i play, they joined

when i make mistake, they forgive

when I'm in trouble, they help

when i wanna go somewhere else, they accompany

when i don't know, they teach

friend for life is never existed..

but i feel lucky to have them as part of my life..

and me as part of the stories of their life...

they fill up my imperfection..

this is the best gift i ever receive in my life..

thanks.. ^^

i always ask for more for life,

and i ignored important little things around me...

appreciate little things and make life good...

School Life

I got my FULL time table

and this is it..

quite satisfied with it..

click on the picture to enlarge it..

for those who are still wandering what kind of courses I'm studying,

you can see yourself the subject below it..

and make a guess yourself..

I'm NOT REVEALING IT XP

i told you all before right, that all the new subjects totally freak me out..

it is really harder than i thought..

i really afraid i cant cope up with these "certain-level-of-professional-subject"

which my lecturer told me that syllabus had changes with time as the school doesn't want to produce LOW-QUALITY students..

so who on earth are going to tease my school ever again..

come and take the exam like as if you were clever..==

the system totally change unlike the senior time..

now passing grade is 50% which is a C

below it is consider FAILED, there is no longer a D or a F existed in the result slip..

maybe the exam system will change again and i don't know anything about that..

this is what my lecturer told me..

by the way,

i haven't said that i successful register Japanese language as my elective courses

at first i was so damn HAPPY bout it..

but just after today when i finish my lecture class..

i felt little bit regret taking this..

HARD!!!

next week lecture class we will start reading Japanese material..

i was like WTF??!!

i just study some (which consist of around 30+) weird looking alphabet

and i had to memorize them before next week

T_T

maybe i should go for french~~

(its toooo late)

so that is some story of my experience of entering my Degree..

i need to start everything alone again..

my previous classmates are not in the same class with me,

and i don't wanna beg them to join me plus I'm lazy to change it myself..

so i am totally alone also, just like the first time i enter the school..

but at least during the class there are some familiar faces..

and some friend which i not usually hang out with are quite friendly toward me...

i thought that i can meet some one new but when i enter the class,

everyone seems to be gather in one group already..

are they coming together??!!!

ishk...

some friends of mine telling me that they are totally alone again..

really can imagine the feeling of alone going to class...

just like an idiot..

and if the lecture or tutor pointing at you asking to answer question..

the whole attention are on you and making you so damn nervous..

everyday pray hard that the tutor will not notice my "not-so-famous" name...

some interesting classes seems turn to be boring if alone attending the class..

the passion of talking seems to be gone..

wanna try to be friend with others but others seems like don't wanna look at me or already in a big gang..

just don't know where to start..

alone is like a nightmare even you are not asleep..

=.=

in conclusion i just hate alone..

p/s: have you ever consider of changing your course to be with me?

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