joke

telling me that you hated it..
all what i can see is you still cant let it go..
even though it is stupid,
you still bang your head into the wall,
and became the joke everyone around you...

you admitted it but refuse to face it..
all those words which seems so reality turn out to be a lied..

when i started to look good on you,
you created hate again...
maybe from the start,
i am the idiot one,
to believe in you...

i don't understand,
why people choose to end it..
but grieve for it every single days..
when you have it in your hand,
you hated it..
when you lose it,
you regretted for it..
maybe i should not complain so much in this,
as i have zero experience although i have lots of stories...

even though they keep telling others,
they are still the same like the last time..
but,
they change from worst to even worst...
when it started,
your eyes looking at the same direction and you started to ignore people around you..
when it end,
your eyes try to look at other direction but keep on looking at the back...
till now,
you are nothing but just walk a big round and went back to the direction,
where everything of this is started..

when it end,
they tell others,
they will not regret..
instead, they will live more happy than the others..
you failed to do so..
you create a miserable life of your own..
that is not the point..
you are also creating a JOKE of people around you..
people(just like me) mostly will not pity at you,
even if they really help you..
friends will only laugh at you stupidness..

wake up idiot..
in this time..
you have only three choices..
1. forget it and move on
(well i think you should forget bout this choices, since you have failed to do so from the first spot.. even if you said you can.. but in the end, you are still the same)
2. just tell that people how you feel
(instead of grieving and whining everyday, why don't you face to face tell the other how you really feel bout this issue? at least you got the answer)
3. FRIEND
(yep, continue be a friend and stop hoping for more)

it start from you telling you wanna be a friend..
so,
why don't you really be a friend?
hoping too much from the others and hoping them can be the one you wish too..
that is just your wish,
and not what other wanted from the first point??
they have tell you very OBVIOUSLY,
and you really don't have the power to keep on complaining bout it..
this is just so stupid...
even if you failed..
please blame no one but yourself..
we already tell you maybe not from the first spot..
but at least we told you so...


if you think that,
when you are giving and lending your hands,
and hoping others will did the same to you..

you are so wrong...

i choose to end it..

so even i am looking at it every time..

i will not complain bout it...

will you do the same?

when a No is a Yes,

when a Hate is a Like,

when Last actually is the First...