i don't know

whenever i get alone,

the feeling come again..

have been feeling like this since last week..

try to immune my brain and heart not to think negatively by listening to songs..

talk with friends,

make myself super busy and damn tired before go off to bed..

try to make myself don't get myself so into the social networking website..

and now, i end up addicted to youtube.com

the silent creep me..

i can't stand it,

i wanted to find someone to talk to, but when im with someone,

i dont know want to talk what to you..

i don't know what actually making me under depression..

i don't know what i want

i don't know what i need

i don't know...

i don't know why i am so stupid..

i don't know wanna how to express what i want,

the want that me myself confuse with..

i..

jealous

envy

you..

finally tear drop after holding it for so many day..

T^T

purposely write so many thing to make myself cry..

i need to release a bit stress..