I am Lazy

Aaaaaa

I'm trying my best to concentrate on my programming studies..

it feel so easy and yet,

there is lots of minor little tiny mistake can lead to ERROR~~~~

nothing will pop out..

more worst than web page design..

but..

i still thought that this subject is the easiest of all

ngek ngek..

maybe this is the reason of why i still procrastinate..

procrastinate is just an excuses to admit that I'm lazy~~~

i think I'm started to feeling much more better now..

huhuhu..

thanks god..

i don't wanna end up spending my days in the toilet when i get back to studies..

plus..

i also don't wanna fart inside the class

XP

cant wait to went back there..

staying at home whole days making my head feel so dizzy...

it is far better to be feared than loved

Pain

Yesterday were a rough night i ever went through after so many years..

i used to laugh at people who suffer from diarrhea..

not until i feel it myself..

it start from feeling unwell from the previous night before i went to clean up my ancestor grave yesterday...

i feel really sorry for destroying the meaningful day..

I'm even sicker than my grandmother..

T.T

maybe i ate something wrong.. [the duck]

after i went home..

my stomach started to feeling unwell....

aaaa..

countless time to toilet..

until I'm afraid to go to toilet...

and i keep make myself bear with all those pain,

just because i hate to go to toilet at the middle of the night..

i ate too many different medicine..

i even thought that i will end up in hospital..

luckily I'm feeling much more better right now..

but dizziness and stomach pain still attacking once awhile...

thanks mum for doing all those job for me..

luckily I'm sick at home..

one thing i hate bout sick is when dizzy attacking me..

when i feel hot

or when i started to sweat like hell till one point..

my head will start to spin..

the world seems to be spinning..

there is more than one times i feel like fainted due to the hot weather at diamond bay..

luckily

phew~~

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i suddenly thinking of those thing again..

although people 'worship' you as a good people..

but still..

i cant forget it since that day...

maybe people change...

lots of thing bout you had change..

or i just don't understand you from the start???

from that day onward...

i started to set a distance between you and me...

just in case..

you treated me like you treated other like i see with my own eye....

is been a hard week..

tomorrow will be the first mid-term test..

and i haven't even study a things for it..

God Bless me..

i hope i can remember all those formula.....

by the way..

theory part is not included right??

oh..

I'm so dead...

the feeling of hate coming again...

i hate to be at home although i love my home so much

maybe i just hate the people at the town...

the feeling of people forgetting my existence is growing stronger and stronger as each day pass...

do we really have to fight and make other realize that we are actually existed before??

i really don't know what to do and how to do...

i hate to be friend with those i knew last time..

it feels like, money is kind of an important issue to them..

i just don't have the capability to afford those things they have..

i just don't have the money to buy and spend like them...

maybe I'm ways too afraid be friend with those who are rich..

is seems like they will scan each item you owned..

whatever thing you wear..

sigh~~~

i hate of going back to there again..

the place I'm studying now..

is full of complicated relationship among friends, families and the one they loved..

lots of hot gossiping occurring around me..

is kind of freaking me out..

is like i was into some part of those gossip and turned to a bad people..

now whenever I'm walking alone at school,

it feels like I'm being watches by some people

or feels like people are pointing behind me talking bad bout me..

everything of this feels so shit..

i cant said i don't give a damn care bout it

because i really care of it..

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i don't know why I'm too into it..

everything around me that look familiar once seems to be so far away...

i really felt so clueless of what i should do..

i am totally lost today...

on the way back home

i am all alone

Neutral

I'm in a neutral side..

i never said who really did the wrong thing and who is the right one..

maybe I'm a Bad people in my bloggie..

but what make me different from you is..

i never have the gut you got..

i never mention straightly whom i mention in my blog

that

make me feel pissed off

make me feel irritated

that is the reason why..

i am still labelled as 'good people'

i crap a lot..

i mix a lot of my story with different people in one story..

so one day..

you are into my story without you even realizing it..

because my blog is boring, draggy and no story line...

plus..

i have less reader if compare to other successful blogger..

