something is bothering me recently

i don't know how to explain it..

the feeling came to me again..

where i wanna shut myself from outside with only music accompany with everything..

sorry,

i may have been very aggressive recently,

i cant find the good EQ me anymore..

i try to force myself to entertain myself to laugh more..

sometime, it just don't work,

i'll back becoming more aggressive and won't talk or start teasing everything that other try to tell me..

what the hell is wrong with me?

i knew my problem and yet i cant control myself