because my story is dull and bored and full of crapping with no point

that only satisfied my own...

which mean..

if i ever wrote out anything bad bout someone..

no one will ever realize who is that guy..

unless you really is a good friend of mine...

i knew how it feel like when being critic by others..

maybe you felt that,

you are right in expressing what you felt..

but think again..

human are eager to taste everything...

they wanna try something they never tried before..

a dramatics changes..

ended up being critic by everyone..

maybe those who critic feel that they are right bout what they say...

but respect other feeling..

even when you really feel so pissed with whatever others said..

you should accept whatever it is..

because you choose it to happen..

talk till the end..

both parties should respect each others..

both parties shouldn't even form a gang to hate each other

one mistakes,

sorry cant fix a thing..

that's the end..

please don't hate me..

I'm just sleepy..

and wrote this fast to said that I'm neutral..

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lots of thing happen recently

which make me don't know to differ when is the best time to smile or sad..

lots of dangerous people around me

lots of people with sad face around me..

and the time..

still tik tok~ing

HELP

I need help from all the kamparian..

this morning around 3am,

my friend's motor being steal by some motherfucker..

which we suspected that this guy is a fucking 'pig'

and had aim my friend's motor for such a period...

please help look around for

a white EX5 with plat number AGV2371

is a new motor that not even celebrate it's one years birthday...

the fucking thief is such an asshole...

help me spread this news away..

click here to look at the motor

A Song

I'm happy when i knew that i might listening to the song you are listening

I'm happy to know that,

you have such a good taste in songs..

I like it so much...

thank you for sharing your songs with me,

although i stalked on your profile only get to know of the songs you are listening

XP

I'm not going to write anything bout you anymore..

you are not worth to be rejected..

=.=

maybe we do not suit to be your friends...

and is a mistake to start all this..

now everyone is hoping a move from you..

i never meant to hurt anyone...

for anything i might have done, i apologize to you...

sometime i want to help..

but there is time,

staying out of the line is helping..

when i know nothing on how to help..

i just watch from far..

even though i knew you are wrong from the start..

you never accept what i offered..

so,

everything..

is up to you..

your money,

your feeling,

your life..

i wish you could see

my half trouble too

=)

today were quite happy dinner~ing with my friends..

actually is a birthday dinner..

no picture is taken by me

and no picture will be uploaded since I'm super duper lazy~~

there is lots of things running in my mind just now..

but once i wanted to express all of it here..

everything gone..

buuush~~ gone, just like that..

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i hate my short term memory loss...

i think there is something wrong with my ear dy..

i cant listen to soft voice..

and i cant even listen to the proper sound i used to heard last time when i knocking my head or something..

i cant put this on word..

all what i can said is,

there is really something wrong with my ear..

maybe the effect of listening too much song in high volume..

I'm learning to listen in lower volume [sob TT ]

i even less listen to songs now..

maybe thanks to the server down of the forum i used to visit..

now i totally out of dated with those updated songs...

the serious problem of my mind is..

i don't listen, if I'm not the first to listen among my friends..

just like brother and my cousins

i knew he is so obsessed with the English songs..

till my housemates tell me to listen to the songs which listen by my brother months ago..

then only i realize,

the songs...

quite special...

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• Lenka
• F(x) - Thrill Love
• Epik High - Run

Lenka songs is nice..

i love her voice..

but only few songs of her album attracted me..

f(x), i love them more than snsd or Kara..

maybe i love their style..

they sang the songs which suit my mood whenever i listen to them once they release their single..

Epik High, this is the first time i ever in love with their songs..

the previous album..

erm, suppose to said, the album i downloaded [i forget the title]..

mostly is in heavy mode..

which is not my type for Korean songs..

but this is different..

ways to go EH..

he is right bout the songs he promoting..

i mean a blogger i saw...

songs he listen are quite nice..

but i prefer acoustic songs rather than piano songs to make me sleep..

piano sounds is too high in pitch..

it make my ear hurt..

maybe i downloaded the wrong version of true piano songs...

okay that's all for music posting..

happy belated birthday my friend..

p/s: I'm Getting FAT